My Savior Alpha

Decisions

Trust me I said quietly. It’s better for both of us if you reject me now and find someone else. I’m broken. I have too much trauma. Too much damage.

Lilah no. Im not doing that.

I pulled my knees to my chest. It’s true ok? SunDawn was my pack. When I was 11 Totem deemed me his wife. I shuddered. Assaulted me got me pregnant too early and found out it would be a little girl. He said oh great another toy for me to play with so..I took a shaky breath. I killed her at 20 weeks. Iiiii couldn’t bring her into the world like that. Aaaafter that I knew I had to leave. I couldn’t be involved in pack life anymore so I ran and hid. I’m horribly scarred, and I don’t like packs. I don’t think I can ever live this life again. I’m impure. Selene is probably sending me to hell. Move on. Pick someone better. He was holding my face in his hands and I froze.

Look at me Lilah and tell me I don’t want you. Look at me and tell me you don’t want me. Then I’ll let this go.

I huffed. Fine. I—my throat went dry. Lyra was purring. Damn wolf. Don’t hurt mate Lilah please. Please for me try.

I could see the internal war and I slowly hugged her. She flinched. It’s ok I said gently. You’re ok. I hugged her tighter and she broke. I just sat with her for awhile. She cried herself to sleep. My poor mate has been through so much but that only makes me love her more. I wish she’d see it that way. I linked my parents we’d be spending the night in the cabin. I took her away from the packhouse tucked her into bed and snuggled with her til I fell asleep. Lilah is the only wolf I’ll have as a mate and I’ll wait another 8 years if I have to do long as she’ll be mine and she’ll stay.