My ex-boyfriend

Chapter 5

"Well, you're lucky, she's the most beautiful woman in the whole room" I didn't know what to do with his complement. He was always like this, making me feel pretty and boost my confidence but if he actually found me beautiful why did he do that?

God, I hate his complement. I chose to ignore him all along. Got a drink for myself and busied myself.

"She is indeed. Yes, I know I'm very lucky to be with her" I choked in my throat. Lucky to have me? How so? I don't understand why he did not even tell his brother about me? Anyway two drinks down my throat the least I care about what Jade thinks of me?

I did not even glance at jade and got slightly closer to Mr. Campbell, Christian. Anyway it's better this way let him think what he ought to think.

Christian Campbell excused himself from his brother and started conversation with someone else. I am too dizzy and too much on mind to think about the people in the room.

I don't know how long we stayed in the party. I lost the track of time and the drinks I have had. I felt someone taking me to a car and asking for my address.

Everything seem so funny, I laughed. He remind me of the young Jade, Jade I loved. I hugged the stranger, "You know you look like my ex.." He was going to say something, I put my finger on his lips to silence him, "Don't talk.. your lips are so soft your girlfriend must be really lucky.. ughh why you looking like Jade? Do you know I came to this party with his brother, Christian as his date and I've dated his younger brother a year ago.. isn't that weird"

I laughed and leaned more towards him. He took me to a car, "No! I don't wanna go" I through my purse in the air and sit down on the street.

This stranger who looks like Jade is such a party bummer. Why does he wants me to go? I wanna have fun!

"okay, what do you want to do here?"

"I want to dance.. like crazy non-stop the whole night" I said while grinning.

He made me stand on my feet and took me towards the car and whispered in my ear, "I am taking you to the another party, there you can dance the whole night" I shivered and made a small sound.

He groaned "lord Anne if you keep making this sound how can I keep my hands to myself? uh?" His hand touched my cheeks and moved his finger like feather on my cheeks to my neck. I couldn't help but lean more towards him.

Inside the car, being drunken on this touch from a stranger who look like Jade, I became bold and sat down on his lap. He hissed and I moaned again.

I moved closer to his face and put my both hands on his either cheeks, he said something to me. I didn't understand before he could say something I put my lips and against his, our lips in sync with each other dancing like old times.

I know this kiss, this is the one I have had before my heart tore into pieces. This is the one I have missed million times in the past one year.

I moved back from him keeping my hands on his cheeks while sitting on his lap, "Jade" I called him. His eyes looking back at me tenderly like he is caressing my face affectionately, "Anne"

My hands fall between us on our lap. We didn't say, didn't move for a while, just keep looking at each other, a silence before the storm

I sobered up little with the kiss and with his eyes on me.

This the guy I fell in love with. This is the guy I have loved for years. This is the guy I trusted more than anyone else. This is the guy who stole my first kiss. This is the guy I wanted to give my virginity to. This is the guy I dreamt of spending my whole life with.

I tell everyone that I moved on but I actually never did. When i'm alone I always think about him. He comes in my dreams. But I learnt to lie to others but how can I lie to myself? How?

Most importantly now, when he is in front of me. When I am sitting on his laps, feeling him getting hard against me, when I just had kissed him?

But then reality hit me. I remember that day as yesterday. How can I forgot, that day my perception from love completely broke off. I probably will never be able to trust anyone as much.

I moved away from him and then I looked towards the front sit, there was driver inside the car. There was another person while we kissed, when I was grinding against him?

Fuck. How could I drink too much to end up in this state? I felt so ashamed now that I completely sobered up. It's completely his fault. Couldn't he just stop me but who am I expecting from? I scoffed inside.

"I'm sorry Anne, I just wanted to drop you so you reach home safely but you were not in senses. You were not able to tell me your address so I told the driver to take us to my place. Is that okay with you?" he asked me nervously.

I glared at him and told the driver my address. I didn't want to look at this jerk, this piece of s**t. I can't help but curse him.

Through half an hour journey he kept his mouth close and maintained his distance from me. And I am very very thankful for that. I am anyway embarrassed for kissing him and making a fool of myself. How can I do that? Why did I got so much drunk? Oh yeah! I remember! because of this jerk