He Called Me Gorgeous. Disaster Engagement Series Book 2

Episode 7

I let out a little moan "you love that don't you sweetheart?" And he was right but I had to put a stop to this phone s*x because I hadn’t even spoke to him in months and I didn’t want to come across as that easy. "You are something else Michael, now stop all that you know I’m a good girl” he let out a little laugh "I wish I was there with you, when can I see you sweetheart?" The thought of seeing him made me even wetter I wanted him so badly "I'm not sure, where are you?" "I'm in LA I've been here filming since January. We are just about finished here then I'm heading straight to Japan to film the next part of the movie. Are you going to be in Tokyo anytime soon?" "No sorry Michael” “it was worth a try, I'm desperate to see you. I miss you very much. "I miss you too" I said. After that he called me every other day but I knew he was too busy with his career to see me any time soon. I knew that his career was the most important thing in his life and I would always come second and that’s not what I wanted from life. I wanted someone that would always put me first and that someone wasn’t Michael.

Chapter 14

We decided to fly to Vegas for the new music video. It was the first video we had recorded that year. The first single from the album was just snippets of back stage recordings from our last tour mixed with onstage performances. The other music video was three little boys and one little girl dressed up like us pretending to play instruments and lip syncing to our song. We haven't recorded anything because I had a broken arm and the Big Man had been away but now we were fighting fit and back together. Fran and I were getting on better too. I had decided to let go of all the anger and I had been spending more time with him. We were nearly back to normal although I wasn’t being as affectionate as I had been before because I think that's where it had all went wrong. I knew he wasn't in love with me and never would be. I think what Stefan had done had really affected us and I suppose we had stuck to each other for comfort. Going away to film the new music video was a great way for us to reconnect again and I was looking forward to spending more time with him. We had a private jet fly us over to Vegas. It was hilarious from the moment we took off. Tommy came with us because he was in the movie with the Big Man so he was going to be in our music video we were making to go with it. I felt for the poor guy because I don't think he knew what he had let himself in for. Fran and I decided to stay up most of the night before our flight drinking champagne. By the time we were half way through the flight the Big Man and I couldn't stop dancing and Chris was totally gone. It was the first time he had drank alcohol since before we went to Thailand. Carmela wasn't with us so he decided to take full advantage. The four of us asked Tommy to film us all singing a song from when we were kids and by the look on his face he must have thought we were crazy. The cabin crew constantly asked us to calm down but we constantly told them to shut up. This was the blow out we all needed. When we arrived at our hotel it was surrounded by fans and press. We hadn’t been to America for just over a year and they were desperate to see us. The hotel suite was out of this world. It had a view over the Vegas strip, a jacuzzi, a bar, an infinity swimming pool and four adjoining bedrooms. Tommy had his own room on the same floor because he said there's no way he could keep up with the four of us. As well as making the music video for our new song we had an acoustic set to film for MTV, an interview with a national chat show and a photo shoot. So we did what we usually did, we got even more pissed. The day after we arrived we went out into the Nevada desert to film the video, we were all dressed up like bank robbers with masks on driving around in a convertible. The desert heat in July was no joke and we were all hung over so the Big Man gave us all miniatures to neck in between scenes. By the time it was my scene with Tommy I was a really drunk. We only had to sit in the back seat as the Big Man pretended to drive us. I was that drunk that I decided to sit on Tommy’s knee as I sang the song. At one point I turned and licked his face. He just gave me a sexy grin. The director loved it "Jason I think you should sit on my knee" I said. The Big Man was just as drunk as me and he looked totally confused "why are you calling him Jason?" I gave him a look like he was stupid "because that's his real name" he looked at Tommy in disbelief "oh I didn't know that mate, my real names Jaime.” After that Tommy couldn’t stop laughing as he tried to explain that his name was Jason in London Streets and it wasn’t his real name but the Big Man was that drunk that he couldn’t understand what he was talking about. The rest of the