BELIEVE IN SILENCE {AL-YUMINUN BIALSAMT}

Rising from the past my shadow is running in silence to meet me.. I ran in the dark ignoring the pain in my body, I just wanted to run far away not knowing where to go.I was praying continuously to be saved but there was no one to be seen. It was just me and the pain which was becoming unbearable now. I cried in silence as i heard their voice alarming me to run faster... Abruptly I woke up in a cold sweat ,my eyes were wet with tears. l wiped my tears and sat in terror of the dream. AYLA YILDIZ daughter of a buisness tycoon AIMAL YILDIZ. She was a simple, mature, pure, very moody 21 years old practicing muslim. She believes that "Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala Knows the Reality of Things and he will never let her down".She lives in a joint family with her parents and her younger brother.                 I got up from the bed it was 4:45 am and went to washroom to freshen up and get changed.I preformed ablution  and the tahajjud namaz and prayed for myself ,my family and Zeh."Ya allah aap ko tho pata hai na mere sapne aur bure hote ja rahe hai ,aap ye sab ko mujh par khaboo karne mat dena.Ya rabb aap tho Al-Rahman Al-Raheem ho ,aap zeh ko himmat dena wo bohot buri halat mein hai ,woh aapne liye sahi faisla kaare aur uss ki hifazat karna. Ya rabb mein New York tho Jane ke liye bol di per aap ko pata hai mujhe flight mein kitna daar lagta hai .Please Mera fir se khayal rakhna.Ameen" l said last sentence in a childish way trying to please allah with my innocence cuz I know allah tala loves me. (Dear God you know that my dreams are becoming very terrific day by day,please don't let this take over me.Dear God you have unlimited mercy, give zeh strength she in not in a good condition ,let her decide what is good for her and protect her.Dear God i said that i would go to New York but you know that how much i fear travelling in flight .Please take care of me like always.Ameen) flash back 2:10am I was busy doing my assignments because I wasn't able to sleep and wasted my whole day and time reading my favourite novel.Yeh my fault that i can't stop reading something that is much more interesting than assignments.I was finally done with assignment, so I jumped on the bed to rest cuz it felt like i did something that was impossible.I closed my eyes wanting to sleep peacefully.... wait peace and me how is it even possible.So as soon as I closed my eyes and was trying to give rest to my little brain which was drained my mobile phone started ringing.I ignored it but it dare stopped.I gave up and answered the call "Assalamualaikum" i said in an irritated tone but there was no answer.That was the moment my brain kicked  me for answering the call.I ..who was trying to sleep after all my hard work was was disturbed by a call and now u are playing with me by not answering "Zehra dehko ab bohat ho gaya ,mein bohat thak gayi hoon agar tumhe kuch zaroori baat nahi ho tho mein call kaat kar rahi hoon" i stated in an angry tone knowing it was Zehra (zeh) my best friend. (Peace to you ) (Zehra see it's too much ,i am literally very tired if you don't have any thing important to talk then I'm ending the call.) I was about to cut the call i heard her say"Wailkum Salaam..Ayyu mujhe tumse ...kuch zaruri baat Karni hai" her voice was low and  breaking and i was able to tell that she was crying.I got worried hearing her voice. (may peace be upon you...Ayyu i want..to talk.. something important with you) " kya huwa zeh ?tum roo rahi ho na?" i asked her in a getting anxious. (what happened Zeh? you are crying right?) "Ayyu wo azar ne ........."She told me everything while sobbing. (Ayyu that azar...) I was extremely shocked after hearing her.I asked myself how could a person do such a thing ?how far can they lie ? I didn't know what i was supposed to tell her , i myself was very amused on his doings. "Zeh mein wahaan aa rahi hoon jab tak tum aapna khayal rakhna" i said wanting to be there with her in bad times as she was with me everything time i needed her. (Zeh I'm coming there till then take care of yourself) "Per Ayyu tumhe tho.." before she could complete i said " Haan mujhe pata hai ki mujhe height se daar lagta hai per tumhe ye malum hai ki mein har cheez se daar daar kar rahne  se  thak gayi hoon ". I told her expressing my feelings. (But Ayyu you are ...) (Yes I'm scared of height but you also know that I'm tired of been scared of everything ) "Accha ab tum Rona ban Karo aur ja kar icecream khao. khaoo gi  na?" I ordered her knowing that when ever she is sad she never eats anything and when we were kids i used to steal the icecream from the fridge for both of us to make her happy. (Now stop crying and go eat some icecream . you will eat na ?) She said "hmm" and then after making sure that is she ate icecream and stopped crying and slept because of my non sence talk, i ended the call. I drank some water and lay on the bed thinking about zeh. ZEHRA ZEKI (zeh) was Ayla's best friend and like sister.. not like sister but was sister to her. They lived together as Zehra parents died in an accident when she was little and her relatives declined to keep her and her brother with them. Ayla parents accepted them in their family.Her brother MIRAC ZEKI finished his studies and started his own business. Zehra was married 6 months ago to AZAR AVCI a professor at university and an famous artist and shifted to New York. I slept with tiredness engulfing mee taking me to another dream terror.