No Hope

"Cecile," a delicate voice said from a little distance.  "NO" I irately shouted.  "Cecile if you don't mind. you did not indeed look at it. you just strolled away" said Sophia. I took a profound breath. "Sophia no," I said. and I can feel her lose trust from the other side of the door. "The lord will be frantic," she said and I giggled out loud.  "he is continuously frantic," I said but it came more like a whisper. "do it for me" she gradually said, and blame begun building up in my stomach. "I am not going to wear a crinoline with a hoop," I said and I can sense her laughing.  "it's a decent crinoline Cecile," she said and I had the urge to open the entryway and slap her. "I despise wearing them and you know that," I said. clearly annoyed. "you are the princess of Britain Cecil. you've got to wear them. it's not a choice. that last time you dressed in a crinoline was three years ago, Cecile. " she said. and the memory of that day crossed my intellect. the reason why I never took a glance at crinoline ever again. until this day.   "I refuse," I said. she is the one who raised me and I don't know how she still cherishes me.   "you are a tenacious adolescent Cecile. exactly like Isabella" she said and hearing my mother's title made me relax." I am not an adolescent child Sophia. I am turning twenty one next week" I said and she screeched. "you are an adolescent to me, Cecile," she said and I did not say anything.  "open the door Cecile. the ball begins in a few and Richard will be frantic if he knows that you are not prepared," said Sophia. his title made outrage construct up interior me."Cecile. I know that you just see me as somebody close to you. but to him I am only a housekeeper, so he will either kill me or throw me in one of the cells" she said, and once more blame filled my internal parts.  I stood up and opened the entryway. and there was standing Sophia. she grinned brightly.  "hasten," I said and she called the servant of the others and they pushed me interior the room. after what appeared like until the end of time. I stood up, dressed in a tight beige floor-length caged crinoline. they pushed me down on the chair so they can do my hair. this will be a long day." I am bored" I said for the millionth time. my body ached for not moving much. "just a few minutes" said one of the servants as she braided my long dark hair. and after she was done. I have gotten a match of white flat pumps. one of the servants hurried in my way but I pushed her away. "I can wear them on my own," I said and she gradually gestured. I despised this. she is an old woman. so why would I let her put my pumps on whilst I can do it myself." Miss Atherton, lord Richard is waiting for you in the ballroom" one of the housekeepers said. I took one final breath before I began strolling down the lobby."Good evening your majesty" one of the guards said. I ignored him as I kept walking.I walked inside the ballroom and my eyes instantly landed on the food. and grabbed the bottom of my crinoline and ran to the food. "From where should I start?" I asked myself out loud as the smell of the food attacked my nostrils. turns out it's not a bad day after all. "Mmmmm" I moaned in pleasure as I took a bite from the Devilled kidneys. and that's when I saw my favorite dish on earth, Toad-in-the-hole. I quickly took a mouthful bite. I groaned in pleasure, this right here is the best thing I will ever taste. I slowly chewed on it. I did not want to eat quickly. no I wanted it slow and nice, so I can enjoy every second of it. "what to eat next?" I asked myself. and I caught the sight of Chicken tikka masala. but I shook my head and I moved to the next dish. I do not like it. "Bangers and mash" I yelled as I saw my second favorite dish. I stuffed a spoonful in my mouth. I rolled my eyes. we have the best chef on earth. after a few bites. I moved to the sweets. "Eton Mess or Spotted d**k?" I asked myself. I giggled as I ate from both. what? I am a woman who loves food what is wrong with that ?. "I like the Eton mess more, do you agree?" his voice whispered in my ear. I closed my eyes and chewed slowly. I was enjoying my food, why can't he just leave me the hell alone?. "go away," I said as I turned around, ready to walk away. but he was fast to grab the hold of my wrist. I did not even fight him or try to push him away. because I knew that if I said something. I will be punished. and believe me, his punishments are not nice. not at all. "How dare you talk to your lord like this?" he jokingly said. my eyes never left the floor. I did not want to look at him. I can not. I do not have the strength to. "look at me Cecile," he said but my eyes were glued to the floor. suddenly, his large hands circled beneath my chin. and he roughly raised my chin. making my teary blue eyes look directly into his bloody grey ones. "When I say look at me, you look at me, Cecile. unless you want to punish" he slowly gritted through his teeth. I quickly shook my head. his dirty lips curled into a smirk.  "please Richard" I pleaded and his bloody eyes looked at me straight in the eyes. he loved it when I begged. "Good girl," he said. that's when his hand let go of my chin and I starting rubbing my chin. wishing that this never happened.  "and it's King Richard. show some respect to your uncle" he said as he walked away. yes, a filthy and sick uncle.  