Lotus of the Night

Ten years ago my mother passed away I was fifteen years old my little sister was twelve, my name is Jogina Jinx Michaels I'm named after my mother and my grandmother on her side where my sister is named after my mother and grandmother on my fathers side. The night we buried our mother is the night that monster that happens to our father started to abuse us. I would get the worst of it leting my father take his anger out on me and would do anything for my sister to not be hurt fives years of this happen before I could take no more. Every night for five years the abuse was nonstop. When he was done with me he would move over to my sister and every night I would find the stregth to move to block his hits from her. Though there were nights that I couldn’t always protect her. those nights I would wake the next morning covered in bruses and cuts my forehead would be covered in blood and my little sister would be holding me in her arms. Five years of doing everything I could to protect her. We were never allowed to leave home when I turned eighteen I could have left but I couldn’t leave her so for two years I would secretly call a lawyer to get her emancipated so she could leave. But he found out after a year of trying. After that he took the phones to his room. Six months later after being knocked out I woke up to her crying holding her arm. I knew that he broken it. It was time for me to stand up to him. Thankfully due to everything that happened in our lives I new how to reset bones. Placing her arm in a sling I make her some eggs it was already in the afternoon. “Listen tonight I want you to stay in our room I’m going to try and speak to him. And I don’t know what is going to happen so I need u stay out of it and lock the door only let me in.” “What are you going to do?” Haley asked softly in between mouthfuls of eggs. She spoke quietly for many reasons the main one was not to wake him up. If he was woken up before this even he would be extremely angry and the beatings would be worse. Haley had always spoken quietly when our mother was alive though she had more of a sparkle to her voice before. ​“I’m getting you out of here! I do not care what I have to do my dear sister. You are going to be free to do all the things that you should have been able to do. Know while I clean the house and go to the grocery store go to your room lock the door and do your school work.” Taking her plate from her. Since we were little we had been homeschooled and continued because he didn’t want us in public school. I was only allowed out only to go to the store and I could not take longer than an hour or my sister would be hurt. ​ I never took longer than thirty minutes. After fully cleaning the house including vacuuming it’s the only thing that is allowed to be loud in the home before he wakes it would be the only thing that he wouldn’t hurt us over. I grabbed the key that we were allowed to use for the truck and the food money that he had set out. Anything left over was to be put back; there was a small grocery store just down the road that I could go to.Halfway through the shopping an older man came up to me thankfully I knew who it was. “Mark.” ​“Miss Michaels, I hadn’t heard from you in awhile. I became worried.” He was the lawyer that I had working pro bono to help my sister.​ ​ “He found out what I was trying to do and hide the phones. Did you do it?”​ ​ “Yes all I need is his signature. I thought I could get around that but I was not able to, no judge will sign off on the court papers with out.” ​ “That’s okay I will get him to sign it somehow. Thank you mark truly.” I told him taking the papers that he offered me soon my sister would be fully free from his clutches. That is all I lived for now. Keeping her safe.I made it home just in time. My hour was almost fully up thankfully I got in in time. I put the groceries away and started making tonight’s dinner even though I planned not to eat normally if I ate I throw it up after our beatings. I was to make meat loaf. He woke up coming down the hallway I could here his feet hitting the ground and coming my way I knew not to look at him and just focus on food and stay out of his way. He came to the kitchen to grab a bear. Gave one look at me and smacked me across the face. I hit the counter and refused to cry it only boosted his ego. ​ Finishing dinner I could feel the fresh bruise forming on my chin where I hit the counter I took a plate to him first which in turned earned me another smack. I grabbed a plate for Haley and took it, “Do what I told you.” ​ Going to the living room I wasn’t sure if what I was going to say would make him let her go but I could only hope. I would lose myself for doing it but Haley’s safety was my priority not my own. Coming to living room I knew not to get in front of him but more to the side and sit on my knees near him. Most nights after the game he would try to rape me which ended in my fighting him which caused me to be hurt more but he would always stop. ​“David…”I hadn’t called him dad or father in years he lost that right the first time he hit Haley and I. ​“What do you want slut...” he words came out harshly but they rolled right off me. “I want to make a deal with you and I believe it is one that you would be interested in.” ​ He looked at me contemplating if I was trying to play him or not. He took a sip of his beer. “What kind of deal?” ​“I will stop fighting you. I will stay here and do anything for you to you. Just sign these papers and let her go. I will never leave never try to escape if you will agree to not go after her. Let her be free. Please.” I actually begged him I knew what I said caused tears to come to my eyes I prided myself that he was never able to harm me that way nor Haley. He sat there just looking at me. ​ Seconds went by then minutes until abruptly he stood and towered over me. I dared not to move. He leaned down grabbed me by the hair and my shirt and ripped it of me, he did the same with my pants until only my panties were the only thing on me. I couldn’t keep the tears from falling and it made him smile, my tears and the fact that I didn’t fight. ​ “Lets see how well you can keep up your side before I ever sign those papers. Where are the papers if you do well tonight I will sign them?” ​“The counter next to the door yellow envelope just sign where it’s marked. “He still had a hold of my hair and he dragged me to his room. I knew what was coming and it took