XXVI
Stepping into the shower I couldn't believe what I had done. I cheated on Dean, the guy I've been with for almost four years. The worst part is I didn't even think twice.
But God was Shawn good, he was right about making me feel things Dean never did. Every time he touched me it was like sparks we're going off on my skin. I got this tingling feeling that I still feel. And I hate myself for it. How can I do that to someone I love?
But that's the real question isn't it? Do I still love Dean? I thought I did, and I know I don't love Shawn. So then why do I prefer his touch over my own boyfriends? Maybe it's because Deans touches are always aggressive and angry lately. I need to get him to stop that. If he doesn't, I don't think I can handle much more of this.
Stepping out of the show
