I Hate to Love you

I rolled and rolled on a soft comfortable bed when I heard my alarm beeping so I wake up " ohh s**t ! shut up and let me sleep peacefully " this is not my first time being disturbed by my crazy clock alarm but I have no other choice but to wake up and get ready for school , yep am a teenager hardworking girl , beautiful and slim I can't be late for lecture because am a serious student " I can't let my mom down I have strive for success" I always wispperd this to my heart every time am I need to motivate myself, I get ready and went to school " hi ! Amelia " marc shouted my name on top of her voice " ohh! longest time I don't know we would meet like this " yep, am so glad to see you again" he said with a big smile on his face I quickly flash back to our last discussion few months ago, he was asking me to be her boyfriend but still yet to give him a honest answer " hmmm I have class now I will have to go " " ok ! take care I will text you later " I am so relieved that I stop the discussion from going any further, well you can also say am a loner because I love being alone that might be the reason I don't have a boyfriend or whatever, after I have finished class I went to my mom place to greet her because am missing my mom already , by the time I got to my mom place she is not around I have to wait at the door step for a little more time maybe she would meet me at home, but still not arrived, so I decided to call her and ask " what the hell " her number is unreachable I have to go back home but it is late I don't know what to do how will i get taxi to take me home it was Already late I just kept tweaking I could not see any taxi or any bike at all everywhere was silent I could only hear the sound of breeze not long I received a text message from Marc " hi ? how are you doing" I felt more pissed off because am not doing fine at all everywhere is getting darker well maybe I should have asked Marc to come and pick me up but I don't want to ask help from him to that will give him the chance to ask me out again, soon I hear foot steps coming at my back when I looked back I didn't see any one it makes me more scared I walked more faster again I heard the foot step approach and I looked back I saw no one this time around I ran as fast as I could then I looked back and saw a gang running after me it was this time I knew " I am done for" my heart was pounding fast I am scared as ever in my life " why are they running after me? are they thief " my mommy am scared" suddenly my toe bang a rock and I fell down I was in so much pain soon they met me there " hello pretty lady " one of the man in the gang said I frowned my face and am also scared with the little courage I gathered up I replied " who are you people and why are u chasing after me" "shh! don't you know you are sexy " he tried to touch my face I beat his hand away another man said " let's be fast before any body see us " I don't understand untill they tied my hands and cover my mouth with clothes I struggled but failed soon they stopped tour my clothes and my skirt now I confirmed they are r****t they are about six in number they slapped Me beat me and one of them r***d me I cried my eyes out my heart break fear was a over my face my body was shaking, trembling in fear the first man to r**e me then shouted " she be virgin oo!" then one of the man in the gang then said remaining gang then said " let's go it's okay we will catch another fish soon " they untied me and left me alone behind the bush I was weak I can't stand up my clothes was stained with blood I just want to get out of there as soon as possible thankful I saw a bike man I was scared to ride it but I am more scared to stay any more minutes there, I took it home straight when I checked my phone 10 missed calls from my mom and Marc self have called me every thing I experience weight in my heart " oh God why does this have to happen to me? " I cried my eyes out " no no I can't tell my mom never I tell my mom I will Carry my burden myself I can't never " God help me carry my burden " I kept crying "why will I lose my virginity to a stranger a nobody a r****t a gang" tears rolled on my cheek all my clothes was wet I felt ashamed of myself " no value for me my virginity is gone ! " I shouted and cried walking around like a rat " wait.. wait.. I can't let anybody know about what happened tonight, my mum will be so sad and if it gets out am r**e they will be looking at me with the eye of being r***d, I can't be disgraced by people I will bury it in my heart. what if I get pregnant... oh God my savior please do not it happen am scared.. I can..... can't disgrace my family " my heart was still breathing fast, faster than any other I later relaxed and feel asleep , I could not call my mom back because am scared . the next day my body was feeling cold and shaking I don't want my mom to know I decided to go the far away hospital from our city I explained to the doctor " doctor narvis I want to see you ma " " oh come in girl , are you sick you looked stressed and cold " " yes ma, am sick. I met unfortunate fate yesterday I was.. .Ra." I broke into tears before I could finish my statement, doctor narvis felt more worried and stand up and meet me she touched my shoulder and said " you can always tell me anything trust me " " doc I was r***d yesterday night " I paused and take a deep breath" I was scared ma my heart is hurts " " in cases like this you need to be strong for yourself, it is normal for your heart to hurt because of fear" the doctor treat injuries from the r**e or and I was treated for sexually transmitted diseases (STDs) and also the doctor about emergency birth control." " It is important to receive birth control and treatment for STDs within 72 hours of the assault for maximum effectiveness".. I felt more relief since I have done the necessary things to be done by but I am still sad , I went home and rest I don't bother to go for class I just wanted to be alone ' I called my mom and talked to her so she won't be worried In my my mind I know everything is settled and no one will know about anything so I doze off to rest .