CHAPTER 1
GABRIELLA:
The smell of burnt coffee and fried eggs clings to the air at Ruby’s Diner, where the same tired faces fill the same corner booths every morning. My shift starts at eight, but I’ve been here since seven-thirty, Denise says “early” shows commitment. Commitment doesn’t pay extra, though.I paste on a smile as I drop off another pot of coffee at Table Four. “Refill?” I ask, my voice lighter than I feel.“Thanks, sweetheart,” the man says, his eyes lingering a second too long. His wedding ring glints under the fluorescent light.I’ve learned not to flinch anymore, not when someone brushes against my arm, not when they call me “baby,” not when they leave a dollar tip and think it buys them kindness.
By noon, my feet are sore and my face hurts from smiling. Denise slides past me, balancing a tray of pancakes. “You look tired, Gabby,” she mutters, not unkindly.
I tell her I’m fine. I always do.When the lunch crowd thins out, I sneak a glance at the clock. Four more hours until my second shift starts, the one that actually keeps the lights on.
By the time I make it home, the sun’s already bleeding into the horizon. Brad’s still passed out on the couch, an empty beer bottle hanging from his hand. His snores fill the apartment like static. I step over his boots and drop my bag quietly by the door.
It wasn’t always this bad. When we first met, Brad was rough around the edges, sure, but he had charm , the kind that feels safe until it isn’t. Then, five months ago, he started gambling. Said it was just to “make things easier,” but the only thing that got easier was how fast the money disappeared.
Now, the rent’s late, the cupboards are empty, and the bruises on my ribs take longer to fade. I cover them with makeup and long sleeves, same as I used to cover the ones my father left behind. Guess some lessons stick,sometimes I wonder how I ended up here , sharing a space with a man I barely know, a man who doesn’t ask questions as long as the bills are paid. Maybe that’s why I stay. Maybe that’s why we both do.I grab a towel and head for the bathroom, washing off the smell of the diner, the grease, the stares. When I look in the mirror, I almost don’t recognize myself,lipstick faded, eyes hollow, but still standing. Always standing.
Getting ready for Inferno feels like stepping into someone else’s skin. The sequins, the heels, the music, it’s a different world, one I both hate and need. I started there the day I turned eighteen.
Twenty-one now. Funny how three years can feel like a lifetime. Four, if I count the day I ran away ,my seventeenth birthday. My first act of freedom, or maybe just another kind of escape.
Inferno’s red lights never forgive. They catch on sweat and sadness alike, painting everything in shades of temptation. But on stage, for a few minutes, I can pretend I’m free.
The money from tonight won’t even cover the rent, but at least it’ll keep Brad quiet for a few days.
Sometimes, I think about my mother, the way she’d hold my hand after one of his outbursts and whisper, “It’s not his fault, Gabby… things have been tough for him lately.”
He wasn’t always like that. I still remember when laughter lived in our house, when he’d come home early with gifts and she’d dance around the kitchen barefoot.
But the year I turned eight, everything changed. The money disappeared, the business failed, and so did his patience.
The man who once carried me on his shoulders started throwing plates instead. And my mother… she never fought back. She just learned to flinch quietly, and I learned that love means staying, even when it hurts.
Getting back from my night shift at Inferno, I collapse onto the same old couch Brad’s been snoring on since I left. The apartment smells like smoke and stale beer. I stare at the ceiling, too tired to cry, too awake to sleep.
For a moment, the silence feels almost peaceful.
As my eyes drift shut, one thought whispers through the dark:
I just want to find the light again.