day and night became a total blur of shots and strippers and dancing. The next day I woke up and I was still a bit drunk and I’d had a really filthy dream about Fran again. When I looked around I realised I was in Fran’s bedroom and I could hear him being sick in the bathroom. The sound of him vomiting was turning my delicate stomach. I was so hung over that I really didn’t want to get out of bed and that’s when I noticed that I was only wearing a t-shirt with no underwear on underneath. I was sore from head to toe and my head was thumping. I got up to try and find my clothes and they were on the floor. I quickly put on my dress but I couldn't find my knickers. Fran appeared at the bathroom door "Gorgeous I think I'm about to die, what the hell were we drinking last night?" He asked as he rubbed his head and I have to admit he looked how I felt. "Fran why was I only wearing a t-shirt?" But he didn’t answer me he just sat down at the bottom of the bed and he looked like he was going to be sick again but I had a terrible feeling that it wasn’t just another sexy dream about him that maybe we’d actually had s*x. “Fran did something happen between us last night?" "What do you mean?" He asked “tell me we didn't have s*x?" I demanded “are you being serious?" But I couldn’t tell if he was offended by my question or if he was offended that I couldn’t remember “Oh god did something happen?" he looked genuinely hurt. "No, we were wasted, there's no way we could’ve had s*x" he finally said "it's just that I can't find my knickers, they are white and have I love Las Vegas on the front" I said with a giggle, "the Big Man has them, he won them in a bet" I sat down next to him “Thank god for that” I said rather dramatically but it was because I was so relieved. I really didn’t want things to be weird between us again and I think if we had have slept with each other it would have sent me over the edge. "Lydia wait" he said he rubbed his face with both hands "what's up?” I asked "I think I'm going to be sick again" and he ran into the bathroom. I stood by the door whilst he was throwing up. I felt my stomach turning. When he finally finished I went over to the mini bar to get him a bottle of water. There was loads of empty bottles of booze every where and the mini bar was practically empty. We must have really hit it hard last night I thought to myself. I went into the bathroom and gave him a bottle of water "you ok honey?" I asked he was standing at the mirror by now. "Would it have been the worst thing in the world if we would have shagged?" He asked and I was totally shocked. “Of course it would have been Fran, we are friends. Fran did something happen or are you winding me up?" I was shitting myself, maybe something had happened because the dirty dream I had about him did feel real. He was quiet for a second "Course I'm winding you up Gorgeous” he said with a little smile. I slapped his arm and giggled "good cause I'm not on the pill" I said he looked a bit shocked. Thank god I thought to myself and went to my own bedroom and had a shower and got dressed. A little while later and went out into the living room area of the suite. The Big Man, Chris and Tommy were sitting around eating breakfast and they looked how I felt. Chris was wearing sunglasses and no t shirt and I think he was still drunk and The Big Man was downing a pint with his breakfast "morning guys" I said pretending not to be hung over. "morning Mrs Kavangh" said Chris with a huge grin. I shook my head and laughed because he clearly must have been still drunk "what does that mean?” I asked “where's your husband Princess?" Asked Tommy "What are you talking about?" But they all just laughed apart from the Big Man. Then Fran came through and sat down and poured himself a coffee. “morning” he said in a grumpy voice. I could tell he was ill by the look on his face. “so where are you both going on honeymoon?" Asked Chris “what are you talking about?" Snapped Fran and he looked at me for an answer but I shrugged my shoulders "I don't know what he’s on about” I said “what? you two really don't remember getting married last night?" Said Tommy with a over the top laugh. Fran and I looked at each other “No we didn't" I said "yes you did Lydia, it's all over the internet this morning" Chris showed me a photo on his phone of me and Fran in a wedding chapel. I had my arms wrapped around him and a bunch of flowers and a vail. We are both wearing sunglasses and he was kissing my neck. "Oh god we got married” I screeched and Fran put his head in his hands. He seemed just as surprised as me. “Oh no this looks really bad, my mums going to kill me" Fran was still rubbing his head “calm down we will sort it out, it was just joke" he said and then a sobering thought entered my mind and I really started to panic. “Fran what is Stefan going to say? He’s actually going to kill me for this" Fran stood up and