Once and for all: you are mine

chapter 20

Adhir :

i was too drunk i asked my driver and bodygaurd to leave me alone and they did it .......i was in a bar ...to drunk ......cursing my life ....cursing my actions .....i left the bar .......trying to walk towards my car which was on the other side of the road ....i was too inebriated to walk properly ........i was vacilliating.

and in the next second i fell on the road ....a car hit me ...... my entire body crushed in a jerk ....i could barely move any part.

my eyes were at the edge of closing .....may be closing forever .... through my slightly opend eyes ...i would see the people rushing towards me ...... for the last time my heart expected misha to be one of them ..for once i wanted to see her .....before i shut my eyes forever .....before i die......every single cell of my body was in enormous pain ....but my heart .......my heart was happy to get away from all those sufferings ..... and then i was gone ....my mind was shut ....my eyes were shut .....my ears couldn't hear anything ....everything was a complete silence .....silence consumed me.

Misha :

from all these months i never used my account because i knew it would help police to trace my location ...... i take cash as my salary from the store and spend them on cash ...and for a moment i realised that it was good that i didn't receive call from any company where i applied for job ...because then i had to gave them my accounts ......and to open new account i needed lot of documents .

but now it's been several months and i was sure everybody would have accepted that i left with my choice so i thought i should transfer my money to my indian account and i payed for my air ticket through my account ....along with aunt and uncle (grocery store indian owner).

we were flying back to india.....and there aunt and uncle was telling me about all there family and there grand children and their work..... when suddenly aunt asked me "misha beta ....can i ask you something personal?"

"yes aunt " i replied her with a smile

"do you love somebody ?....i mean somebody you are looking forward to get married to?" she asked choosing her words very carefully ...not to make me angry 

and hearing it i automatically felt sad ....i am already running from a marriage and i don't want to engage in it anymore 

"no aunt" i replied with a same smile

"then would you meet my grandson?" she asked exitedly 

"why " i asked confused

"because i like you very much .....and may be you both could try to know each other ....he is a nice guy ...he is a university professor.....he lives in banglore...he ........"before she could say any further ...i stopped her 

"aunt i don't want to get married again" i spat out....

"married again?" aunt asked me in shock ...ofcourse she have expected me to tell her this too before 

"yes aunt"

"ohh my dear am so sorry ....... i shouldn't have forced you " she said apologitically

"it's okey aunt...you don't need to be sorry " i said keeping my hand on her hand and i knew she wants to know more about it ......and this time i don't mind because after next few hours we will be apart and will never meet again......."i was divorced " i said making her more curious to know the whole story ...but ofcourse i can't tell her what adhir did to me ......so i simply said "he didn't like me and we got married because of family pressure ....he had a girlfriend too ...." i said keeping myself firmed 

"so that's why he divorced you " she asked

"hmm" i nodded ....."he is such a bastard....he will go to hell for doing this with you ...because of someother girl he left his own wife .......wife whom he should admir ...whom he should love.....he is a moron.....you are such a beautiful child ...you should just let that bastard die in hell and move on ..he will never be happy......" she continued saying that .......and to my surprise ......i was not liking it ....when she called me his wife ...i remembered all the moment we had together .....though i never thought of him as a good person ......but i realised that he is a good person just not for me ....and i don't know why but i don't want this lady to talk things like this about him ......i don't feel for him but i hate him ....still i don't want to here anything about him....... i told aunt that i want to sleep for sometime....and she agreed 

when i closed my eyes i couldn't stop my mind thinking about him .

i remember after the day he slapped me .....he asked me to serve him dinner which i cooked and when he asked me about my wound i left the place.......then he came to me and gave me medicine to apply on it and to not put my hand in water for long......before he left he turned to me and said "if i had to choose between you and neha ....i would choose my sister".........may be he already knew the truth .

jenny told me that he his sister died when he was very young because she had a hole in her heart ....his family was not too rich ...infact they were poor ....that they couldn't even afford her heart transplant surgery ......and after few months ...neha's parents died ........so adhir took all the responsibilities of her ....he is a self made person ...he worked very hard to achieve his position ........on that day for the first time my heart felt proud on him .....and i knew the reason why he support neha blindly ........ i would have did the same for my brother if needed ....... i thought that my parents are happy with this marriage his parents are happy and he also don't hate me now the way he used to ........i should atleast try to accept this relation .....may be things could change between us .......i thought all these thing while going back to home after i met rohan .......yes i too want to be happy once again like rohan and janvi .......it's already late so i thought of having a conversation with him tomorrow at the breakfast .........but before i could sleep he bursted into my room and r***d me ...all my hope for a good future jsut vanished ......... i was in pain but he never came back to see he just ignored me .