It can only be natural to assume the worst from someone who has seldom shown you anything other than their darkest self. I have little doubt that Lazarus doesn't know the effects of a Blue Moon. And if that is true, then he has known all along that I would become pregnant and chose to say nothing. I also highly doubt he would consider that I know and don't care if I fall pregnant given the current state of our relationship. It's attempting to say nothing. I should get rid of the fetus before it develops properly. If I am going insane, they will put me down regardless of whether I am pregnant or not. It would be the kindest thing to do. The car ride is unnaturally quiet on our way back to the palace through the busy streets of Halmara. This is still the nicer side of the city, where more of