he looked pissed off “he won't f*****g touch you. Don’t you worry about him" his face was bright red and I thought he was going to lose it but he looked at Tommy and he corrected himself. Obviously Tommy didn’t know that I was only pretending to still be in a relationship with Stefan. This was such a mess and I knew Stefan would have something to say about it. I could feel my bottom lip starting to quiver. “Are you going to cry Gorgeous?" Asked Chris. He knew that I never cried but this was all so over whelming. I had to give myself a shake this wasn’t the end of the world and I knew that Stefan was in New Zealand promoting his album so there was no way he could hurt me. "What are we going to do Fran?” He just took a deep breath “don't worry, I’ll sort it and don't worry about Stefan either" He calmly got up and went through to the bathroom, I think he was going to be sick again. When I glanced at the Big Man I noticed that he seemed annoyed. I wondered what was wrong with him but I didn’t have the energy to ask him. I looked at Tommy and he looked kind of embarrassed by the whole conversation. So I decided to break the tension with a little joke. “Only I could have a fiancé and a husband and not be having s*x with any of them, I'm such a loser" The Big Man finally smiled “You’re not a loser. You’re just engaged to a loser” I let out a laugh. “You’re right he is a total loser” but inside I was terrified of what was going to happen next.

Chapter 15 Fran POV

I had been spending more time with Lydia and we were kind of getting back to the way things were before she had moved out. Chris said that she had told him she was glad that we were friends again and that she had missed me. Although I was over the moon to be spending time with her again there was still something that didn’t feel right between us. I think it was because she wouldn't let me touch her, not even a hug hello. I felt like s**t every time she pushed me away but there was nothing I could do about it. I met Carmela one afternoon for a coffee. I really liked her because she was great for Chris and his sobriety but apart from that she was a really nice down to earth person and we had become friends. Carmela encouraged me to tell Lydia how I felt about her before it was too late. She said that I should grab life by the balls. Carmela and I had first bonded when I had went to stay with Chris when Gorgeous had first moved out of my place. I was really low and no matter what Chris said he couldn’t pull me out of it but Carmela had a great way of making me look at the bigger picture and it gave me a new perspective on my relationship with Lydia. Carmela was convinced that me and Gorgeous were meant for each other and having someone be so positive about our future gave me hope that one day I could be with Lydia. I planned for us all to go to Vegas to film our next music video. I hoped that if we went away for a while that things could get back to normal between us and then hopefully progress from there. I could see she was starting to forgive me for what happened with that b***h Lesley, Lyndsey... whatever her name was. I can’t remember her name because she meant nothing to me. She was just some woman that I banged now and then. The only reason I invited her over to my house that day was because I was devastated that Gorgeous had left me and I had got it into my head that she wanted to move back into her flat to be close to the Big Man. I stayed at Chris’s flat for a few days then I finally decided to go back to my own place, but when I got home to an empty house I called that girl for company and to take my mind off Lydia. I know it sounds stupid but she dressed like Lydia and looked like a second rate version of her and I wanted to let off a bit of steam with her. In the past I would just bend her over and pretend it was my Lydia. Afterwards I would always feel like a complete loser but it was the closest thing I could get to the real thing. I sat in my living room listening to her go on about some bullshit when I realised I had done the wrong thing by inviting her over. There was nothing in the world that was going to make me feel better, especially not s*x with an i***t that I didn’t care about. Then when Gorgeous showed up out of the blue I wanted the earth to open up and swallow me. She looked totally disgusted with me and I felt like my world was about to end. I had always managed to hide from her the fact that I only slept with girls that kind of looked like her but now she had found out just how pathetic I was, she couldn’t even look at me. I could tell by the look on her face that she was sickened by me. She must have thought I was a pervert that was obsessed with her and the sad fact was that she was right. When she left I asked that girl to leave because I was close to tears. As soon as she left I opened a bottle of whiskey and didn’t stop drinking for two days. A few