"Carmela told us you were coming home tonight and we wanted to talk to you, we wanted to talk about all the s**t that happened before you went away.." I cut him off "listen Fran I'm sorry for being a b***h to you both but I wasn't myself and I was taking it out on you guys for no reason" Which was a total lie. Before I went away I wanted to kill Fran for sleeping with that stupid girl. And I had wanted to kill the Big Man, for well for being the Big Man but I just wanted all the drama to go away. So I decided I would take all the blame for our arguments and secretly hate them behind their backs. But now I had calmed down I released that it was a little bit my fault "it's all in the past, I don't think we need to bring it all up again. I think we should just get back to normal and forget all about it" the Big Man and Fran just looked at each other, Fran looked surprised. I think this was the first time that we had a ever fallen out and I wanted it sorted before it got any worse "cool, I'm glad you’re feeling better" said Fran "we’re all mates, and mates fall out from time to time, and I'm sorry it won't happen again" I said and his face softened. I didn’t expect an apology from him because he didn’t know what he had done wrong. And I had to put it behind us because the boys had been my friends since we were little kids and they had always been there for me. I had been acting like a spoiled brat and I had to admit that I was wrong even if my heart was broken. I turned to the Big Man "I really think you should go in and speak to Stacey" he rubbed his hands over his face "what will I say to her?" "Just let her down gently Big Man, she thinks she's in love with you and she's hurt that you don't love her back" he took a deep breath, "cool, I will let her down gently, but only because she's your mate" he went through to her bedroom leaving just Fran and I in my kitchen alone. It was quiet between us, I finally looked up at him and said "well.." and he looked so awkward, then he finally said "well what?" "Well are you going to put the kettle on or am I" he let out a little laugh. "I've missed you Gorgeous” he said with a smile “I've missed you too, now stop changing the subject and put the kettle on"
Chapter 13
Stacey and I had been back from our holiday for a few weeks and things still weren't back to normal between me and Fran. I was constantly avoiding him and it was exhausting. When he walked into a room I would pretend that I had somewhere to be and that I was just leaving. When we were asked to appear on the front cover of a magazine I went to the photo shoot by myself and pretended that I had texted him to tell him, when I really hadn’t. Every time I seen him he looked so awkward around me. I was paranoid that Chris had told him how I felt about him, but Chris promised me that he hadn’t told him and that Fran was acting strange because he was embarrassed that I had said he was banging a Lydia Knight lookalike. I went out one afternoon to have lunch with my friend Steve, he was the director of the movie the Big Man had made with Tommy and invited me to lunch to ask us to release a single to go with the movie. I agreed to it as I really wanted the Big Man’s movie to be a huge success. When I got back to the flat I could hear strange noises coming from Stacey's bedroom so I crept over to listen. What was she up too now I wondered. Then I heard her put on her sexy fake giggle I had heard a million times. Then I heard loud moans and the head board banging, she was in there with some guy and they were having s*x. Good for her I thought to myself, it was about time she started to get over the Big Man and moved on with someone else. I wondered who it could be. Probably her ex Josh, and then I heard her cry out "oh Jamie you’re the best,you’re the best I've ever had" that's when I realised that she was in there shagging the Big Man. After all those tearful nights in St Barts. She told me that she would never fall for his lines again and that she was done with him. Well that didn't last very long did it. But I had to ask myself, why did the Big Man keep going back to her? And why was he so upset before we went away on holiday? I think deep down that he did have feelings for her too and he didn't know how to deal with them. I was kind of pleased for them. But I didn't want to hear any more drama from them. I decided there and then that if those two wanted a relationship then I was staying out of it. The head board was banging away and it sounded really hot. Stacey was doing great porn star noice's, even if it was in a welsh accent and the Big Man was grunting and moaning. Wow this was exciting, I haven't had s*x in months. Not since that night with Michael, and I had walked out half way through. And in that moment I wanted kick myself. I had to admit that I had been thinking about Micheal a lot when we were on holiday and I kept having s*x dreams about