What am I doing with myself?
Amidst the silence in my room, I sit on the edge of my bed, staring into nothingness... In complete silence, as well as everything else around me at this hour of the early morning.
I feel so ashamed and embarrassed, I feel like I did everything wrong, everything terribly wrong, so much so that I don't even want to think about what Sister Meredith would say if she knew... If she knew that I almost ruined a marriage. And it's no wonder, how could such a silly idea like this have crossed my mind?
Even before Luka left, when he confessed his "love" to me here in my own home, I always knew he wasn't for me. From the beginning, Luka and I were not meant to be together, to have a happy ending. And I always knew it, but even knowing it, I tried to fight my own desti