everything in me not to fight so all I could do was cry. This monster would hurt me more than anything and all I could do was pray that he would let Haley go. ​ Throwing me on the bed he crawled over me. I could smell his beer breath and could feel everything through his clothing in-between my legs. Feeling that he was already ready made me cry and him to laugh. He was enjoying himself. He grabbed my breasts squeezing and pinching till my nibbles were hard though not from pleasure. I knew that they would have bruises on them in the morning I had always bruised easy. I was not allowed to close my eyes I was ordered to watch him. ​ Somehow during his time of hurting my breasts his clothes had disappeared. It was not the first time I had see him naked though it still disgusted me I forced my arms to just lay there and not fight him. I had to keep reminding myself I was doing this for my sister. ​ He spreaded my legs and rammed inside taking my virginity, it was beyond painful I screamed out in pain which only made him laugh. He pulled his p***s out and rammed in again. Repeating himself over and over again. “You are tight, you learn to enjoy this.” ​ I could barely hear him I could only hear my crying and occasional scream of pain I earned a slap for not answering but soon he only cared about raping my hole. Though soon he cam inside me not caring that I could become pregnant though I cared I did not say a thing he rolled me over stating that he was not done with me. I could feel his member on my ass. He was still hard as he rammed himself into my asshole. Didn’t even bother stretching it so he would fit I felt him tear me. ……. He spent most of the night raping me eventual I paced out from the pain. I woke up for a brief moment and he was gone I could no longer fight to keep my eyelids open and passed back out. Waking up when the sun was rising I was in pain everywhere and sore as well the papers for Haley were beside me signed with a note which stated that I had until the end of the day to get Haley out of the home and to be back in the bed freshly washed so he could rape me all over again. The note stated that every night I was to be there or deal was off. That monster planned to rape me every night. I cried after reading that I had 8 hours to take my sister to her new home thanks to mark I had an apartment for her. ​ Taking a shower I could barely stand though the hot water was helping but I noticed the blood that the water was washing away and more tears showed up. Putting on lose clothes I walked over to the room that Haley and I had been sharing. “Haley wake up honey.”The door emmedialty opened I noticed that she had been crying, she had heard everything that he had done to me. There were dark circles under her red puffy eyes. “Hey no more tears, I don’t want you worrying about me okay I can handle myself, Grab what you want to take honey you’re getting out of here.” ​“was what happened last night part of the deal you made?” grabbing very few things that she had though she grabbed moms blanket and the stuffed bear that I had gotten her when she was thirteen one of the last things I had gotten when he use to take us out and about. ​“Haley, sweetheart I don’t want you worrying I did what needed to be done so you could be safe it’s the only reason why I’m still alive. I need you to be safe.” Bringing her outside I stood in the door way giving us both a few moments to allow our eyes to adjust to the sunlight. ​ David had left the truck thankfully so I was able to drive Haley to her new home. Mark was standing outside the apartment building he handed me the keys and all info I needed to give to Haley. She waited in the truck till mark left she didn’t trust mean anymore due to David. ​ “Come on honey lets get you upstairs.” He room was on the third floor and had several windows, a large kitchen with a decent living room and a large bedroom and bathroom there was a door to her room with a lock on it which was my request I believed that she would still want it and I was right she saw the lock and started too cry thank you to me. Her apartment was fully furnished with internet and the kitchen was stocked with food. ​ “Okay love bug. This is your home there is a security panel at the front door, lock on your bedroom door. This packet has everything you need let mark know when you are ready to have a job there is also an online psych that you will be meeting weekly to deal with what David did to us. I will write to you when I can I will not be able to come back honey. I want you to finish school okay I want you to live for us ok?” I told her while holding her in my arms on her new bed. ​ She was crying asking me why I couldn’t stay. “I have to go back sweety. I have to stay away part of the deal was that I not leave and he will stay away from you he will not try to come after you. You are free sweety. Be free.” I kiss her forehead and hold her a little while longer before I left. ​My hell was just beginning. Getting back to the house I fully cleaned the house again getting rid of my ripped cloths and cleaned his bedroom according to the instructions that I have from him I am to move into his room keep it clean and shower daily have food ready and have myself ready for him in our bed. Our bed just made me want to through up. ​ I reheated meatloaf and made some mash potatoes to go with it and placed it on the counter with an ice cold beer he would be home soon I took a few bits and put them up and headed to the shower. Since I had already showered once I sat under the hot water as it beat the tension out of my back as I cried, I didn’t want to do this but I had to in order to keep my sister safe that’s all that mattered keeping her safe. ​ Turning the water off I could hear the game on the television so it would not be much longer until he decided that it was time for his hell over me to begin. Drying my body I tied to work out the notes in my legs and side with no avail there was no getting them out. I didn’t put clothes on I didn’t want him to tear what little clothes I had left. Crawled into bed and waited. At some point I had fallen asleep and I was woken up abruptly by his d**k inside me. There was no end to it. He used me to make himself c*m marked me with his fingers and his teeth. That night he also took it farther by forcing me to take him in my mouth. He gave me an hour break which I slept before waking me again to do it all over before he himself passed out. When would it end?