I Hate That I Love You

It was a cool and breezy evening. A strong gust of wind blew against my face. I was on my way to pick up the ingredients i needed to cook……it was time to head home but i just missed the bus and had to wait for a cab on the side of the road. But i ran into the rush hour and also waited for 30 minutes for a car at the curb, but no empty vehicle stopped in front of me, which made me feel anxious and ready to call a friend to report when a luxury car pulled up next to me. At first, i didn't notice the car stopped because of me, not until someone called out to me and i noticed that the person sitting on the passenger side of the car window was my boss from my previous part-time job, and the person driving the car, whom i didn't know, had a sculpted face that was impressive. I stared for few seconds and he noticed as he immediately looked away. "Jesse, why are you alone on the side of the road, waiting for a car?" The person in the car said. "Yes, sir, I was on my way to the supermarket, but I missed the bus," i explained to him with a smile. "It's difficult to get a taxi at this hour and it’s prolly going to rain any minute too; why don't we give you a ride?" "We're in a hurry!" the handsome guy growled. “We can’t just leave her can we! This is someone I know “ they argued “Well, it’s really not a big deal though, if you guys have to go somewhere then I’ll just wait.. it was nice seeing you again “ I said to them as I slowly walked backwards to continue my search for a cab. “Are you okay? Hop in will you! “ my ex-boss shouted. I playfully got into the car, quietly listening to the conversation they were both having. It started raining and the car was cold as well. The air conditioner was on and I really wanted them to turn it off…. After giving them a thousand reasons, they turned it off. My ex boss got a call and claimed he had to stop due to something urgent, leaving just me and this handsome dude in the car. Before he left, he assured me that there was nothing to worry about as his Friend would make sure I get home safe. One part was of me was not comfortable because I did not know this person, the other part of me, just felt normal because he was a cute guy. He was super hot and I already had fantasies in my head from just looking at him. He drove without saying a word for about five minutes but,I was hearing voices in my head “Where you headed sorry” he said with a really deep voice. “Well, I can’t explain my street, just keep driving, I’ll show you when we get there” I replied He turned on the music, played a really slow song as he asked “do you like something like this? “Yeah sure.. I like any song” “Oh nice.. the name’s smith.. what’s yours? “I’m Jesse. Friends call me Jess” I replied “I just asked your name though” smith replied with a smile as he looked through the rear view mirror I gave a sheepish smile and looked away. “So I’m actually close to my house right now and I think I may just give you some money or something… I don’t really think I want to drive any further and it’s cold right now too. “You didn’t want to turn off the air con when I complained about feeling too cold so how’s that a problem now” I replied He smiled shaking his head without saying a word, and gosh! He was so fine when he smiled “Do you stay alone. I asked “Yeah why? “Well, just wanted to ask cause I was wondering…. It’s cold and maybe your wife or girl would be home waiting for you..” I replied as I smiled at him. “I don’t have a wife and I’m not married yet.. well, I think this is where you take a taxi though, I’m sorry I can’t go further” smith said to me I did not seat with the idea but I had no choice, the least I could do was go home because I was starving I got home, went straight to the bathroom to have a warm bath. I was still cold and tired. Which was a reason for me not to cook that night. I ended up having snacks with a drink. I woke up then next day being a Saturday. It was sunny, calm and different from other Saturdays… I was home alone and my friend wasn’t here yet. Her name was Maria and she always visited during weekends. We would cook, exercise and even work together. It was 10am and I was done with the little chores I had to do which included cooking. ……… I looked at it to be the perfect time to work. But I could not find my jotter. Recalling that I took this same jotter to the super market and I still had it in smiths car, I was left to believe it was forgotten. I called my ex boss to tell him about what I had realized, but instead, he sent me a number. I went to w******p and spent the next 10 minutes, staring at his profile picture of this person who happened to be smith. “How can a guy be this fine .. “ i questioned myself and for the first time, I felt really worthless because the same me always told other people to never do the same thing I just did for the past 10 minutes I never felt any guy was worth it but I guess smith proved me wrong I texted smith, telling about about my jotter that was forgotten and how important it was since I needed to work. He replied with a sticker, that read “good morning angel” and I felt like my world was made “Hey..Uhhmm... my ex boss gave me your number and I already told you why so please can we meet up so i can take it? It’s really important “ It was over 5 minutes and even if it was normal for a person not to reply for that long, this time was different to me.. I stayed in his dm, waiting for a reply and then I noticed a quick recoding come in, “Well…. Uhhhhmmmm… alright, sure” you can come around if you’re free.. but it all depends tho. I could leave at anytime.” He replied