Starting over with the bad boy

Chapter seven fessing up

Carolyn point a view

I am six weeks now and still hadn't told Edward about what Jon and I did together and most definitely haven't told him that I'm carrying I have been trying to find a way to go up to him and tell him but with work and school going on it just isn't helping at all I mean it is cause I can try to figure out how to approach the situation. 

I end up calling Jon when I was heading to school to talk to him about this and he thought I would have told Edward by now but I told him I hadn't that I just don't know how to that's when he said that he is still with Pairs and that the sooner I say something to Edward the sooner he can break up with Pairs witch I know but if Edward is okay with this I don't think I am going to leave him.

but he told me either way he has a right to know like how could he say that like he really didn't want me coming back and tell Edward but he is right now so I made the thought of telling Edward about it tonight, I'll just do up a nice dinner for us and tell him I text Jon after from getting off the phone with him to tell him that I will do it tonight then I will let him know how it went if not tonight then tomorrow depending how the situation turns out with him knowing  so he said okay.

Edward's point a view 

I am so happy my doll is home had missed her so much and not just me but our fur babies as well with work for me and work, school for her really haven't gotten time  since she been back home plus I notice something was bothering her when she came back home I just hadn't said anything thing thought maybe be it was her just being tired from the long drive so I let be but then lately after it seemed she was really bother by something I don't know what it is but I do hope she knows she can tell me any thing. 

on the way to work I had received a text from Carolyn telling me that she wants to do a nice dinner for us and not to go home early so I told her okay just text or call to let me know when I can go home she said alright also she mention one more thing to me and that was that she needed to talk to me about something and the way she said that sounded very important after that the call ended.

Carolyn's point a view

I didn't go to work today I end up calling them telling them I couldn't go in and that there is some personal things that have to be taken care of and they seemed alright with that so after school I went home it was just me and my fur babies when I got home I started to panic all cause I just don't know how to fess up. I ended up calling Jon to just talk with and help me keep calm with me being panicked panicky.

Jon: hi angel is every thing alright? you know I miss you.

Carolyn: no I am like panicking over here I don't know what to do and I know you do I miss you to.

Jon: okay just take a deep breath in and then let it out you don't want any thing to happen to the baby speaking of baby.how's our little one doing?

Carolyn: I know that's why I called you to help me stay calm through this and the baby is doing just fine.

Jon: okay well you got me right here on the phone with you. so where is Edward right now?

Carolyn: he's at work and I'm home I asked him to stay at work a little late so I can do up a nice dinner for him  so we can have our talk.

Jon: so dose he know what you need to talk to him about?

Carolyn: no and that's why I am doing this dinner for him hoping that it will kinda help keep things calm where we can just have a calming conversation about this.

Jon: it will be fine angel just remember what I told you to do.

Carolyn: I know take a deep breath and let it out.

Jon: that's my girl!

Carolyn: I don't know if it's the hormones but I am missing you so bad Jon and I am horny for you I miss that sent you would wear remember that you had smell so good and right now that is all I can smell I don't know how or why.

Jon: dam angel you sure are bad but na it is the hormones or it can be both and ya I remember that I still have the stuff haven't even use it since that time I will only have it on when you are with me and may be the reason you smell it is caused you miss it like there is no way I sprayed it on any of your stuff I wouldn't want Edward to find out you had been with me.

Carolyn: I know I wouldn't have wanted him to know either but now I think it don't matter cause now he has to know.

Jon: has he notice your belly getting bigger?

Carolyn: no I mean I am six weeks so it's still kinda hard to tell.

Jon: oh okay well hey hun I have to go I have a job to do speaking of that I need to talk to you about it but not right now I want one thing at a time to be dealt with okay.

Carolyn: okay bad boy.

Jon: call me after I wanna know about it.

Carolyn: I will buy bad boy.

Jon: buy angel.

after getting off the phone I notice that I had to get dinner ready for Edward and I and set up the table I also put out the candles just so I can try to have a good vibe with what I need to talk to him about........................................... 

okay so dinner is just about ready so I turned around, I texted Edward letting him know that it's okay for him to come home now and he got back to me and said alright. okay so Jon told me to just breath and breath out so I am doing that just so that nothing happens to the baby.

just as I'm breathing in, out while staying calm I herd Edward coming in the house that's when I started to put the food on the table after that I said hi to him and asked how is day was that's when he told me it went okay he then came to the table gave me a kiss on the lips and then sat down I too sat down across from him and we both started to eat. just be for we finished I build up the courage to tell him that I need to talk to him and with that I started to.

