No Hope

XIV - Cain

As I rubbed my sleepy eyes, I walked to the main deck and I wasn't surprised at the fact that the sun was near vanishing. after what happened between me and Elias, I made my way to my room, and as soon as my head hit the wooden bed, I went flying to my own world of dreams. or may I call it, the world of hopes and wishes, a place that we stay in for a few minutes before we go back to our painful reality? well, it's not a few minutes, but time in dreams passes by quickly, is it maybe because our inner demons don't want us to be happy. or maybe we stay there for a short while because we don't want ourselves to start believing the fact that there is a bright side. because we all deep down know that there will never be a happy ending.

"Buccaneer, are you lost or something?" one of the pirates said in my face, I took a few steps backward. then I realized the fact that I was standing in the middle of the main deck and I was staring into the ocean, which is golden because of the sun that is slowly hiding from the world.

"no, I am just searching for Stephen" I answered him. as I managed to remember that Buccaneer means Pirate. I like being called  Buccaneer.

"They all went to make the bargain," he said and a devilish idea came to my mind. I just need to make this pirate tell me all of the information's that I need.

"where are they going to make the bargain?" I innocently asked him. he looked around to make sure that no one is overhearing our conversation.

"why would I tell you?" he asked. I looked at him with my deadly gaze. I can feel him tense up.

"why wouldn't you? I am just asking out of curiosity" I said. he started walking around me in circles. 

"may I ask you what are you doing?" I uncomfortably asked him as he kept walking in circles around me. with a bottle of rum in his hand. no wonder why he smelled so bad. 

"What is your plan Wench?" he said and I somehow remembered what Wench means.

"did you just call me a peasant?" I asked and he laughed out loud causing some of the pirates to look at us.

"Did I say something funny?" I screamed. he stopped moving around me and he stood in front of me, his face close to mine.

"no one trusts you here, wench," he said. I looked around me and some of the pirates were still looking at us. it's okay Cecile, it's okay Cecile. calm down Cecile, you can't show them your other side.

"Listen to me you son of a biscuit eater" I whispered in his face, then I wrapped my hand around his tall beard and yanked him in my direction, making his face only a few inches away from mine. he dropped the bottle of rum causing it to shatter into pieces.

"I don't care if you trust me or not, you don't want me to tell the captain who is stealing the bottles of rum, don't you?" I whispered and he opened his eyes wide. I kept talking before he opens his mouth because I don't want to pass out from his stinky breath.

"I saw you stealing the bottles of rum in the basement, now be a good buccaneer and tell me where did they go," I said with a devilish smile on my face. he tried to look at the rest of the pirates for help but he couldn't look around from my tight grip.

"if I count to three, and you don't tell me where the bloody hell is they, you will regret it," I said and he opened his eyes wide in fear of me telling the captain that he steals rum.

"one" I whispered. I feel bad at the fact that I am enjoying this.

"Two" I whispered. he tightly closed his eyes as if he's thinking about what will happen to him if he told me.

"in a pub in the center of the town, I don't know the name of the pub but it's easy to find," he said and I felt my lips curl into a devilish and dirty smirk.

"and how do I get to the center of town?" I innocently asked, ignoring the fact that every pirate is now looking at us.

"I can't tell you more information," he said and I yanked his beard roughly.

"JUST KEEP WALKING IN A STRAIGHT LINE," he said. I pushed him down on the ground and I instantly left the ship before one of the pirates decides to kill me because they all hate me.

I wonder why everyone hates me. I know that some of them know that I am hiding something, but they can't say anything because Elias won't be happy about it, and some of them hate me because I don't show any respect towards their beloved captain. I need to start showing Elias some respect because if I am pretending to be a maid I need to show him that my true self is hiding behind the bars of my past. what if he knows? what if he-

"SON OF BISCUIT EATER" I screamed as I fell on my face. I groaned loudly in pain. I need to stop thinking in public because I just fell in front of many people. I am now too embarrassed to stand up and look around me because I know that everyone is standing around me.

"Madam, are you okay?" a person asked, I looked in the corner of my eye and I found a young man looking worried in my direction and he was offering me his hand. I gladly took it, he roughly yet politely helped me to stand up. I started wiping the dirt off myself, I kept my eyes focused on the ground, avoiding everyone's gaze.

"she is fine ladies and gentleman, you can go back to what you are doing" the same guy who helped said to everyone surrounding us, a few moments later I managed to get my eyes off the floor and look around. I felt less embarrassed because no one was now looking at me.

"uh, thank you I guess," I told the young gentleman who helped me to stand up. I didn't look at him, I don't know why but something was screaming at me telling me not to look at him.

"This can't be" he whispered, I knew it, his face is familiar, his voice lives inside my memories. I instantly turned around and I walked away, but he was quick to grab my arm and turn me around to face him. as soon as he turned me around I closed my eyes shut, please don't be him. 

