Starting over with the bad boy

Chapter four secrets and lies

Carolyn's point a view

I woke up hoping that yesterday was just all a dream but I knew it wasn't , when I picked up my phone I saw I had miss call's and text's both from Edward and Jon, it's only nine in the morning, was hoping to sleep in a little but it's not gonna happen that's for sure so I mile as well just go back to work and school cause that's when I have to get up so early. 

any ways I ended up calling Edward back I knew he is probably a sleep still but at least he will know I am not ignoring him as for Jon well I'm  gonna have to go over to his house to see what his deal was this early morning due to the text I had saw that he sent me and this is what it had said.

Jon: hey angel I miss you come to my house so we can have fun again ;)

like really he knows that was a mistake that shouldn't have had happen okay so like I told him the truth but I am married and he's in a relationship with this girl but he said he don't care for her the way he dose for me still, that it would be so easy for him to break up with her but see I can't do that to Edward it's more complicated then that it's not a simple break up when ya married it's a divorce and sometimes it's never a good one depending on the situation.

I walked over to his house the way I was with my hair in a messy bun when I got to his house I didn't bother ringing the bell or knocking on the door I just walked right in I knew where he was he was in his bed room so I went up and that's when he saw me and said.

Jon: hey angel I knew it was you that I herd walk in. why don't you come here next to me?

Carolyn: um no I will not I know what you want and it can't happen again it was a very big mistake.

Jon: I'm sure it wasn't cause if it was angel it wouldn't have happened and it's not that it can't happen again it's that you won't do it I know you had fun doing it to.

Carolyn: that's the thing with you like it's cause your a bad boy and there isn't any thing that you don't like to do.

Jon: now that's not true well okay the bad boy part ya but there are things I don't like to do.

Carolyn: like what?

Jon: like I don't like that I let you be with Edward, I hate waiting for you, I hate missing you, I hate that I can't get over you, I hate that I didn't try harder to get you back, I hate that I am with this girl that is nothing like you......ect.

all I could do was stand there and let him say the list of things he don't like and it all had to do with me I didn't know what to say to him cause there was nothing to say. 

after he went on and on with what he said I did end up sitting next to him we talked that's all we did for now then my phone went off that's when I saw it was Edward,I did ignore the call I didn't want to answer his call right when I was with Jon, I know he is going to wonder why I didn't answer so I will just come up with why I didn't.

Jon: why didn't you answer your phone? I saw who it was.

Carolyn: cause I am here with you I'm not gonna answer when I'm with you.

Jon: what you gonna say to him after every time you are with me?

Carolyn: don't worry I will come up with something right now you need me to talk to and here I am so about that list.

Jon: ya sorry but I needed you to know also need you to know that I was messed up with out you I am sorry I hurt you I don't know how many sorry's it's going to take but I am sorry for not telling you every thing and I am sorry for lying to you and I am sorry for moving on with some one else.

Carolyn: you know what? I for give you and I am sorry I hadn't done it sooner I should have but I was feeling so broken.

Jon: I understand angel.

Carolyn: how about you and I just spend the day no one else just you and I. what do ya say?

Jon: sounds good although my girl friend and I are supposed to do something together.

Carolyn: well tell her your not feeling well you where up tossing and turning all night I mean you are pretty good at not telling the truth. so why stop with her when you don't even care for her?

Jon: okay your right I will do it so we can have the day together but what about Edward what happens.

I stop him be for he went further with his words.

Carolyn: don't worry about him once I call him back he will not bother me for the rest of the day you just deal with your girl and I will deal with my man. okay?

Jon: alright.

as I step out of his room and went down to the living room I called Edward back once he answered he did wanted to know why I didn't answer his call I knew I had to come up with something I don't lie and don't like doing it. but I had to when ever I am with Jon if he found out I was with him he would be unhappy about it so I told him that I had gone back to sleep for a little bit longer and with that he bought the lie I had told him.

after the talk I had with Edward I went back up to Jon's bed room he was still on the phone with her and I could tell he didn't want to be he wanted to be spending time with me, so I told him in a hush tone that he should tell her that he has to go some one is at the door and so he did and that is when he was able to get off the phone with her.

 just then that's when he grab my hand and pull me to him on the bed and we started kissing where it started to get heated just like before again, I knew it is wrong but s**t happens where we can not control what we do, are hormones just took over us just like before.

 any ways we ended up f*****g he would be on top of me then I would be on him we would both be moaning so loud as we where getting hot and sweaty I wanted all of him as he wanted all of me we just kept f*****g none stop there where times where he would turn me over and pound me from behind doggy style, as he was doing that he would take my hair and pull on it I have never seen this side of him I guess he really dose care and love me still.

but what I don't understand is why he didn't do this to me be for when we where together I guess that don't matter and now dose I didn't want to spoil the mood we where in, so I just ignored what I had on my mind be for I knew it I ended up on my back and he f****d me some more, I was feeling so relaxed I end up telling him that I was going to c*m witch he knew with the way my orgasms where going we had been going at it for some time now.................... after the s****l moment we had we just lay on his bed under the covers cuddling I had my head on his chest we didn't move not one inch............ 

as time went by I knew I had to go witch he didn't want me to he asked me to spend the night with him that's when I said it wasn't good that I do that I didn't want to disappoint him like that since after making love with him again but I saw that look on his face it was pain and I had to tell him that I really did have a wonderful time but I have to go back and besides his girl friend could show up and see us that is when he said that I really didn't have to go and also his girl wouldn't be able to get in the house cause she don't have the key witch surprise me.

 cause they been together this long I guess he really don't care for her that much as he dose for me cause he turned around and gave me the spare key so I could get in when ever I wanted to. 

any ways I told him that yes I did cause if I was to stay with him for so long people will start noticing what's going on I know he hated that I was right I told him I had to go and just be for I went out of his room he soon asked me the question where he would want to get a good answer from me.