Fran. Stacey was getting louder and louder, my god he must be amazing in bed. The Big Man is so handsome and had the most perfect body, she's a lucky b***h I thought to myself. I was starting to get a bit hot and bothered. I had to have a word with myself. I couldn't sit around there listening to their s*x all day like some little pervert. I decided to go to Fran’s house to see him. I thought that it was about time that we tried to get back to normal and I needed out of my flat fast. The lack of s*x had went to my head. I walked outside into the cool air I released just how flushed I was. “I need to get a life" I said out loud. I walked around the corner looking through some emails on my phone I then stoped and quickly googled Michael. A thing that I never, ever did. But I just wanted to see his face for a minute and his body and him with no shirt on... A photo of him wearing a black suit and tie nearly made me faint on the spot. I had to tell myself to calm down, after all I had went two years without s*x before I started seeing Stefan, 6 months was nothing. Just then the most adorable dog jumped up on me and broke my thoughts, he was a light brown boxer with the cutest face. I heard a familiar voice shouting "Alfie come here boy" it was Tommy, this was the last thing I needed. He was so gorgeous and I had always fancied him and now I was that turned on I could have actually pounced on the poor guy. I bent down and Alfie licked my chin and I started to giggle because he was so cute. I stood up as Tommy came towards us "Hi Tommy, is this your dog? he's adorable, I love him" "alright princess long time no see, you look lovely" he put his arm around me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. His body was rock hard and it felt incredible "I see you've met Alfie" he said. Alfie was running around my legs and trying to get my attention. But I was too busy staring at Tommy's biceps, I dragged my attention back to Alfie "he's adorable and a ladies man just like his owner" I said. Tommy looked great he was only wearing a t-shirt and shorts but I could see every muscle through the fabric and he always had a really cheeky look about him. He was so handsome. When I think about how much I fancied him in London Streets I couldn't believe it was the same person. I think I actually liked him better in real life. "What makes you think I'm a ladies man?" He looked a little annoyed "I didn't mean that, I meant he's adorable just like his owner" he gave me one of his cheeky smiles, "so you think I'm adorable, I like it. Your pretty adorable yourself princess" I know that he was just a flirt and probably flirted with everyone but I wanted to jump on him, "So where are you off too princess?" I could feel my face burning red every time he called me princess. “I'm just popping in to see Franco. The Big Man and Stacey are having loud s*x in my flat and I needed out for a while." He had a disgusted look on his face. "Well I'm just heading to the park with Alfie if you want to join us" "yeah that would be good I need a bit of fresh air, if you don't mind me tagging along?" I said giving him my most flirty smile "course not princess, you look a bit flushed" He wasn’t wrong “yeah it was so hot in my flat" I started to fan myself and he had a goofy look on his face "yeah you look hot" he said, Alfie started to jump up onto me and I rubbed his head, "look you've made a new friend Alfie" said Tommy and he put him back on his leash. We made our way around the corner to a little row of shops. Tommy grabbed us both a coffee and we walked to the park. We sat on the bench and Alfie ran around. I was beginning to get to know Tommy and I was enjoying his company. It turned out his Gran was from Glasgow. I must admit I had wondered how he could understand the boys and I so well. Some people couldn't make out a word we said half the time. He also did the best impression of Carmela, he even had her hand gestures down to a fine art, it was hilarious. I told him about my lunch meeting with Steve and how we were going to release a song to go with his film. After a while he brought up Fran. "he was totally gutted when you were away on holiday, he said you never fall out. What happened?" He asked "Oh nothing really, it was silly" but by the look on his face I could tell he wasn’t convinced “Fran said he missed you when you were gone.” I felt a little pang of guilt. “Really? What else did he say?” I was surprised that Fran missed me. Even though I missed him like mad. “He said he hates your boyfriend. I don't blame him the lucky little prick" the mention of Stefan immediately changed my mood. I went from flirty and giggly to terrified in one second, I tried to be polite but I just wanted this conversation to end because I was sick of pretending to be in a relationship with Stefan and the thought of him made me sick. "Talking of him, I better go if I get photographed with you