My ex-boyfriend

Chapter 9

I was surprised, he is not hard at all. I thought.. I thought he liked what we were doing. Anyway, I continued palming him through his boxer. No response. Why? Is he not attracted to me?

I thought.. I feel so self conscious, here I am barely dressed, nearly naked in front of him and he is not turned on at all, not responding to me at all?

I left my hand from him to get ready and to get my dress but he stopped me. He held my hand in his and made me sit on his lap.

He removed my hair from my face and put them behind my ears with his both hands and then hold my cheeks with his hand, " What do you think? Where are you going? " he waited little bit for me to reply, " Tell me, please! "

" I.. I thought you liked me " I said softly and took a sheet from bed to cover myself and sat down next to him on the bed.

" Anne, I love you " he caressed my right cheek softly, " I know, you are thinking it's your fault but it's not. It has nothing to do with you. I love you very much and that's what I wanted to tell you then too. It is my problem. I have some issues I am not able to erect. I will tell you later on in details " He removed the sheet from me, " Now come here let me make you feel good "

I do not ask further and neither I want to, at least not right now. I need to process every thing that happened and every information I got now. I can't help but think about him not reacting to me. How can I not feel it's my mistake.

After all, He cheated on me. But if he's not able to react why did he date two girls?

I don't know, neither I want to know, at least not right now. I just want to be alone right now.

I removed his hand from me, standing up against him I said, " I want to be alone right now. I want some privacy "

He did not say any single word but his eye is speaking millions of emotion. After a pause of few seconds he straighten up. He took a t-shirt out of closet and put it on bed, " You can wear this, I will arrange something for you to wear in the morning. Good night "

And he left the room. I am alone now and naked. Now another scar to haunt or plague our non existent relationship?

I get inside the blanket and everything that happened today flashes back in my mind. Haunting me. Reminding me of the messes.

Thinking about all these. I fell asleep.

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My eyes flutter open and the first thing I realise that this is not my room and I am in someone else bed and these clothes are not mine. Then it hit me. I met Jade last night.

Oh f**k, these are his and I am in his bedroom. Everything hit back like a hurricane and my already headache turned into massive headache.

With my eyes being wide open, all of my problems are alive again. In the broad day light I still could not think straight.

So I did one important thing and that is to get out of this room to find jade for my purse, he has the officer's phone no. with him.

In an hour I got my purse in his apartment and my clothes I left at the boutique. I told him about the clothes of course, I don't want him to do more favor than he already has.

He hurt me once and maybe not attracted to me anymore despite what he says. But I know one thing, he is a good man and I can trust him with my life.

I know I am being emotional and all but I can't help it. I know I don't want to delete him from my life anymore. God knows what would have happened if he did not stick with me yesterday.

But I surely can't develop feelings for him. I can never run on that road again.

I wore my clothes from yesterday and took my purse. I went to him, there he was standing close to window in his blue suit looking incredibly handsome.

Impatiently I waited for him to be done with his call, in next two minutes he ended the called. Standing close to me to speak.

Even with sober eyes, I am infatuated by him. His smell is still intoxicating to me. I find it hard to breath. But I have to control. I moved little away from him.

I closed my eyes and thanked him. With my sober self it is hard to not thank him. I owe him a big time. I tell him all that. But he stopped me and came closer to me.

" One thing is left to be done from last night. "

he said and my breathing hitched in my throat. I knew what he meant. I knew very well. it just I don't know how to react, to let it go with the flow or stop.

He took me in his arms. His lips moving gently on my neck, teasing me.

" you have no idea Anne, how much I want you " he took my ears in his mouth and give it a soft bite. I put my hand on his waist to find balance. I love his hands on me and my hands on him. I just can't resist.

He put his mouth against mine, sucking my lower lips. For few seconds I couldn't respond but soon I started to kiss him back.