days later I went to a party at the Big Man’s flat and Gorgeous ignored me the whole night, then she left early without speaking to me and I was heart broken. Chris and Carmela came to see me the next day and convinced me to pull myself together and that’s when the Big Man called to say that Gorgeous had went away on holiday with Stacey and he didn’t know when she was coming back. Although she had never went away without telling me before I wasn’t surprised she had ran away because it was something that she always did when she was angry or upset, but it was the first time she had ran away from me and it hurt like crazy to think that she didn’t want to see me. Lydia and Stacey were away for about a month and I was lost without her, then Carmela told me that they were heading home and that’s when I knew I had to speak to her as soon as she had landed. I couldn’t let this situation go on for another minute. I needed her to know that I wasn’t some pervert that slept with woman that looked like her for some cheap thrill, that the reason I did it was because I was in love with her and I was hurting. When she got back from her holiday with Stacey she seemed to have calmed down and I was relieved that she didn’t hate me or tell me she didn’t want to see me again. I wanted to sit her down and explain that I wasn’t a total pervert but she just said she never wanted to speak about it again and I was kind of relieved. We were getting back to normal slowly but surely so I asked Lydia to come over to my place the night before our flight to Vegas. I bought us champagne and wanted to make her favourite dinner. I hoped that maybe having a few drinks would make her relax around me. Then once I got her to Vegas I planned to take her out, away from the boys and tell her how I felt about her. This was a big deal, what if she told me to f**k off? Well I just had to take that chance because I couldn't go on pretending to be her best mate when I'm f*****g miserable without her. When she got to my place she still wasn't herself, she just greeted me with a friendly “Hi Franco" I wanted to grab her and drag her upstairs to my bed, she looked incredible, she was only wearing a t shirt and jeans but I thought she was a goddess. Her smile was back and my stomach flipped every time she smiled or laughed at my crap jokes. She said she wasn't hungry, but I knew this was just her way of messing with my plans. She knows that I need to be in control and doing silly things like not eating when I tell her too, gave her a thrill when she wasn't happy with me. I just pretended that it was fine but inside I was seething. I wish she would just do as she's told. I opened a bottle of champagne and then another bottle. We were having a laugh and getting on better but she still refused to let me touch her. Every time I moved to sit next to her she would get up and move. I was edging my way around the island in my kitchen practically chasing her. It was a game of cat and mouse and I was frustrated with her but I couldn't let her know how much it was bothering me. Before I knew it I was pretty drunk I had to stop drinking because I couldn't be a drunken mess in front of her, I was scared that I would blurt something out and I needed to be in control. I woke up on my sofa with a thumping headache and my phone ringing. It was Tommy "hurry up mate I'm outside in the motor we're going to miss the flight" he said “don't be daft it's a private jet they're going no where without us, be out in a few minutes” I headed upstairs to get changed and to grab my passport and bag. When I went into my bedroom she was in my bed. I couldn't even remember going to sleep last night and I was still half pissed. I had no idea that she had stayed over because if I had I wouldn’t have spent the night on the sofa. She was fast asleep in my bed cuddling into my pillow and she looked so peaceful. Her long eyelashes fell on her rosy cheeks and her full pout was screaming for me to kiss her. I watched her for a couple of minutes, it was my guilty pleasure. I always loved to watch her sleep. The Big Man said that I was a creep the first time he caught me but I didn’t care because it was the only time I properly got to stare at her without her knowing. I studied her beautiful face and I can’t tell you how much I had missed her. After a few minutes she started to stir a little, her eyebrows where down and she looked frightened as if she was having a nightmare. I decided to wake her up. "Gorgeous come on, wake up" I said as I stroked her face. It was the most body contact I’d had with her since she’d moved out. She was so soft and I wanted to stay there all day but we had a flight to catch. She let out a whimper "please don't touch me Jimmy, please don't" It broke my heart that she was dreaming about him again. Jimmy was the Big Man’s older brother and she would often have nightmares about him but there was nothing