CHAPTER 4: NICOLETTE
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NICOLETTE'S POV
I was still floating on cloud nine.
I just got fed on by a vampire.
Oh, God! I achieved orgasm by the fingers of a vampire.
What would Jesus say?
What would my father say?
I couldn't believe I'd prayed for forgiveness yesterday only to come and sin again today.
Normally I'd blame the devil, but Ambrose wasn't the devil, he was my saviour. I felt at home with him.
Was I in love with him? No, I couldn't, it was too soon. Maybe what I was feeling was lust.
Lust could be fun, right? But where does it lead? What is its purpose?
Every day of my life I was taught that lust was one of the seven deadly sins, plus everyone I knew who preferred lust to love was damaged by someone. They stopped trusting anymore and without trust, you couldn't have love, it just wasn't possible.
I wanted to have love with Ambrose, but is a vampire capable of anything other than lust? If the answer is no, I couldn't be with him.
I quickly found Alexis, and she informed me that Leroy was waiting for us outside.
My stomach ached knowing I was driving away from Ambrose. I felt lonely and lost.
“So where were you for two-and-a-half hours?” Lexi asked.
“I saw Barry and bolted upstairs. You know I hate crowds, so I just laid low for a while."
“Ok, I saw that, but I also saw you sneaking off with Mr Phantom. Did you two – do it?" Lexi winked.
“No, of course not, and his name is Ambrose. We mostly talked. He owns the Covali castle."
“Mostly talked? So what did you guys mostly not do?” She smacked her lips.
I could feel the blush loading on my cheeks. “Lexi, please, just drop it."
“Oh My God! You did something naughty! I can tell, spill the tea girl, I always tell you about my naughty adventures."
“I never asked you to, besides there's nothing to tell."
“Ok, Nicky, if you say so."
We rode home in silence after that.
After dad lectured me about ditching Barry at the ball, I went and got prepared for bed.
I couldn't get the heated images of Ambrose out of my head. What was so special about him anyways — other than he was a vampire?
In his gorgeous eyes, I saw my true home. He possessed this passion that brought solace to my fire, enough to bring out my earthen nature and calm.
And when he held me, his arms became my cocoon, a place to be myself, but he was a stranger, so why was I behaving like a naive teenager?
But were we ever strangers? I was not sure ever were. That night I first saw him, there was something even then, though I didn't know what. I wondered if there was an element of time that allowed us to feel a strong love, like an orange glow bursting over a dark horizon. It was light for our eyes only, something to carry us through this life. It was the dawn of the person I am today, the person I was destined to be. I would give up anything in this world for him, even my religious beliefs. I would do anything to be with him and keep him safe.
I'd rather be poor in money than risk losing his heart. I recalled the day our bond was forged. It was like being let into the warmth after a lifetime of winter. I could never wish to go back to even a day before that.
True love is a unity of souls, not facial features and products that would be wiped clean away come evening time. If we truly wished to be happy, to be healthy and grounded, and content with who we are, we needed to find real beauty in both ourselves and those who share our lives. Finding it began with a quiet understanding of one another, not demanding perfection but seeking the beauty every person holds within. And I planned on finding Ambrose's inner beauty because the Lord knows his outer beauty had no maxima.
I smiled when I felt the tiny flutter of my heart.
Could a person fall in love so soon or did he do something to me?
He is a vampire after all.
More questions plagued my mind.
Does he kill people? Of course, he does, he's a predator.
Could I be with such a fierce predator? I could try, if this feeling was real then I owe myself happiness, even if cost me damnation.
Was he capable of monogamy? I couldn't answer that one.
Humans are part of only 3-5% of mammals that pair bond, and practice mahogany.
But Ambrose was no human, he was a supernatural predator. My heart ached to imagine his lips on another.
If mom was here, she would have said he was a diamond in the rough, that's what she said about dad and I knew what she always meant. But to me, Ambrose was simply a diamond. His soul shone with such beauty, even though I knew deep down he didn't believe he had one. I guess that was part of why I was falling for him.
A yawn escaped my lips, and I settled in bed. I miss him already, I went to sleep hoping he'd visit my dream.
???
“Wake up! Wake up!" Lexi woke me from my slumber.
“What's wrong, Lexi?" I rubbed the sediments of sleep from my eyes. I looked at the alarm clock it was almost 5 am. “Why in God's name are you disturbing me so early?"
“You should be lucky I came here when I did. I could hear you moaning his name from across the hall," Lexi sighed. “You were m@sturbating in your sleep, weren't you?"
“I — I," I stuttered.
“There's no shame in the game. That's why I came in here. If uncle Paul heard you he'd have a heart attack. Nicky, tell me what happened between you and Ambrose."
“Lexi, I can't. It's too personal."
“Ok cous, but how about you explain to me why there are two puncture wounds in your neck?" She lowered her voice playfully. She took a better look at it. “Looks like vampire bites I've seen in movies. Is he a vampire? Kinky," she swatted my arm and laughed. My body stilled. “Is he a sadist? I dated one a few years ago, and they get boring after a while."
“No, he's not a sadist."
“Ok, so why are you acting so weird — I mean weirder than usual."
I could trust Lexi, and the events of last night had me questioning my sanity.
Maybe if I tell her I would feel better plus I'd have someone to talk to about this.
“Lexi, Ambrose is a vampire."
“Okay, I get it like Marilyn Manson."
“No Lexi, like Damon Salvatore," I sighed.
“Oh, so he's an actor. I told you he could have been Chris Hemsworth."
“Lexi! For Christ's sake. He's a real vampire. He bit my neck, fed from my veins while he fingered me," I blurted.
Lexi looked at me for a hard minute, then she erupted in a fit of laughter, falling onto my bed while she clutched her stomach, “Man, did Mr Phantom give you weed at the ball because not everyone can differentiate a hallucination from reality when they're high."
“Lexi I'm being serious."
“Ok cousin. Just get some more sleep. You need it," Lexi kissed my forehead before she exited the room.
I heard her laughing her way to her bedroom across the hall. I sighed as I sprawled on my bed.
Maybe I am losing my mind, I thought to myself as I fluffed my pillow.
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