Carolyn: Edward I need to talk to you about something.

Edward: what is it baby doll?

Carolyn: now this isn't easy for me to say and I been trying to figure how to talk to you but there is no easy way to say what I need to say so I am just going to come out and say it. okay?

Edward: okay.

Carolyn: Edward I had an affair while I wasn't here.

Edward: you did what?

Carolyn: had an affair.

Edward: what the f**k Carolyn . why?

Carolyn: I don't know why okay I don't even know to explain it it had happen.

Edward: Carolyn things just don't happen like that. who was it that you did it with? I want to know.

Carolyn: Jon but I can explain.

be for I could go on any further he cut me off.

Edward: Jon? your serious you did it with him after what he put you through what the f**k Carolyn.

Carolyn: I know and I have one more thing to tell you witch I know it will get you more upset then you are right now.

Edward: what is it that could make me more madder then I am?

Carolyn: I'm pregnant.

Edward: your what? God dam it and I suppose it's his right? like who am I to even to ask of course it's his. how far a long are you?

Carolyn: I am six weeks.

Edward: six weeks really?come on Carolyn. and you couldn't tell me sooner like why did you wait so long better yet why would you keep this for me and lie to me?

Carolyn: I wanted to tell you but I didn't know how to please Edward for give me okay I was scared okay and I knew how mad you would be.

Edward: mad? mad? no I'm more then mad I am pissed like okay the going around cheating could of worked it out but this you being pregnant like you told me you couldn't cause of work and School and that you wanted to wait and now this happens and it is with Jon none the less. I just can't do this I'm done I think you should go take your things and pack and take your cat and dog with you.

Carolyn: but Edward please.

Edward: just go I am going for a drive hope to see you gone be for I get back.

with that he left I hurt him and he had every right to be upset at me I know he would be I just don't know what to do I love him and I still loved Jon I feel all alone all due to the secrets and the lies I kept form him for some time.

 I ended up calling Jon and I told him what happen as I was crying on the phone with him he then asked where I was going to go I told him I don't know that's when he said I could stay with him and that he would help me out I told him about the dog and cat I have and he said it was fine that I could bring them.

like I had a choice not to but I did ended up taking them with me,fessing up was the worst and hardest thing to do but I did do it cause it was the right thing to do at the same time, before Edward came back I was already on the road after having to put my things I had in my car,Jon kept on texting me to see how much longer I was going to be I told him a couple more hours till I get there, instead of texting back and forth I just ended up calling him so it would be easier I mean I normally don't talk on the phone while driving but cause how I am I took a range checked on it plus the weather is fine any ways we ended up talking on the phone I had asked him about Pairs and he said with every thing happening to night he will break up with her the next day.

 so I told him okay......... two hours had gone by and I told him I was almost there he said okay that he will be out side waiting for me and that's when I said okay................................ soon enough I had arrived back to the town where it all started I told Jon that I am just going to have my car in the garage I just don't want any one knowing I'm here till I am ready and he said okay that that was a good idea.................

its late and I was so tired I ended up heading up to Jon's bed room after arriving and walking into his house just then he told me instead of waiting till tomorrow to brake up with Pairs he was just going to do it now in a text witch I told him was wrong but he didn't care so he did it any ways, with that I went to bed and he soon followed after he sent the brake up text to Pairs oh if your wondering about my cat and dog they are fine there in the bed room with me and Jon.

Jon's point a view

I was so happy and glad that my angel was coming back to me I mean I did feel bad on how Edward was towards her like okay he had a right to be mad for what her and I did but to tell her she had to leave in the middle of the night that was harsh I could never do that to her especially when she's carrying a baby inside her none the less our baby. 

any ways I am just so glad to have her back I had missed her so much.....as I am laying beside her watching her sleep I get a text it was from Pairs she want to know why I was breaking up with her I told her that we will talk about it later then she mention Carolyn but only she said the word her it's her isn't she said I came out and told her yes it is and I love her still I always had and will, that she is carrying my child Pairs didn't seem happy that I had been lying and cheating on her but hey I'm the bad boy she knew how I was.

 after that with Pairs I never herd from her witch is good by me cause the only angel in my life is Carolyn no one else with that I ended up having the t.v on low and lay on my side with my arm around her holding her belly and that's when I felt my little one moving it was the best feeling I had............then I fell asleep all happy with fessing up and having my two angels here with me well I guess four cause of her fur babies witch they where cute. any how I ended up falling a sleep beside her with the t.v on like I said it was the best feeling I could ever have and that was with my angel.