Binded Strings

Today was the first time in six years I was stepping foot again on Sunningdale soil.I have mixed emotions about the whole thing because first of all I had to arrange my parents memorial service which made me sad a lot and secondly l had to confront my past that is my very memorable ex boyfriend Ethan to say I was not ready for that was to say the least. Above all I am very happy because I get to see my brother's family.On that note they were standing ten metres away from me and l literally jumped with joy upon seeing them but my model traits stopped me from doing such.After several hugs and kisses to from my family we eventually set off on the journey to my apartment. l still had my apartment from college because my dad had a chain of apartments hence both Lucas and I got permanent apartments.You might be wondering why l did not go with Lucas and Ashely but my reason is that I was not yet able to get inside our house and not think of mom and dad offwhich they lived in that house hence l decided to just stay away from there.As we got into my rented Jeep for the next months l could not help but grin because there is no better feeling than being with your loved ones .For the first part of the journey we sang to the music and eventually Ashely broke the silence by asking me about my schedule."Well it's not that packed except that l have a few photoshoots after the service thereafter which l will start designing winter clothes for next season.""So the time being you are free to babysit for me when l have to go to the clinic."I knew there was a hidden motive for asking about my schedule.I giggled before replying her."yeah sure I will squeeze that in" Ashely then nodded with a content smile.Lucas then stopped the car at my apartment and we all got down and started unpacking my luggage except for Ashley who was obviously to pregnant to carry staff.After unpacking my luggage Lucas went outside to give me and Ashley time and that's when my mood soured."Joe were you aware that Ethan Parker is now the CEO of their company?" Of course l knew because l stalk on him but l would never admit that out loud."I uh really good for him." I even had the audacity to fake shock I knew l had some acting in me. "Yeah and l feel like you should talk to him at some point to get closure."The fuck."Hell no! I let baygons pass a long time ago and l want nothing to do with him.Closure my foot what l saw that night does not need any explanation." Even l knew that was a lie. "Well food for thought we are heading out" And they left me alone with my thoughts