I took a glance at the food in front of me. I no longer had the appetite, thanks to him. I have been suffering for three years now. and as far as I know, I will keep suffering until I die. ___ the ballroom was full by now, women and men eating, some dancing, some talking. and the kids playing around. they looked happy. I had the urge to tell the kids to enjoy every second of this. because each year they grow older, they will see the real picture of this filthy world. "Princess Cecile?" a harsh voice that I do not recognize said. I turned around and I was face to face with a short guy. super short. but he was nice looking. in his forties, I believe. "Yes," I said in a bored tone. he sat on his knee and grabbed my hand and planted a soft kiss. I smiled in his direction. what a gentleman. "Madam, it is a pleasure-" he started but I cut him off. "it's your majesty. not Madam," I said and he looks nervous as he stood up. "my bad. Your majesty, it's a pleasure to meet you. I am the prince of-" I again cut him off. "Nice to meet you," I said and then I started walking away. I walked to the food as I started eyeing the food. having a hard time deciding what to eat. "Miss Atherton?" a voice said from behind. I closed my eyes and I begged myself not to scream at whoever is behind me. but I failed. "can a hungry woman just eat peacefully?" I groaned as I turned around and I was taken back by the tiny figure in front of me. stood a very young girl in front of me. "Sorry," she said and I instantly felt bad. I do not want a kid crying because of me. "do not worry dear. how are you?" I said as I kneeled. she smiled brightly. "so happy, because I am talking with princess Cecile herself" she happily said and I laughed. "What is your name?" I said. I do not like kids but I like this one. "Mama named me after you. Cecile" she said and I gave her a warm smile. "I would love to be you one day. I want to be a princess like you" she said and I laughed. she is cute. "How old are you?" I asked. she raised five fingers. she is a smart girl, too smart to be only five. "When you turn eighteen. you will be the new princess Cecile" I said and she opened her eyes in happiness. she hugged me and I awkwardly hugged her back. Then, she broke the hug and she waved at me then she ran away. I stood up and the smile never left my face. well, until he had to ruin everything. "I thought you hate kids," his voice said. and there he was, standing in front of me. his crown on his head. and that filthy smile on his face. The crown that does not belong to him. the crown that belonged to my dad.  "is it any of your concern?" I angrily said. his smile disappeared. I innocently smiled at him. a part of me loved making him mad, and the other part is hiding in fear. "did you not see us walking to our thrones?" he said and I shook my head. he growled and walked away, I followed him like a kid following his angry mom. we walked to our thrones. of course Richard's throne is in the middle, on his right was his son's throne and on the left my throne. I sat down on my throne as people gathered around us. one of the maids placed my crown over my head. "good evening Cecile" James' voice appeared. I looked to my right and he was sitting on his throne. I completely ignored him. I hate him as much as I hate his father.  "what do you want James?" I said and his evil laughed made me uncomfortable. "a little bit rude, don't you think?" he said and I completely avoided him.  "I want to punish you right now, and I will if you do not answer me," he said. his father who sat between us just smiled devilishly.  "like father like son," I said in a low voice. before he or Richard had the chance to say anything, a voice yelled through the crowd of people. "DO NOT TOUCH ME YOU BLOODY BASTARD" the same voice yelled again. I stood up but Richard was quick to grab the hold of my arm. his eyes were deadly. "where do you think you are going Cecile?" he said and I snatched my arm. making his eyes became darker. "helping whoever is in need," I said. James was just staring at us. "sit down or else," he said and I laughed. as I threw my crown on him.  "or what Richard? punish me? I am punished in both ways" I said and without giving him a chance to say anything. I walked to the source of the yelling.  "MOVE AWAY" I yelled as the crowd of people quickly moved away, giving me the space to walk and see what is going on. "do not touch me" a girl yelled. and in front of her stood a tall guy. he was whispering something in her ear and she was trying to push him away. suddenly, he slapped her. everyone gasped as the lady fell on the floor and she cried out loud. "where are your manners young man?" I politely said as I took a few steps in his direction. he laughed in my direction. "Did I say something funny?" I said and everyone we're quiet. then his eyes opened wide in realization. "ANSWER ME, DID I SAY SOMETHING FUNNY?" I yelled out loud. everyone gasped. "I am sorry your majesty, but there is nothing to worry about, she is nothing important," he said and I took more steps in his direction. "How so?" I asked. my voice was low yet threatening. "she is nothing but a useless wife," he said and that made me laugh. "you are wrong. she is a good wife, but you are the one who is nothing but a pathetic husband," I said and again, everyone gasped. "why is she useless?" I asked. I hate men who treat women badly. "she is embarrassing me, she did not stop eating as soon as we arrived. she spilled water on herself. she tripped in front of everyone" he said. as the woman on the floor looked at him with teary eyes. "it's not her who is embarrassing, it's you. I do not remember seeing anyone trip, I do not remember seeing