Stefan will go nuts" I stood up and put my bag over my shoulder and Tommy shot up onto his feet "let me walk you home princess or if you fancy it you can come round to mines for another coffee?" He looked a little flustered "no thanks Tommy, as I say Stefan wouldn't be happy if he knew I was here with you. He would take it the wrong way if you know what I mean" his eyebrows went down "has he got a temper princess?" I was embarrassed by his question I didn't know him well enough to tell him Stefan was an animal. "I didn't mean to be nosy, its just that the boys are very protective of you, and they hate him" by this time I was desperate to get away from him because I really didn't want to discuss Stefan with anyone "yeah he's the jealous type and an acquired taste put it that way” he nodded his head “yeah I’ve met him a couple of times” “ I better go it was lovely to see you honey. Bye bye Alfie" Alfie ran over and kept jumping on my knee "Alfie you're a wee cutie" I said as I rubbed his ears “yeah he’s a cutie just like his owner" he said with a little smile. I stood up and said goodbye to Tommy and I started to walk over to the gate of the park when three teenage boys passed me. One of them shouted “shows your t**s Lydia" I was mortified until Tommy shouted "i'll kick the s**t out of you. Ya little pricks" and they all ran away. I gave him a little wave and quickly headed to see Fran. I just hoped that he didn’t have some girl in his house again. When Fran opened his front door he looked shocked to see me. "Gorgeous what are you doing here?" He asked “Can I come in or are you busy?" “Yeah come in, please come in, can I get you anything, are you ok?" He was still acting awkward around me. I decided this had to stop because we had been best friends my whole life and I missed him loads "Yeah I'm fine, I went for lunch with Steve and when I got back to my flat the Big Man and Stacey were shagging like rabbits so I popped round here to get away from them" he started to piss himself laughing “well it's good to see you, I'm just about to eat dinner and watch London Streets if you fancy it?" Even though my favorite character Jason Spence aka Tommy had left the show I was still obsessed with it. “Oh what's happening this week? I heard that b***h Joanne is going to leave Paul at the altar” He nodded his head "she's such a b***h" he said. I loved that he still watched it, it reminded me of a happier time. We were chatting as we walked into the living room. He had a plate full of salad and salmon but I didn’t have any because I was still full from lunch. He sat on the sofa and patted the seat next to him for me to sit down. We had always sat together on his sofa, he would sit up with his feet on the coffee table and I would cuddle into his side. But I was still angry about what happened before I went away and I couldn't bring myself to be close to him yet. So I just ignored him and walked over and sat on the armchair beside the window. He looked a little deflated so I just changed the subject. "Do you fancy somewhere hot for the next video?" "Yeah I haven't been away since Thailand and that feels like a lifetime ago" he said "that feels like two lifetimes ago honey" I had my legs crossed and draped over the arm of the chair and I stared at the ceiling for a moment thinking about the stuff that had changed since our last trip. Chris is in love, the Big Man is now an actor, Stefan tried to kill me and Fran and I are hardly speaking. When I came out my day dream Fran was staring at my legs. His head was c****d to one side as if he was trying to look up my dress, he was mesmerized for a second or two before he realized that I had caught him, he was embarrassed for a split second then he squared off his shoulders "eh...your legs are really brown from your holiday" his face was bright red, yeah right mate good save, it was so obvious that he wasn't looking at my tan. I decided to really wind him up "thanks Francis" I said with a really flirty smile. I turned my attention to the TV but I knew he was still staring at me and he wasn't eating his food. After a minute or two I looked back over at him and he was on the edge of his seat looking up my dress. "Fran is everything ok?” I asked pretending not to notice but by that time my dress had rode up enough that he could see the side of my frilly pink thong. I was lying back sticking out my chest and playing with my hair, "Francis are you ok?" I asked. "Yeah I'm fine I need to take a quick shower" he stood up and ran out the room. I was overjoyed that my little summer dress had affected him so much, not because I still wanted to be with him but because I was still annoyed about him sleeping with that girl just after I had moved out. I had to ask myself,why was I so angry? And why was I torturing him? I had wanted to tell him that I was in love with him that day but when I was away on holiday I realised that I wasn't in