The School Misfit

I never imagined I'd ever tell my story but I need a friend so I'm making a pen and paper my best friend. Am I mental?? Anyways, I guess I'll start by telling you about me. Have you ever felt like you're practically invisible to everyone? Welcome to my world. My name is Ruby and I'm a 14 year old in the 11th grade. How come I'm barely 15 and almost in senior year? Well, I also happen to be the school nerd. I started school early and skipped three classes. Education in my country is significantly fast too so I think that works too as an explanation. I'm the kid among adults in the entire school and teachers' pet. I've been the best in class since Kindergarten and that has earned me both respect and contempt. But mostly contempt. Being that I'm in a class with people older than I am by at least 2 years, I'm also class misfit. I can't do most of the things they do; I think it's safe to say I'm class baby. I've also been class president since I've known what a class president is so I guess it's a little weird I'm invisible to everyone. Okay, the thing is I'm not exactly INVISIBLE but I'm not accepted socially. I've been made a loner, I sit on my own during lunch and have no crew to hang out with or spend free period with. I've been rejected by every single category of people in school. I don't fit in with the jocks because I can't do sports. Not that I'm terrible at sports or something but every once in a while when I stress my knees, the joint shifts and then I need help putting it back and trust me it hurts A LOT. So I got my mum to talk to the school and I've been exempted from most sports. PITY. I think you all understand why I don't fit in with the cheerleaders either. I also don't fit in with the popular crew. I don't have parents that have influence, neither do I know how to be a b***h. I also lack the crazy good looks that can make boys drool when I walk by and I lack the body too because here where I live, the boys like a little more 'Junk in the trunk' so I obviously have no appeal whatsoever. I was even rejected by nerds. They said something about me being too 'knowing' and also too popular considering I've always been President so, I apparently don't fit in with them. The only place I did fit in, is the school choir. Mainly because I have the voice that can bring peace to troubled hearts-or so our music instructor says and who am I to argue; I barely exist- but that doesn't make the other members of the choir hang out with me after rehearsals and music period. I don't blame them, they have their reputations to protect. Aside the school choir, the only other people that acknowledge my existence in school are some of the students in middle school who think-and i quote-'I'm an embodiment of Einstein in the female body'. Now that's not true I haven't mastered the art of solving sudoku in 30 seconds or quote the entire encyclopedia so I'm still learning. Pitiful story, right? But it's my story. And here's the worst part about being invisible, GODIVA. That is the name of the boy that has had the power to make my breath hitch by just looking at me ever since 9th grade. And the worst of the worst, he's a Jock that also belongs with the popular crew. He plays every sport that our school offers and also has superhuman good looks. Beautiful dark oily skin that literally glows when he's out in the sun and sweating, muscles that flex by any slight movement of his arms and they look like they're going to rip his letterman jacket at every seam, big wide hands with so much calluses from all the sports he plays and the few fights he gets in, ebony black curly hair that is cut low, big brown eyes that plunges into my soul at every look he gives me(which is weird because I doubt he ever notices me, he just glances at me at times when I'm in the way of something else he wants to see) making me forget how to breathe.I'm dead serious about that.I think you understand how he's even in the popular crew; but shocker, thats not even why he's in the popular crew. He and his twin sister Ferica(Yes he has a twin And she looks nothing like him; but she is pretty in her own way. Very, very, very, very pretty) have parents that have been super tight friends with the principal since forever so they actually have a say in school matters; the looks are just an added advantage. Heck, I'm sure if I was asked to write his autobiography, I could;I know he's in a class lower than mine only because of my super 'geekiness' I know his birthday, address, favorites of most things, his class schedule, name of his perfume; I even know he stayed in his mother's womb 17 minutes after his sister had been born doing God knows what(Talk about unrequited love) while I'm not even sure he knows what I look like aside my name and voice because he's also in the school choir and plays every instrument(Talk about an all-rounder). Point blank, I'm obsessed. And today I knew what it feels like to have a heart attack. *******************************