anything spill something on themselves and the food here is enough to feed everyone in Britain. so that makes you the embarrassing one here. making everyone look at you as you slap your wife" I said. he lowered his head in embarrassment. "help her up" I screamed at the guards, two of them quickly rushed and helped the girl to stand up and they took her away. "leave," I said and his face turned red. yet, he did not move. "do not let me repeat myself twice," I said and he looked around. that is when I lost it. "I SAID LEAVE, YOU DIRTY SICK BASTARD" I yelled. three guards grabbed him and walked away with him as he tried to fight them but failed. I looked around and everyone just stared at me. "There is nothing to look at" I angrily said. everyone turned around and went back to whatever they are doing. I avoided eye contact with James and Richard. I slowly and elegantly walked outside the ballroom.  "your majesty, the Lord wants you," one of the maids said. I did not answer her, I just kept walking as if she did not exist. "your majesty," said the maid. can she just understand that I do not want to see him? "Miss Atherton, the Lord is mad," said another maid.  "I do not have to repeat that twice, but he is always mad," I said, as I made my way to the gate. "Are you leaving?" another maid asked. how many are they?. "No, I just want to see how the gate looks like from the outside," I said. I opened the gate and the warm breeze of spring sent chills to my body. "Your majesty, where do you think you are going?" one of the guards said as he blocked my path with his tall figure. and my Petite figure did not help. "Move," I said. everyone around gasped. yes, gasped. because I am not allowed to leave. Welcome to my life. "Miss Atherton. I can not" said the guard. another two guards came. blocking every path. "I hate repeating myself twice. Move" I said. the three guards took a glance at each other. yet, they did not move a single inch. "it's the king's orders, you are not allowed to leave or step outside the castle," said one of the guards. "I know, and today I will be breaking his orders, do I look scared? No, now move" I said and I tried to push them away but they stood firm and stiff. "where do you think you are going?" said that one voice from behind me. the voice that I hate. "I want to go out and check on the citizens since the king is making them live in poverty and famine," I said. it is true. since Richard became the king. everything changed. Britain started falling apart and he is acting like he does not know.  "since when do you care about some pheasants?" Richard said and that made me mad. "These who you are calling pheasants, are your people. who I hope will assassin you one day for being an arse" I said. I can feel his harsh breath on the back of my neck. "No one is leaving this castle. especially not you" he whispered.  "I am leaving. and I will come back" I said. "what did you just say?" asked an angry Richard. "I will come back Richard," I said. as I turned around to face him, behind him stood a bunch of guards and maids. "NO ONE IS LEAVING THIS CASTLE" he yelled in my face. I closed my eyes and I took a deep breath. "Do not raise your voice in my face" I calmly said. he laughed.  "It's Lord Richard" he whispered in my face.  "I will come back soon, Lord Richard," I said. and again, he laughed. "Close the gates," he said. and I felt my face turn red in anger. "DO NOT CLOSE THE GATES" I screamed. the guards we're too confused. "I SAID CLOSE THE GATES" Richard yelled. that is when I did something unexpected. I raised my hand and slapped him across the face. and at that moment, I felt the walls close around me. "Nobody is closing the gates," I said in his face. he was still too shocked to comprehend what is going on. "grab her," Richard said, wait for what? that is when I felt two hands grab both of my arms. "LET GO OF ME" I screamed. Richard just smiled in my direction. I had the urge to spit in his face. "LORD" one of the guards yelled. as he came running from outside. "WE ARE BEING ATTACKED" the guards yelled, Richard's face turned red in anger. "PUT HER IN THE CELL, AND GET READY" Richard yelled. the maids rushed to their rooms as the guards surrounded the castle. "I CAN HELP, LET ME GO" I screamed. then Richard came in front of me. and slapped me across the face. he slapped me so hard where I fell on the floor. "You will rot in that cell, Cecile," Richard said. I felt the taste of iron in my mouth.  "I will kill you, and I will kill your son and I will have my kingdom back" I spit. he just laughed and started walking away. the guard helped me to stand up. "Take her away" Richard ordered. I screamed and tried to fight the guard but I failed. as he made his way to the underground cells, with me trying to break free. "Please" I begged. as he walked me down the stairs. but his grip only got harder. I winced in pain. "YOU ARE HURTING ME" I screamed but that only made him grab me harder and harder. "I AM BEGGING YOU, PLEASE" I screamed again but there was no use. as he opened the cell and threw me inside like a rag doll. "I am the bloody princess, you can not do this" I screamed and the guard laughed. "I do not take your orders, I take the king's orders," he said.  "YOU ALL BETRAYED HENRY, HE WAS A TRUE KING, HE MADE YOU ALL LIVE THE BEST. AND YET YOU ALL BETRAYED HIM" I screamed furiously. he avoided me.  "you will regret this" I growled as he locked the cell. he just smiled and walked away. leaving me in the darkness with the coldness of the floors.