I want to live

Chapter 5

Third-person Pov

"A person I love... I miss him..." Elijah has calmed down after some time with Jackson cradling him like a new-born baby.

„So, someone dumped him? „ Jackson somehow tries to piece the pieces together.

„still why would he want to kill himself over that...? „

Jackson let out a sigh as he stood up and tried to help the other up as well. "I'm sorry you had to be involved with me..." Again, Elijah's voice was low and mumbled but somehow still understandable.

Don't you want to join him~?

Elijah flinched and whimpered.

It's going to be your fault again if 'Jackson' accidentally— "NO!"

Elijah yelled into the room, startling Jackson in the process. He looked over and saw the still wet-haired male was starting to tear up and whimper again. „Jackson had been so nice to me... I can't let that happen to him, too„

"What wrong Jay?!" He went over and side hugged the boy.

"The voices..." Elijah's body began shaking wildly as if he was in a snowstorm.

"Voices...?" Even if Jackson wanted to, he didn't understand what the other meant, but he suddenly remembered something… "Wait here a moment,"

He tried to get up, but Jay's tiny hands grabbed into his. "Don't leave me alone," His eyes now leaking tears and his shaking just got worse by the second.

"Then come with me," he took his other hand and stretched it out toward the boy. The still sitting man looked at it like it was something he had never seen before.

Slowly but successfully the other stretched his arm out and grabbed Jackson's hand, letting him help him up. Elijah was clinging onto Jackson's arm the whole way through the house until they came to the main bedroom. He sat at the edge of the bed, looking like he was ready to jump atop of Jackson at any moment.

While Elijah was watching Jackson like a hawk the other was rummage through his drawers looking for something. "Ah-ha!" He turned around and walked over to Elijah with his hands being his back. "Close your eyes,"

Elijah not feeling totally safe with this guy tried to see what he was hiding but when he failed after the third attempt because Jackson kept turning the other way, he finally gave up and closed his eyes.

[Noah Kahan: Passenger]

Oh, I think I've found a way to keep myself whole

I write my fears on green notes

I swallow my doubts away and watch them grow old

Is that why the past years seemed slow?

The music that tunes through the big headphones was slow and had a nice calming beat to it.

Elijah's body slowly started calming down as the song drowned out the voices and even made him sleepy.

Jackson saw this adorable reacting and sat down next to him, letting the other rest his head in his shoulder, slowly closing his eyes.