The Stars Within

I have always been the town outcast. I never could fit in, not like I ever really wanted to. To be honest, I wish I had at least one friend that I could truly talk to, but being alone had its ups and downs. Mostly downs. I guess you could say I’ve just given up on people. They never really did understand me and they’ve always shunned me. Maybe it’s because I’m a goth or because they somehow know I am a witch born from an ancient Wicca bloodline. No matter the reason, I keep to myself.  Work, reading, drawing and music. My job takes most of my time so going out is hardly a thing for me. Working as an ER nurse will do that. Good thing is I absolutely LOVE my job! The coworkers...eh. Some are okay, others I wish would disappear. Either way, I’d never leave my job. My only regret is not leaving this town while I had the chance.  After graduating nursing school I became an ER nurse here at our local hospital. I quickly moved up, though, and became head nurse of the Emergency Department within 2 years. Although, a lot of that is because of what I can see and hear. I was born with a unique “gift”, as my mother called it. I can see, hear, touch and talk to the spirits around me. Yeah, I know, sounds insane. But the reality, as insane as it sounds, is just that. An insane reality.  Now don’t get mine all mixed up with those crazy people that sell fake tricks and intuitions to make money. I was born with these “gifts”. Most of the time I wish I never had them. Yeah sure they help with my patients but, when I want to be normal around normal people outside of work… They’re distracting as hell! If there was an on/ off switch then maybe… just maybe.  I always envied everyone around me. They get to live a life of their choosing with nothing to hold them back. Nothing like dead people and spirits constantly talking to you. I guess you could say that’s why I’m okay with being alone all the time. I see no reason in trying to make yourself like everyone around you. Needless to say, I’m a hermit when I’m not at work.