Finding forever online

It was a fresh morning, I went online and I had a lot of add up, I met new people. there was this particular person that caught my eye. I noticed the person sent a message saying "Hello My name is Ethan,I would like to know if you want to be friends. I noticed I was following you on this site. maybe we can talk"I didn't know what to do so I checked his profile and WOWW he is so f*****g attractive, his profile picture was also a selfie. His jawline could give me an intense cut and his eyes were the perfect hazel brown,and of course me wanting to get to know him, I messaged him privately. Saying "oh hello yeah sure sure, we can talk and get to know each other more,after a few weeks we started to get close with each other just as friends , things were getting more serious. He asked me if we could video chat which I was scared of because he might be a creepy old man that is a pedo. I tried to make up excuses but I just went for it thinking it was the right thing to do,after a few minutes, he called me and I had to answer. I was so surprised when I saw that he was actually his real age just has a deeper voice because of being sick and all but it was nice to hear his voice, it was sweet, deep and sexy. To be honest I kinda fell in love with his voice. Which was strange and weird to like, but we started to talk about s****l things, asking questions some simple some weird or stupid, it was fun and nice. which I found out who he had a crush on. it took me in shock but made me blush. I was getting nervous even though I didn't sound like I was. After that day I started to get a crush on Ethan as well, it was weird and strange but it was so quick. I felt like I have something close to my heart. I went ahead to ask him out and he said yes I was so happy and excited. I never thought he would really say yes.It was the new beginning of an amazing couple. In a couple of months, we became very close to each other, we started to know Secret things that happens in our lives it was weird and very s****l. i didn't mind it but it was getting clingy and perv like. I pay no attention to it because I didn't care how I went with it. it was cute and funny for me in a weird crazy way. I let it go to the point he got very s****l which changed me a bit to become s****l a little bit like him but not too much thankful. He starts to get close to me and I loved it. I loved to hear his voice whenever I can. I want to hold him and cuddle him. even though I hate touching people, every time I'm sad or alone I want him by my side. I feel needy which I hate. I asked him "will you ever see me in real life?" He said in the summer which I can't wait for any longer. we start to talk to each other every little time we got. The next day he finally got his cell phone then he asked if we could face time.I was happy to hear his voice. it has been a long time since we called each other. so I accepted, I think he felt bad, then he said,I'm really sorry that we cant see in person but we can always facetime" I didnt want to facetime him, I wanted him to actually be physically in front of me so I can tell him how I felt rather than just holding my phone while seeing his face on a screen,but either ways I sat on my bed in my pjs as I scrolled through my youtube feed. As I watched some videos I heard my phone buzz, I checked the notification...It was Ethan, I was guessing he was ready for the call, but I guess not. He snapped me and said that if I wanted to see him, I was going to have to wait. Because he's going to some places for a really long ass time. looks like its all over now, we lost each other. As the new person I am now, we met a month ago and now its thrown awa, that's how I felt at that moment.I've talked to Ethan on the phone before and he's the most adorable human being ever. My phone buzzed again after a good ten minutes, I sat up properly and looked at the screen, Ethan snapped me.I opened the snap to a picture of his "you know what," the message said "lets have some fun." I decided why not because I wanted to seem confident towards Ethan, he said he was horny. I double tapped his name to open my camera… Inappropiate-ness rolling in now I sat up and slid my over sized sweater over my shoulders and tossed it to who knows where. At this point I was left in my black bralette and sweatpants, I stood up and walked towards my full length mirror, I put one hand in a pocket and let my loose curls flow over my shoulders, I took a mirror selfie and sent it to Ethan. After a few seconds he sent "Awh cmon, let me see more of you ;) " I gave in and decided to throw my pants somewhere else, I exposed my bare naked body to the mirror and took another mirror selfie, I even let my face show in it, smiling showing off my plump lips and dimples. I sent it again and decided to ignore him for the rest of the night, he can jerk off to it if he wants. I put back on my pjs and went under my covers to sleep. Ethan's POV: “Damn babygirl” I was so surprised, your body doesn't show nicely in your somewhat baggy clothes you wore earlier. You look so attractive in that black bra, I saved the picture so I can look at it later, I sent her another snap of my d**k in full erection, I was so horny at that point I wished she were here to sit on my d**k, I imagined how nice that would've felt. I also told him how much I wished he was here so we could cuddle, we kept sending snaps and listing alongside but it didn't last long so much. which I wished it did. but I was happy to talk to him. I was being an asshole but hey it's funny to hear him triggered by what I said. I just laugh and died from it. I disliked his stupid jokes because they never made sense to me. I don't know because it was supposed to be a dirty joke or something. never can tell but I try to laugh instead of being rude which backfires a lot. every time I was on the phone with him he would always talk dirty to me joking around or serious so I just went joking around and we talked about having s*x and other shits. it was funny to me and nothing to take seriously about. hopefully, he thought the same way. I like when he talks dirty to me, it turns me on I guess. or it's just very satisfying to listen either way, I liked it and felt wrong but good at the same time.