Starting over with the bad boy

Chapter six time to go back with the lies and secrets

Carolyn's point a view

It's been two weeks now since I've been here at the bad boys house and no one here didn't even know I was here and Edward thinks that I'm at my parents when I am not, I hate lying to every one and keeping secrets it's just not my cup of coffee you know but due to what's happening I seem to not have a choice right now to keep it hidden. 

as for Jon he has been doing a lot to take care of me with the situation witch I feel bad but at the same time I don't cause he is the one that made this happen I mean I know it takes two witch shouldn't have happen but like he had been saying to me if it was a mistake witch knew then I shouldn't have done it to. but when ya can't help ya self then that's it, I don't really know what came over me like that to let him it's like I was made to do it by a spell or something. but there is nothing I can do and I am not the kind of person to go and kill the baby if I did that I wouldn't be able to live with my self, so I am going to keep it it's just I have to figure out away to tell Edward and I know he won't be to happy about it I mean he wants a family but he would want it to be his kid and no one else I'm sure of it.

and tomorrow I have to go back even though Jon don't want me to I know how he feels but I am married I can't do this any longer plus Pairs has been around but Jon has it so she don't come in the house there where times where he had to hide his car  just to make her think he's not home witch I feel bad for the girl she is nice but at the same time she's not I mean she is with Jon and I missed him, I know I'm with Edward but I don't know I am just confused I really don't know who I want to be with but I am sure that this situation will help with that cause Edward more then likely will not want to be with me once he finds out what went on between Jon and I.

Jon's point a view

I don't want her to go but I know she has to I thought about breaking up with Pairs just to be with my angel again like if I do that then may be my angel will stay with me and not go like I don't want to be selfish but I know she feels the same way as I do. and I am happy to know that I am going to be a dad to the little one growing inside her witch is now a week old inside of my angels stomach, I want to be there for our son or daughter but if she is miles away then how can I.

as I am sitting here while my angel is taking nap I hear a car pull up I go and looked out the window,that's when I saw it was Pairs like I know she don't see my car just then my phone goes off and it's her sitting there calling me prob wondering where I am like I'm here at home but she don't know that my car is out of sight cause of my angel I can't have any one knowing she is here and why she's here so I went to another room where she can't hear my voice from out side and that's when I answered her call.

Jon: hey what's up?

Pairs: hey babe where are you? I am here at your house and was hoping to spend time with you we haven't lately.

Jon: ya I been very busy but hey I will talk to you later I gotta go.

with that I hung up and went back to the window to see if she was going to leave witch she did thank God all though I know that I have to break up with her cause I just don't love or care for her the way I do for my angel just then I herd her call for me from up in my room so that's when I went to her.

Jon: hey angel what's wrong ?

Carolyn: nothing I just was seeing if your still here.

Jon: ya I'm still here. do you need any thing?

Carolyn: no I just woke up from my nap if I need any thing I can get it.

Jon: okay but you know I can get what ever you need you don't have to get out of bed.

Carolyn: Jon I'm not full term I can get up and do things my self witch I am going to have to do when it's time for me to leave.

Jon: when are you leaving?

Carolyn: well I have to leave some time to night so I can be back home on time for work and school.

Jon: do you really?

Carolyn: yes I am already behind due to what is going on.

Jon: you could just transfer back to here.

Carolyn: Jon you know I can't do that I have to go back to Edward besides I have to tell him about all this I have kept this from him long enough, I can't lie any more you know me like I can't even lie to you cause I know you'll find out what ever it is that you want to really know.

Jon: I know but I just want to let you know that I will be breaking up with Pairs.

Carolyn: you don't have to do that.

Jon: and why not? like I am doing it for you I want you back and I want to be able to take care of you and the baby.

Carolyn: I know you do and we will come up with something and the reason I said you don't have to is what if Edward is willing to except what happen even though it was wrong like I don't want you to break up with Pairs just hold off for now till I know what's going to happen when I talk with Edward please.

Jon: okay.

Carolyn's point a view

it is now night and I knew I had to get things ready I had Jon put my things in the back seat of my car for me I spent a little more time with him be for it was time for me to leave witch he didn't want me to he had stayed so close to me hoping I would just blow every thing and every one off for him but I couldn't.

 between him and what not it was hard for me think of how I was going to tell Edward about what happen while I was here.............................. it's time and I have to get going, Jon holding me tight not letting go was hard to even leave I know he was hurting but in order to know what will happen I had to go, so I told him I will call him and let him know how the talk went with Edward but in order for me to do that he would have to let me go, soon enough we hugged and kiss one last time then I got into my car and started to drive seeing him through my mirror hurt me cause of the expression he had on his face when I was pulling out of his drive way ...............

it's been an hour since I been on the road and my phone would go off every now and then it was Jon checking up on me to see if I am okay since I'm driving in the middle of the night I had told him that I was doing fine and with that I kept on driving not evening stopping any where .......................

two hours went by and I end up being almost home to Edward I knew he would be a sleep when I got home so I would have to keep it down by the time I arrive home it was after three I did text Jon to let him know I made it back home and that there's no need to worry then after I text him I went up to my and Edward bed room and got changed then got into bed with out waking up Edward.

 I just hate that I am back though with the secrets and lies but I knew that soon enough I would have to sit with him and tell him about what went on while I was there any ways I went to bed and fell asleep.