love. I had just built it all up in my head. I had to start being nicer to him because he was my best friend and I missed him. I was congratulating myself on how grown up I was being but when I looked up he was standing in the doorway of his living room in only a towel. When I looked at him I felt like my heart had stoped beating because he was so f*****g hot. His hair was wet and slicked back and his body was incredible. The towel was slung low on his hips. He was dripping wet he looked just like he was in the sexy dreams I had been having about him. I wanted to grab his towel and ask him to f**k me. What was wrong with me? I was turning into a s*x obsessed pervert. I had to get out of there quickly before I said or did something I would regret. I jumped to my feet "I better go Fran" "no don't go, stay for a while, let me get dressed and I can take you out for dinner" I pointed to his plate that was still on the coffee table “you've just had dinner, anyway I've got stuff to do, see you soon honey" I rushed by him and he tried to give me a kiss on the cheek but I thought if he touched me I would have grabbed that towel off him and rode him into next week. “Gorgeous are you ok?" He looked hurt that I was leaving "Yeah I'm fine, I just remembered I've got something to do, bye" I ran along his hallway and slammed the door behind me and ran down the steps out onto his street and let out a huge breath. I was out of control, firstly I was listening to the Big Man’s hot s*x with Stacey, then I was flirting with Tommy and now I was drooling over Fran’s perfect abs. This had to stop. I needed s*x and I needed it before I ended up shagging the first guy I seen. I rushed home to my flat and Stacey was on the landline phone to someone. I thanked god that they had finished having s*x before I got home because I think I would have asked to join in the way I was feeling. Stacey had a huge grin on her face and was rabbiting on to who ever it was she was talking to "yeah so I really like the pink wallpaper. And then I was thinking of maybe having a pink carpet, that sounds nice doesn't it?...Oh did you like the blue wallpaper? oh no now I'm so confused" I had agreed that Stacey could decorate her bedroom to make it her own because she had been living in my flat for a while and I thought it would be nice for her to feel settled. Now I was beginning to regret agreeing to it because it was all she could talk about. She had actually woke me up in the middle of the night when we were away on holiday to show me some stupid lamp that she wanted. It was costing me a fortune and I wished that she would just paint it and get on with her life. I didn’t know who she was talking too on the phone but I felt sorry for who ever it was because she could be exhausting sometimes "oh my god did I tell you about that b***h from work...yes Claire...she's such a b***h. Do you know what she said to me yesterday?" I tried to quietly sneak by her and head straight into my bedroom for a bit of peace and quiet but she spotted me and her face dropped and her voice changed from its usual bubbly high pitched sound to kind of serious "Oh you'll never guess what! She’s just walked in, do you want to speak to her..?" Well it was my phone after all I thought to myself "ok I will put her on, Lydia it's the phone for you." God it must be my mum, only my mum could have a conversation about wallpaper. I took the phone from Stacey and she gave me a little smile and whispered "good luck" I wondered what she was talking about? Before I could ask her she had disappeared into her bedroom. I put the phone to my ear "hi" I said, then his voice beamed through the phone "Sweetheart. My god you’re a hard girl to get a hold of".. it was Michael!! My Michael. "Michael is that you?" I asked "of course it's me Sweetheart" my heart was in my throat, after all those months he had finally called me. I should’ve been angry but I couldn't, it was Michael. Then a thought entered my mind "Michael why are you on the phone talking about wallpaper with Stacey?" He took a deep breath "Because last week she was saying she wasn't sure if she preferred the stripy one and the week before she wanted to just paint it purple and the week before that she thought maybe green would be nice but I managed to talk her out of that one" I let out a laugh "ok....Michael why do you speak to Stacey so much about decorating?" He laughed "because I call your flat once a week to speak to you and you’re never home and Stacey is always there and she has started to use me as a bit of an agony aunt and not just advice about wallpaper" I was so confused, why was he calling me after the way I’d stormed out of his flat and why had Stacey never told me that he had been trying to get in contact with me? But most importantly what other advice had he given her. "I'm sorry Michael. I'm trying to get my head around this" I said with a giggle "why is it so funny sweetheart? I can give good advice" he was pretending to be pissed off but I knew him too well "no I'm just laughing because you two are like besties" he was quiet for a second "do you know what sweetheart? She is like my bestie. I speak to her more often than I speak to my twin brother"
