His Lusting Desire

"You worked in a bar! So I know that you can do that thing, Xanayah! I know that you can have s*x with that man! EVEN IF WE ARE STILL IN A RELATIONSHIP!" I was too stunned to speak and react. I don't know what I should do in this kind of situation. My whole body is stiff and I feel mixed emotions at this time. I'm very angry because of what happened to me that he doesn't know about... It's even more angry that he's accusing me of something I didn't do and can never do. I am also hurt now that he thinks so low of me and also of what he is saying to me now. There are many questions in my mind. I stopped myself from crying and didn't want to show him that I was weak. I don't want to show him that I am now affected by his words. "Is that how you really think of me? Just because I was able to work at the bar, am I now a dirty woman? Is it because you found out that I had a job there, even though you didn't meet me there?" I asked him. "Yes! Yes, that's how I think of you! I met you and I thought you were a sensible girl! But I saw you at the bar! I know I did something wrong because I accepted you even after I found out that you work at a bar. But, pucha! You told me you only work there to supplement your income and you're just a waitress--" "I was just a waitress there! What I have said to you was true, Matteo! Why do you doubt now?! You don't even know the truth about that incident!" I immediately cut off what he was saying earlier. I immediately spoke because I couldn't feel his words anymore. My tears will give away in just a little while. "Do you f**king expect me to believe in you, huh?! How do I know if it's true that you're just a waitress at a bar?! Do you remember how you seduced me before?! I don't even know if I should still believe you or not. After watching that video, Xanayah..." I saw that he was in tears when he finished telling me those words. I frowned in surprise. I don't know what video he is referring to. "W-What video?" "A video of you... having séx with another man." "What? That's not possible, Matteo! I can't do that to another man. I love you and I show it and make you feel it. But why do you think of me like that? Why do you think I can cheat to you? I'm not a dirty girl! I can't have s*x with different men, like you think!" Nine shook his head "Enough already, Xanayah. Evidence says it all. You've already hurt me. I gave up everything for you, Xanayah. But you just wasted it all. I want to save our relationship... But until now that I have confronted you, you still do not admit your sin." The tears that I had been holding back finally fell. I clenched my fist. "Why should I confess to a sin that I didn't really commit? But that's how you really think of me? Does that mean you don't trust me, just because you found out that I work in a bar? You knew about my family problem and that was the sole reason why I worked at the bar! But that doesn't mean that I'm a dirty woman immediately! But what's the point of saying all of this to you? When you won't even believe it. What' the use of explaining everything to you, when you already have a conclusion in your mind?" He looked at me coldly. I try not to sob in front of him. I wiped the tears from my eyes. I still need to keep strong in front of him. Even though I really wanted to give up. "I don't care anymore. I've seen what I should have seen and the truth has been answered in my mind. It's up to you if you still won't admit the fraud you did to me. I loved you.. . but I'm not going to make a fool of you." "Okay, leave me! It's not my loss anyway! After a while you will know the truth. When that day comes, don't come back to me to apologize." I turned my back on him. I didn't even plan to tell him the truth about what happened to me. For where else? If he no longer intends to believe me and he no longer cares about the truth because he has already believed what he had previously heard about me. It hurts me. He was the first man I ever loved like this. But I also have to let him go. He was the one who let me go first... I want to prove to him that he is wrong and that I am not really a dirty woman. But, no... That's not what I'm going to do. I will show him what he did to me. *** TWO YEARS LATER... "Can you be my girlfriend again, Xanayah? I badly... want you to be back in my life again... permanently." I smiled when he said that. Now you want me back, huh? "Oh? So you want to take our little game seriously now, huh?" I answered him. I am now resting on his legs. Hardened his pet. He was holding my waist and I could feel his grip. We still have clothes on. His dragon is bulging. I pressed my pearl so that his dragon could feel it more. Little by little I grind on top of him. "Xanayah... please be mine again... I don't want any other men to be with you. I love you, Xanayah..." I grabbed his necktie and pulled it slightly. I looked directly into his eyes then smiled at him very sweetly. “Love? No. It’s just LUST. My affection for you is full of LUST and DESIRES only. I don’t want you back, Matteo. I just want your body and the whole you. If you can't accept that, then don't play my game anymore."  YOU MADE ME LIKE THIS, MATTEO. DEAL WITH THAT.