Lost You Years Back

The letter

" UMMMM madam Amanda fired me because she thinks I am wasting my time in this stamp printing job and she wants me to see the world . I think everyone going crazy or am I going crazy. How I suppose to see the world if I don't have money ?

" Vivian don't worry , I will talk to my boss and I'm sure she will gave you job . "

A horrifying image of me scrapping the floor with a toothbrush flash across my eyes . . .

" Oh no, don't you dare talk to the Miss Kathy about me . "

" Why? -

I got up from the couch and grab an empty box and start gathering toy's of Lilly and warned june that don't talk to the Miss Kathy I don't want to scrap the floor of her house I will do everything and find a new job .

" Okay , if you say so but you have to think about that again . " she said and and I handed her the box and told her , I will never work with Miss Kathy no way . . . I don't have that much patience to work with that lady , it's a big fat ," NO" for me .

I don't know , How June is working with her and I could never . . . I told June to place this box under the table . . . I will go make dinner . She went inside the bedroom and I spinned around and walk into the kitchen . . . As I walk in the aroma that makes your mouth so watery that you wanna eat whatever you’re smelling is this little room in my apartment where I love to spend most of my time when I’m home, is my kitchen. Almost every single day of the week when I get home I automatically go straight to the kitchen and sit at my little wooden table that is on the right side of the kitchen when you walk in. This kitchen is definitely not modernized with all the fancy cabinets and super cool gadgets that comes with it. Instead, my ghetto fabulous kitchen has old dark wood throughout the kitchen but the cabinets mainly have it. The kitchen appliances are not these name brand new whirlpool microwaves, refrigerator, and stove, but they still work just as good.

I decided to make spaghetti and meatballs for dinner . As I was about to moved towards the pantry . I Heard a someone knocking on the door .

" Thud . . . Thud . . . Thud . . .

I sigh and thought who's came at this time of the night . The door knocked again . . .

" Hang on mint , don't break the door . "

Well . . . I walk out of the kitchen and approach to the front door I look through the peep hole . . . I saw my neighbor Kevin , standing at my door . I quickly locked the door because I don't want an absolutely unwanted guest in my home especially Kevin .

June came behind from me and ask me who's at the door ?

" Keep your voice down, Kevin is outside . "

" Why don't you tell me then ? I send him to buy me some groceries . . . . . "

" What ? I said to her and she unlock the door and I ran back to the kitchen before Kevin could see me but God ! today is my unluckiest day

" Vivian! wait !

I squeeze my eyes in frustration and I looked up the ceiling and gesture God why me ? Why me ? Kevin as always came behind me . . . . . .

" Hey, Vivian how are you doing ? he said and I spinned around and forced my to smile .

" I'm doing great what about you? I said with big old smile on my face . . .

" She lost her job today " June said to the Kevin . I shoot a glare over Kevin shoulder towards June .

" What ? are you serious! tell me June is lying and how are you gonna take of lily ? how do you pay utility and rent and you need diaper for Lilly and how you supposed to that alone Vivian . . . . . . . but don't worry I will help we will raise Lilly together . She is my baby also . "

" No , I don't she is just messing with you Kevin and thank for helping us I appreciate it . And say hello to Kate . " I said to the Kevin and cover up the blunder which June create for me and what is wrong with her ? why is making my life meserible . . . . . . . . . . . .

" What ? but . . . "

" STOP ! . . . I mean June go check Lilly she is crying . . . and I walk Kevin at the door . "

I glared at June and told her to go inside to the room and check Lilly . She finally understand she made a huge mistake telling Kevin that I lost my job . She Nod's and went inside the to my bedroom .

I turn my face towards Kevin and said , " Kevin let me walk you to the door and thank again . I am fine and you don't need to take care of Lilly . "

" But I just come your home and I don't wanna go back to my apartment until you made me a cup of coffee with your beautiful hands . "

" Why ?

I got bored," he says. "Besides, you know what's creepier than walking around your dead brothers' apartment? Sitting alone in a hearse in front of his apartment . "

I roll my eyes and told him I need to cook dinner and I'm tried today and we we will go tomorrow for a coffee . . .

He became sad like an sad emoji but he understand and took promise from me that I will go for coffee with him . . .

" Okay fine , whatever . . . " I walk him to the door and we said goodbye to each other and I close the door and rested my back against the door and thought ," For a guy who claimed not to be a stalker he sure knows the tricks of the trade.

Give up the Ghost . "

As I was about to move forward i heard a knock on the door again . I spinned around and thought who's that ? I pulled the door and saw Kevin was standing there .

" Did you not heard me right now said for tomorrow Kevin . "

" I know Vivian but . . .

" But what ? what do you want ? I said almost losing my temper .

" Just let me speak . . . . I was coming from downstairs and got bumped into a mailman and I saw he has a letter for you and he was a old man so I told him that I know you and I can gave you letter . "

" A letter ?

" Yeah , I forgot to tell you and gave it to you . "

" Where is the letter then ? I ask him suspiciously .

He take out the letter from his coats pocket and gave it to me . I check the name on the envelope who send the letter ? I saw the name of my aunt Angie on the envelope I quickly torn it at the top , taking out the letter I handed the envelope to Kevin to hold it for a second and I open the letter and start reading it .

Dear, Vivian and June ,

I felt heartbroken and devastated to see your mother like that I wanted to tell you both about your mother . She is in the hospital and taking her last breath and her last wish to see you both and her grandchild. She told me to send you plane tickets to LA to come visit your mother .

Your aunt Angie

" WHAT ! MOTHER ! NO ! I said out loudly and my head was about spinning and vision start to getting blurry .

" What happened to you ? who's letter is this ? Kevin ask me .

I passed out because I felt heartbroken and devastated that I wasn't there with my mother . . .

" Some sad news in your life leads you to the happy ones because every tears bring Joy in life . "

I snapped and open eyes and all I can see it's the cracks in the ceiling the first thought came in my mind are we in middle of the earthquake but then I heard rustling sound in the background and suddenly I felt someone stab in my head and pain is unbearable . I hardly lifted my head up because I heard Lilly was crying . I pulled myself up from the couch and walk in to the bedroom .

As I walk in the room , I saw Kevin and June taking my clothes out of the clothes out of the closet and Lilly's stuff also . . .

" What are you guys doing ? I take Lilly from June and grabbed her milk bottle from the bedside table and gave it her . . . .

" We are packing your stuff and can't you see . "

" but why ?

" Your are going to Mom and Kevin is going with . "

" JUNE ! WE NEED TO TALK YOU RIGHT NOW . " I glared at June and pointed towards her room . . . She said , " fine and we walk out my bedroom and I warned Kevin to not touch my stuff.

Me and June walk in to her room and I close the door the behind . . . I turn around facing June and ask her ," What is going on ? why you are not coming with me ?

" I didn't say that how do you know ?

" O How I know I am your sister and you are sending Kevin with me really . What were you thinking that I will go with him ?

" Yes because aunt Angie send two tickets and I can't go with you because Miss Kathy arranged a party next week and she wants to be there and I will come back later one week later . "

" But what if Mom . . . . I don't want think of that I need you to be with me and mom . "

" Promise , I will be there next week and you will go Kevin because of my beautiful baby Lilly and are you going to miss me Lilly . . . . . "

How could I be so lost

In a place I know so well?

How could I be so broken

In a family so together?

How could I be so lonely

Surrounded by so many?

How could I be so unhappy

Surrounded by so much beauty?

How could I be me

When even I remain a mystery?