“how long have you two been sneaking around behind my back being best friends?" He was quiet for a second I could tell he was trying to figure out just how long "since just before Christmas" "oh so you called to wish me a Merry Christmas and you two just hit it off" I said with a giggle "why do you think this is so funny sweetheart? Me and Stacey have a lot in common" he was obviously kidding because Stacey was not his cup of tea at all, that's why I couldn't understand this strange friendship. "Yeah right!" I said "you’re right, the only thing we have in common is you. I know why you’re friends with her" "Why is that Michael?" I asked "Because she’s self involved and as long as she's constantly talking about herself she's not asking questions about you" he was right I couldn't deny it "Jesus Michael you know me too well don't you?" "of course I do sweetheart" he sounded pleased with himself. I finally had to ask "Why has she never told me that you have been calling, she's never mentioned it to me" "after a few weeks I asked her not to say anything because I got the impression that you were avoiding me, so I've just been getting updates from her on how you are. She's like my little spy" my stomach sank I hoped that she hadn't told him about me admitting to her that I had feelings for Fran "oh really and what does she tell you?" "Just stuff like when you’re going to the dentist and if you've been eating all your vegetables. I was lost when you were on holiday sweetheart but she emailed me loads of photos. Jesus you looked amazing in that little white bikini" I couldn’t get my head around all this. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing "And now I'm finally getting to speak to you sweetheart. I feel terrible about the last time I saw you" "no it's my fault, honestly I'm so sorry for storming off" "I understand why you were annoyed with me, I acted like a dickhead and then the next day I found out you had been attacked so I ran straight over to the hospital but The Big Man said you didn't want to see me" What the hell was he talking about? The Big Man hadn’t told me he was there. "I didn't want to see anyone honey I was really badly beaten up" "I could kill who ever it was that hurt you." I knew I couldn’t tell him it was Stefan. “I'm ok, so don't worry"
“I sent you flowers everyday to your flat with my number on them, then Stacey finally called me to say you weren't there and that you were staying with Fran" he sounded a little hurt and I know it was because Michael and Fran didn't have the best track record "yeah I had a broken arm I couldn't really look after myself" "well at least Stacey liked the pink lilies I sent you" my heart was bursting because I was so happy, "you remembered my favorite flowers?" all that time I thought he didn't care and now it all fell into place. "Yes I remember that you love pink lilies. I went to Fran’s place to try and see you but your security wouldn't let me in" I felt awful for him "yeah they were being extra carful" I said but I wondered why they hadn’t told me he was there. “I'm glad you’re better sweetheart. I love you very much. Tell me what colour are you thinking about decorating your bedroom and what colour knickers are you wearing?" This was typical Michael "I'm wearing a frilly thong" I said in my most seductive voice "is it pink sweetheart?" I could tell he was grinning at the other end of the phone "Yes, how did you know?" "cause your a f*****g little cocktease sweetheart" I let out a little giggle "I wish you were standing in front of me I would take those little pink knickers off with my teeth" wow the thought of that had me totally turned on "really Michael and then what would you do?” I ran with the phone into my bedroom for a bit of privacy "I would bend you over and spread your legs and lick your p***y" he was really going for it "why baby?" "Because you taste so sweet and I know how much you love that sweetheart" “do you want me wet so you can f**k me?” "You know how much I want you?" "I'm so wet Michael" I sucked my finger "your right I do taste sweet." He was breathless "Jesus sweetheart, your going to make me come" I thought this was just a bit of fun winding each other up but I actually think he was really having phone s*x "are you touching yourself?" I asked "you know what I'm doing sweetheart" this was always my biggest turn on and Michael knew it. My knees were weak I sat on the end of my bed picturing him pleasuring himself and I could hardly breath I was so turned on. "Sweetheart I'm staring at a photo of you in that tiny white bikini stroking my d**k" I let out a little moan….