Jon: will I see you tomorrow?

so I answered.

Carolyn: of course we normally do when I head out.

Jon: that's not what I meant and you know it angel.

Carolyn: Jon we can't keep doing this this what were doing is so wrong like we both lied to the ones in our life after they had called us and plus I have to spend time with the others so that way nothing is being suspected please understand Jon like I know how you feel about me I still fell the same like I really had a really good time making love like that to you it was the best by far but I really can't keep doing this so please just let it go and move on from this.

after I said what I said I left and went back over to my parents house and went straight to my room then soon enough I got a text.

Jon: I am not going to give up on you angel I still love and want you ya understand I will do what ever it takes to get you back.

I didn't respond back to him I just let that text be just then my phone rings and it was Mia she was wondering if she could come over and have a girl's night with me I told her that would be fine after I end the call I had gone and took a shower then changed out of what I had on. just then I herd the door being knocked on so I went to go see who it was and sure enough it was my girl Mia.

Mia: hey girl.

Carolyn: hey come on in.

as Mia came in I saw him at the window looking over I knew he wanted me for the night but he knows that it was not going to happen like that besides it's good that it didn't cause my girl wanted to spend time and plus having what we did on the down low was good ...............................................

Mia: so movie night girl?

Carolyn: sure we can do it down here in the living room or up in my room.

Mia: we can have movie night down here.

Carolyn: okay well you pick the movie and I will make the popcorn.

Mia: okay.

as I walked into the kitchen Mia had asked me what I was up to during the day and let's just say I had to lie to her as well I did to Edward I didn't want to lie to my best friend but I can't have any one knowing what Jon and I did back at his house up in his room, so I told her I  just stayed here at my parents house and chilled, with that she believed after the popcorn was done and was about to sit there was a knock on the door so I went to go answer it as I did I asked Mia if any one was gonna show after she said no it was just her so as soon as I opened the door that's when I saw Jon.

Carolyn: what are doing here? you need to leave .

Jon: why would I do that angel?I came to see you I haven't seen you in a while.

Carolyn: not joking you need to leave you can't be here.

just then I heard Mia's voice.

Mia: who's at the door girl?

Carolyn: it's no body ( as I looked at him and lie to my best friend) will I didn't really lie cause he was a no body.

Jon: oh come on angel you know I'm not a nobody just tell her it's me and that I wanted to see you.

Carolyn: not happening now go back home.

Jon: will you come see me tomorrow?

Carolyn: Jon you know I can't do that.

Jon: well then you know I can't leave.

Carolyn: fine yes I will be over tomorrow but not staying with you long only pop in and pop out.

Jon: okay angel if you say so ( with a smirk on his face)

Carolyn: I'm serious Jon we can't be sneaking around doing what we been doing it's wrong.

Jon: well if you think that you wouldn't have done it a second time angel.

Carolyn: what ever just go now.

Jon: fine I will see you tomorrow angel ( as he winked at me )

as Jon walked away I shut the door and went back to Mia then she end up saying something.

Mia: so Jon he's a no body now huh.

Carolyn: what ?

Mia:Carolyn I knew who was at the door.

Carolyn: okay yes it was Jon and yes he's a nobody.

Mia: if you say. do you still love him?

Carolyn: what? no I am so over him I love Edward besides we are married.

Mia: girl you can tell me you don't have to lie like I will understand if you still do besides he still loves and cares for you still.

Carolyn: ya I know been hearing it from Ace and my mother since I been here that he dose.

Mia: so what are you going to do?

Carolyn: what are you talking about?

Mia: talking about what you going to do about Jon I mean you are married and it's not like you would cheat on Edward there's no way your like that.

she's right I am not like that but I am sure doing it and I can't tell her that, I don't want any one knowing what Jon and I are doing what's going on between the bad boy and I must stay between the bad boy and I...................... 

well after the movie Mia and I end up heading to bed to get sleep she stayed  in the guest room witch is good cause if Jon thinks on pulling something in the middle of night then I don't have to worry about her knowing. any ways I shut my light off and went to bed then I got a text from Jon.

Jon: good night my angel see you soon! ;)

what ever he means by that I hope it's not while I am sleeping cause I hate to be woken up after then I fell asleep................ it's three in the morning and I herd something out side my window so I got up and went to see what it was just then it wasn't a what it was who I open my bed room window doors that's when I asked.

Carolyn: Jon what are you doing here? it's after three in the morning please go back home and get sleep.

Jon: I can't sleep I need you can I please stay here with you to night?

Carolyn: no you crazy every one will know besides Mia is here spending the night you need to leave.

Jon: I need you please.

I didn't know what to do I gave up and told him he could come in then he went to my bed and lay down I shut the doors went back to my bed and told him no funny business I am to tired I just want to sleep he said okay and wrapped his arm around me and just be for I fell asleep  I told him he has to go back to his house be for every one wakes up he said okay and with that we went straight to sleep with his arm around me.