Once and for all: you are mine

chapter 19

Adhir: 

i received all the list of passengers i checked each and every name but her name was not there .......my heart clenched ...i prayed to god to atleast tell me that she is alive .........i didn't call rohan because i knew he is in india and misha is in london because i didn't see any booking by her name

days passed and i each day i went to some hospital to see the unrecognised dead bodies and unrecognised admitted girls in the hospital .......but never came to see her ...and was thankful to god for her....because i will kill myself ....if i get to know that she is dead ............i searched her every where in london ....i was not the man which i used to be ......i drink almost daily to release my pain .

it's been a month since i was trying to find and we belived that she is dead .........i couldn't accept that ...i told her parents 

"adhir ...you have to be strong dear ...don't loose hope" jenny said to me giving me a hug 

"i can't live without her ....jenny .....i ....i ...will die " i said crying my soul out it's been long i havn't heard anything about her i want her back at any cost.............

it's been 2 month and i have received no information about her ......i have searched for almost all the hospitals in london and nearby city .....i have been checking all the list of passengers flying to india ........i have checked all the hotels ....

and now i am devastated ....i lost all hope to get her back .....my business is falling ..i am falling 

i drink days and nights .

Misha:

it's been months and i am still working at the grocery store because i have not received call from any company ....and it would be hard to survive like this and moreover i miss india ...i wanted to go back to india on the day i left adhir's house but i didn't because i knew soon my parents gona find out that i left his house and they will search for me and they will definitely check for the flight and i didn't want them to have any idea about me......... i was concerned about my parents not of adhir because i know he will never search for me ...so it's better to be in uk for some months.....then move back to india ...... because i certainly don't want to face my parents or be answerable to any one .

this store is owned by an old couple ........ they are really nice people ......and i am too thankful to god that they belongs to india too .... so it was easy to get familiar with these peoples ....... they are not too much rice .....but still very much than me ...... they told me that in few days they will be visiting india to rest of their family......so i thought it would be a good idea to go with them ...and book all the tickets in common ....to avoid any possible investigation about me .

looking them reminds me of my parents ...... and i also miss jenny ........ but i think i should just accept the fact that i would never turn back ..... this couple treats me like their daughter ........and they think i am young and beautiful so i should get married ...ofcourse they know nothing about my marriage.......i don't like sharing personal things and moreover i don't like people sympathizing me.

Adhir:

few days back 

i contacted rohan to ask if he is in UK and is misha with him....but he denied and on the next day he was here ....along with him was my parents and misha's parents ........ i didn't expect him to be here ......the moment he entered my house he rushed to me and puched me on my face ....if i was that old adhir ...i would have killed him and destroyed his entire family ......but i am not what i was ... because right now i am in love with her ...... and i can die or kill anybody for her ...... so rohan can atleast hit me because he was too in love with her .... .. i regret what i did to them ...... if i knew that loosing your love could be this painful i swear to god ....i wouldn't have done that .

he hit me again ....and i fall on the ground ....then misha's parents and my parents rushed to him ....... they all knew that rohan and misha were good friend ..not lovers.

misha's mother is crying .....and so was her dad .....i didn't explain them anything because there was nothing to tell them ...how could i tell them that i r***d their daughter.....and then instead of apologizing her i ignored  her .

jenny told them that we used to have quarrel these days .....and about the divorce paper that she left signed..... i knew it there was nothing true in her words but i was not in the state to explain any thing to any one ......i just want to see her and apologise to her....atleast this before i die.

"beta(son)....please find my girl ...she is short tempered ......but she is good person " misha's mom said to me crying and i grabbed her into a bear hug ......and few tears left my eyes .

rohan helped me to search for her .

we contacted police but they didn't took it very seriously because she had signed the divorce paper so it was confirmed that she had left with her choice ....but they took her photos to send to their other stations .....they will contact me if they could find anything about her ......i  have contacts in police too so i could manage to get all the information 

my parents and misha's parents returned to india ....when i assured them that i will keep searching for her.... they were sad ....but they accepted that misha left with her choice.

and i continued drinking all days and nights .....because each times i am failing to get any information about her ....and this is clenching my heart bit by bit.