"Cecile" he whispered in my face. don't open your eyes, Cecile. don't you dare open them, this can't be him, he left us, he left me when I needed him more than anyone. even if it's him, I am not glad to look at the person who left me alone in the darkness.

"It's me, Cecile, it's Cain" as soon as he said his name, I felt the demons rise inside me, I felt the rage that I have been hiding for the past years explode. I have tried so much to keep my anger inside of me, but seeing him after these years, have the urge to kill him yet cry in his lap and ask him why did he leave me.

"Leave me alone" I whispered, then I slowly opened my eyes and I looked deep into these bright blue eyes. the same blue eyes as mine, the same dark hair as mine but the only difference is that his hair is short mine is long. he looked at me with regret, sadness, rage, and anger in those crystal blue eyes. but I was sure that my eyes are dark and filled with betrayal. 

"Cecile" he whispered again, I pushed him away and I turned around and I walked as fast as I could. I can feel him follow close behind me. I tried to walk faster but he is still catching up with me.

"I don't know what you are talking about," I said and now he was walking next to me. God blessed him with tall legs so lucky him I guess. I walked into an empty ally because my guts are telling me that some action and drama is about to happen.

"don't pretend like you don't know who I am Cece," he said. oh, now you want to see how I will treat you when I know who you are?. I turned around and I slapped him across the face, he stumbled a little but he managed to gain his balance. 

"I guess I deserve-" he started but I slapped him again, harder than the first one. he started breathing heavily as he rubbed his burning left cheek. 

"Does this hurt Cain? does it hurt?" I screamed, he looked at me with guilt in his eyes. you won't trick me with that one you bloody bastard.

"don't give me this look, Cain, DON'T YOU DARE GIVE ME THIS BLOODY LOOK IN YOUR EYES" I screamed on top of my lungs, the tears now know it's their time to escape my eyes. 

"let me explain Cece" he's going to make me lose it in public. It not like I haven't already lost it.

"YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO CALL ME CECE, EVERYONE ON THIS PLANET IS ALLOWED TO EXCEPT YOU, YOU BETRAYED ME, YOU LEFT ME ALONE WITH THAT WOLF THAT IS DISGUISED IN SHEEP CLOTHES. YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO PROTECT ME CAIN, YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO KEEP ME SAFE" I screamed in his face, my tears are running down like a waterfall. he started pinching the bridge of his nose with his index and thumb.

"can I explain?" he said and I laughed, I slightly pushed his shoulders with my small hands. and he smirked, he really has the audacity to smirk.

"what the bloody hell Cain?" I asked him, obviously angry. he started chuckling. he knows how to make me angry. I kept a serious face on, after a few moments he started laughing like a hyena. I couldn't help but giggle a little bit. he always finds a way to make me giggle or laugh, even though my tears are falling.

"you...….look...…so...….ugly," he said and I gasped loudly, and he always finds a way to insult me. typical Cain.

"that hurts Cain, I am so pretty and everyone knows that I am so pretty so you should stop thinking that I am ugly like you," I said and his laughter died down. making me burst out laughing. the expression on his face was so funny, no matter what happens, I could never stay mad at this bloody bastard.

"I am not ugly," he said. I raised a brow at him and he smirked. then he opened his arms, I crossed my arms and he huffed. I didn't move a single step.

"you don't really think that I will hug you right?" I said and he closed his arms. I could see the sadness form on his face again.

"making me giggle for less than a minute doesn't mean that I don't hate you, Cain," I said and after I finished talking I realized that it was a harsh thing to say. but the truth hurts I guess.

"Cece-" he started but I cut him off by raising a finger in his face. he knew what that meant.

"Cecile, I know that you are mad at me, but you should understand my side of the story," he said and I laughed sarcastically. 

"what side of the story Cain? there are no sides to this story, you left me alone in that hell. end of discussion" I said and I can notice that his face is turning dark red from anger.

"what if I tell you that he wanted to kill me Cecile? does make the story two-sided?" he said and I felt like my heart just dropped to my feet.

"you are lying, and I hate lying," I said and he punched the wall behind him. I never liked angry Cain.

"STOP BEING SO STUBBORN ABOUT IT CECILE. LET ME EXPLAIN TO YOU, LET ME TELL YOU WHY HE WANTED TO KILL ME AND WHY I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO TAKE YOU WITH ME" he screamed. he turned around to face me and his ocean blue eyes are now dark blue and filled with tears.

"let's go talk somewhere else," I said as he wiped his tears. he wrapped his arm around me and hugged me tight, I hugged him back because I am lying if I say that I didn't miss him.

"Cain, can I ask you a question?" I said as we broke our hug. now that Cain is back, I can enjoy my time annoying him.

"How does it feel like being the ugly twin?" I asked him and he pushed me away as we both started laughing.