I could do to save her apart from wake her up "Gorgeous wake up, you’re ok just wake up" she sat up straight and looked startled "are you ok you were having a nightmare" I said stroking her face "no I wasn't! I'm fine" she said with a little smile and slapped my hand away from her face. I wondered why she always lied to me about her nightmares about him, but I never told her that she would say his name. "Ok Gorgeous let's get up, we have overslept and everyone is waiting” She gave me a petted lip and I could have melted “I don't want to get up Fran, let them wait" she said and she turned onto her front and buried her face into the pillow and her perfect arse was up in the air. It took all my restraint not to slap it. The flight to Vegas was hilarious, the Big Man and Chris were smashed and I even think Tommy was a bit drunk too. The Big Man kept touching Gorgeous and grabbing her and I was livid, even Tommy noticed that I wasn’t happy. "You alright mate?” He asked “no I'm going to kill him if he touches her again" I said and I truly meant it. When we arrived in the U.S the press and the fans went crazy and we decided to carry on the party. I came out of my bedroom pretty smashed and found the Big Man and Lydia sitting across from each other at the table in the dinning room area. Chris and Tommy were laughing and joking "what's going on?” I asked "if I can outdrink Gorgeous I get her knickers and if she outdrinks me I have to give her the business." It was the same bet that they always had and she always won. "Nice one" I said rubbing my hands "what business? What you need to give her your share of the record company? You lot are crazy!" Said Tommy "No the business is a striptease the Big Man does to that Abba song Waterloo and it's hilarious mate" Tommy’s face broke into a huge grin “I can't wait to see this." They had five shots in front of them and the first one to finish them first wins. "On your marks, get set, GO!” said Chris in a slurred voice. Lydia drank all five shots in a heartbeat. That’s one thing I could always say about her, that girl can drink. The Big Man drank his shots too but she won by a sip and the Big Man was raging that she had showed him up in front of Tommy, so he started to shout "you’re a cheat, you started before me. You’re a cheat Gorgeous" she just kept laughing at him "prove it ya big fanny" she said through her giggles. I loved it when she was drunk because she always became super Scottish. "Chris back me up, she cheated. Tommy you seen it, come on Franco tell her" they all agreed with him, not because she had cheated but it was because they all wanted to see her take off her knickers. Although I wanted to see it too, I was livid and I wanted to cut the Big Man’s throat. "Aye awright calm doon Big Man” she said. "She sounds like my old nan" said Tommy with a laugh. She stood up and staggered a little then she slid her knickers off wiggling her arse as she went all the way down to the floor then she stepped out of them then she picked them up and pinged them at the Big Man’s head and Tommy cheered "Jesus that was sexy" said Tommy and he slapped me on the back and I could have strangled him. I had noticed on the flight that Tommy obviously had a bit of a thing for her and the last thing I needed was another one of our mates sniffing around her. “You didn't see anything Jason, so I don’t know what you’re shouting aboot" she snapped. I liked that she forgot his real name because she had been calling him Jason the whole day. "what's this Gorgeous?” Asked the Big Man as he picked up her knickers. “I love Las Vegas? Where did you get these" "in my welcome basket I didn’t have any white knickers for under this white dress" he gave her a huge grin and then he sniffed them. I could feel my temper boil, I could have actually killed him then he grabbed her onto his knee and I couldn't to take it any more "right that's enough stop being so rough with her, let's get out of here, are we going to this club or what?" The Big Man knew I wasn't happy "I'm only messing about Fran, let's go Gorgeous" he said and slapped her arse. She turned and slapped his face just as hard "aye lets go ya pervert" we all laughed, that's one thing I could always be thankful for, she didn’t take any of his s**t. When we got to the club it was packed with people. We had a table in the VIP section and there was a group of girls hanging around. We were all drunk and the Big Man shouted the girls over to join us. They were all over the Big Man but I wasn't interested in them because I only wanted Lydia. Those girls didn’t hold a candle to her. Lydia was quietly chatting to Chris in the corner and I couldn’t take my eyes off her. She was stunning and I couldn’t help but notice that Tommy couldn’t stop staring at her either.

She stood up and wiggled her way around the table and Harry her body guard followed her as she went to the ladies room.