off a cliff

chapter 4

Leon took off her coat and gave it to me.

I took it and cancelled the order on the taxi - hailing app by the way.

The car was quiet.

Leon asked, "What's going on between you and Ryan?”

"I broke up with him. "

I had a fantasy before I came to Ryan's house.

If Ryan would chat with me.

Then we'd move on.

I've been in the rain for too long.

No matter how muddled my mind is, I should have figured it out by now.

Ryan always communicates properly when there's a conflict.

I just have to guess what he's thinking.

If I get it right, he will grudgingly give me a signal to keep coaxing him.

If I get it wrong, he will give me a cold and silent expression.

It all depends on Ryan's mood.

I tried to talk to him, but he was cold.

When we make up again, he will repeat to me that no one in the family cares about his feelings.

He didn't know how to show his emotions and just sulked.

I went from heartbroken to numb.

By today, I was finally able to give myself a definite answer.

Leon seemed surprised. "Because you gave me a gift?"

Our eyes met in the mirror.

Leon added, "Ryan has hated me since he was a child. He won't give me a present."

I froze.

Ryan's gift was just a test.

He didn't want to send it.

But he didn't tell me.

He hoped I'd guess his mind like before.

But he didn't expect I'd send the gift as promised.

Ryan didn't come to the party that night for the same reason.

He saw me deliver the gift.

He was upset.

He threw the cup to show his anger.

Just because I didn't have the patience to find him and coax him.

So he blocked me on the social media.

I felt absurd.

A dull ache in my heart.

I wiped my tears and sent Ryan a message:

"Let's break up. I'm tired."

But it still shows a rejected state.

I'm not sad about it.

I won't doubt again.

Leon sent me home.

He said he'd talk to his family about ending the engagement.

I gave him the coat back. "Thank you."

“If they ask about the reason, just say that we don’t quite click.”

If the real reason is told, I'm afraid everyone will think that Ryan is just throwing a tantrum.

Maybe his family will find him and make him talk to me.

And then continue the marriage.

I don't want that.

I couldn't imagine having to guess what someone else was thinking for decades.

Leon didn't answer.”It's not your fault. He is too childish. I will handle it properly.”

I looked at the wet coat and took my hand away. I smiled at him and said I'd dry clean it and return it to him. Leon found some cold medicine in the car and gave it to me. I waited until my house was lit up before he drove away.

At 3 A.M, I was bombarded with phone calls by my parents and Ryan's parents in turn.

The content of the phone calls was all about the same thing.

They said that Ryan was just acting on impulse.

They said that breaking off the engagement was going too far.

And they wouldn't allow me to break off the engagement.

I knew where they got the information from.

Leon couldn't have told the two families about the engagement breakup so quickly.

Only Ryan knew.

He didn't want to break up with me, but he wouldn't tell me.

He wanted to stop me, so he woke his parents up in the middle of the night.

It was still raining.

The rain was still pattering down.

I sighed, "I'm not being sulky. We are really not suitable for each other."

Ryan can't open his heart and take the initiative to express his own thoughts.

I can't be infinitely tolerant of him either.

My father was so angry that he swore loudly.

Ryan's parents were silent for a long time and said that they would talk about it when they meet us tomorrow.

No one took my words seriously.

They all just thought that I was being angry with Ryan.

I couldn't sleep.

I texted Ryan: “Is it funny?”

“If you don't want to talk, why get married?”

“If you don't reply, the engagement is off.”

“Ryan, don't test me.”

I sent the first three messages.

The fourth was rejected.

Ryan saw it but didn't reply.

I was lying to him.

Even if he shows up on time tomorrow, the engagement is off.