MY CAGED LUNA

It all smelled, my room my breath myself but when was the last time I cared, I was sitting on the hard cold floor of my cage inside my room, the room lacking anything that says it is a room, no bed no chairs, or even table not to mention wardrobe the room only contain me and my cage which was placed at the center with two bucket, one filled with cold water and the other empty. I felt my breath draining and my heartbeat dropped when I heard his footsteps down the stairs to the basement where my room is, the door was pushed and it slid slowly open and there stood my nightmares, he walked in with no smile on his face which indicates that tonight will be like most of the other night when he comes back angry "Lily, my love, did you miss Daddy? Is this how you welcome Daddy, sitting down and avoiding my eyes? flower STAND" I know not to meet his eyes, so I stand still looking at my feet, I heard him open the cage, and I heard his footsteps till my eyes met his feet standing just in front of me, then he altered "LOOK" Something tells me not to look I have wound and pains that tells the consequences if I do, and yet I have untold pains that show the consequences of disobeying him, so I brought my eyes up looking straight to his brown eyes and the next thing I felt was a slap, a hard one which made me hit the floor and am sure I will have wounds on my cheek and where my body made contact with the floor "How dare you, Lily? You have her eyes, her hair, her everything, and for f**k sake, her name; you should be punished for this; I want her gone forever, but you keep reminding me of her, so tell me, how will you pay for this heavy sin. dear lily" I sat feeling nothing for this has been going on for over seven years. the man standing in front of me is not the man I spent my ten years of childhood with, the man I played hide and seek with he has changed, everything about him changed since my mom ran away from home with her lover leaving nothing but a scrap looking letter and when my father faced the letter, hell let loose, he drowns himself in alcohol, comes home late not checking on me nothing had made sense, it was like I don't exist anymore in his presence. Then one night, he came home, so badly drunk, that I had to help him to his room but he pushed me away asking me in tears "Why Lily why did you leave" I was sad because Lily is my mother's name, not mine I stood looking at him wondering what would make him better I hate seeing him this way He walked to me grabbing my hands his grip was so painful that it left a mark afterward I couldn't stand the pain that reflected in his eyes so ten years old me said "Dad it is me, Ivy, am here with you, mom is gone " It made him angry because I received a slap and a blow to my stomach, I was dragged to our basement while he altered "Leaving me was not enough, now you are calling me stupid. I will make sure you pay for this all your days breathing" I thought in the morning he would come for me letting me go with an apology but no, he left me there for two weeks locked down without food, water, or anything, maybe he forget me but boy was I That is so wrong. He came downstairs the third week with a change of clothes and food, and thanks for a bottle of water. Telling me not to die yet and giving me the news of my new room which is the room we stand in he made sure to note a gift later in the evening, the gift which I found out was the cage am in now, I hopefully tell myself that I will wake up from this nightmare but no the nightmare is a man living with me being stuck with this nightmare forever. I have no hope or plans of escape, my only hope is death and I can't wait till this gift from God reaches me, I so pray for God every day to send a grim reaper to my rescue I have accepted faith, my studying was stopped, and my youth is slowly moving to the end without stories to tell I looked for someone to blame and I found my mom, if she had stayed or if she had taken me with her, I would not be here, she turned my hero into a sword of nightmares she created this monster, if I had none of her genes I will not be here His voice brought me back to the reality "You will pay, no food for you for three weeks and if you die before the three weeks end, I will follow you and I will bring you back in the most dreadful way, you will stay, you will not leave Lily your stay and we will die old together understand" I did nothing but nod my head, he walked away locking up the doors, heading towards the door that leads to the staircase then he turned and Said "Be happy, at least you have water and me, my dear Lily"