No Hope

X - What If I Die

"FASTER" Edward screamed loudly at the pirates, they we're putting a lot of boxes of supplies on deck. as i just sat on the poop deck and i watched them. i wanted to help them but Stephen told me that i will bring trouble and that the captain is already mad at me. so i just sat there, watching them working extra today, because of me.

"Stephen, i can't watch them working this much because of me" i said as i stood up. Stephen placed his hands on my shoulder and pushed me down, forcing me to sit back down.

"it's fine kid, these are pirates, they will probably forget about this tomorrow. i promise you, that there is nothing wrong" Stephen said. i relaxed a little bit but a part of me was still being eaten by guilt.

"HURRY UP, WE HAVE A SHIP TO STEAL" Edward screamed at them, making them work faster.

"what did he just say?" i said and Stephen smiled. did he just say that they have a ship to steal?.

"we have a ship to steal" Stephen said. you don't say?

"we are pirates kid, what do you think we do for living? we steal ships and we sometime steal coastal towns" he said and from the look on his face, he is not joking.

"but, you didn't rob any coastal towns" i said. Stephen laughed out loud.

"yes we did kid, we act like we have supplies and we are ready to sell those supplies, we take money and we sometime steal supplies from them. and we give them expired supplies. and we are only stealing this ship because it belongs to the king" Stephen said and the world stopped moving around me.

"king Richard?" i asked. please not him, please not him.

"Yes" Stephen said. and i tried my best not to show him that i am scared.

"we can't Stephen" i said and he looked at me with a questioning look.

"why so, kid?" he asked and i had too many answers.

"they are much stronger than you think they are" i said and he just gave me the same questioning look.

"this is not the first ship we are stealing and not the first ship that belongs to the king" Stephen said and he still had that questioning look on his face.

"if they see me, or if they know that i am with you, they will kill me Stephen" i angrily said. and he was shocked from my angry tone. 

"no one is going to touch you Clay. you are protected by pirates, you are like their little sister and they will not let anyone harm you. and the captain will not let anyone come close to you " Stephen said and i gave him a weak smile.

"Clay, the captain wants you in the business room" one of the pirate who is named jack i guess said. 

"go kid, you don't want to be late on him" Stephen said. i stood up and i took a deep breath. Stephen patted my shoulder then he walked away, and i made my way to the glass door.

"which room?" i asked Jack. and he opened the glass door for me. .

"second room on the left" he said. i thanked him and he walked back to the main deck while i slowly walked to the room. and after a few more steps, i was standing in front of the door. i took another deep breath before i knocked two times. and i waited for the captain to say something.

"come in" he said. and i slowly opened the door, and i looked around me as i closed the door behind me. it was a big room, a meeting room a i guess, there was a desk and a long table with many chairs. and Elias was sitting behind the desk with a glass of whiskey in his hand. 

"take a seat" he said and i walked slowly to the chair that is placed in front of the desk and i sat down. he stood up and he grabbed another glass and poured the burning liquor in it, then he handed the glass to me, and i carefully took it. without thanking him. then he sat on the chair in front of me, not the chair behind the desk. and what was only between us is a small table.

"today, we are stealing a ship, that belongs to the king" Elias said, and i nodded at him in a meaning for him to keep talking. as i took a short sip from the glass.

"and i need information, that will help us take them down fast and easy" he said. my eyes we're locked with his eyes as i took another sip.

"be more specific" i said and his eyes turned darker. i am provoking him.

"don't provoke me" he said and i took another long sip.

"i am not provoking you, i just told you to be more specific" i said and he drank the entire whiskey in the glass in one long sip. then he slammed the glass on the table that was between us.

"being always mad is not good for you health" i said as i stood up and i grabbed the bottle of whiskey from his desk, and i poured it in my glass. then i placed it on the table and i grabbed his glass and i poured whiskey in it. he carefully watched each step i took. then i placed the bottle back on the desk and i sat down on the chair.

"repeat your question" i said. and his eyes showed how mad he is.

"Clay, we don't have much time. give me the bloody information" he screamed and i just smiled.

"what if they kill me? what if i die?" i slowly asked and he gave me the same questioning look Stephen gave me earlier.

"why would they kill you?" he asked and i took a long sip from the glass. then i slowly placed it on the table. and he impatiently waited for me to answer his question.

"they of course noticed that a maid ran away, and when they see me. they will kill me for stepping out of the castle without any permission" i said and slowly took a sip from his glass.

"as long as i am alive, they will not touch you" he said and i hid my smile.

"well, i have been touched before and you we're alive" i said and he angrily rubbed his face.

"what if they kill you? you will no longer be alive to protect me" i said and he knew that i was only trying to get under his skin and he was mad at the fact that he can't stop me.

"then Edward will protect you" he said. this is going to be a long conversation.

"what if they kill Edward?" i asked and he angrily stood up. he grabbed the bottle and he sat back down, he drank from the bottle. since he is too mad to keep pouring it into the glass.

"then Stephen will" he said and i managed my best not to laugh at his angry expression.

"and what if Stephen follows you and Edward?" i calmly said. i tried my best not to show him that i am just messing with his mind.

"then Oscar will protect you" he screamed. my calmed expression made him more angry.

"i want to say what if Oscar dies but i know that we will both be stuck in an endless loop" i said. i am pretty sure that he wants to kill me in this moment. 

"if you don't give me the information i need, then you will definitely be killed by them, so be a good girl and give me the information so i can kill them faster than you will imagine" he said. enough messing around Cecile, this is not the right time to provoke him. 

"there will only be twenty man on deck" i said. he placed his elbows on his knees and he leaned forward to hear me better.

"seven of them will be trained soldiers, but they are not normal soldiers, they are soldiers that should be protected in any costs. and six of them will be untrained or newly trained soldiers. and the rest five will be the guards of the ship itself. the trained soldiers will be wearing red while the ones who are still not trained will be wearing blue. and the ship guards will be wearing black. the ship guards are four soldiers and one captain" i said. and he just staring at me, as if he was only happy because of the information i am providing him with.

"continue" he said. and i hesitated, but i knew that if i didn't tell him the main information, he might be killed which means that i will be killed.

"when someone attacks them. the five guards, four of them will go to the canons, the captain and the six untrained men will fight the attackers, while the seven important soldiers will hide inside the rooms in the ship" i said. i took a deep breath before i continued.

"as i said, the seven soldiers will be hiding, and if one of the soldiers hits the bell two times, it means that not much men are still standing, and if the bell rings once, it means that all men down. and if the seven soldiers hear that bell, think about yourself as a dead man" i said and he gave me a questioning look.

"if you mind, you can tell me why" he said. i yawned before i said anything. i was too sleepy.

"when the bell rings one time, the soldiers will know that they have been defeated, so each one of them will write a letter and they will hide it in places that you will never find" i said and he impatiently waited for me to continue.

"those letters are written and hidden in places no one know about except specific soldiers, they are written for one reason, to give them clues about their attackers, such as a ship name, pirates ship or not, size of the ship. they will count the sound of your footsteps" as i finished talking. Elias was excited, as if he was ready to get his hands dirty.

"if you want a plan, my plan is that some of you attack them from the main deck, while some of you should sneak inside the ship and kill the seven soldier before they get a chance to write anything that will kill you and your crew. and after you finish, take their supplies and burn the ship down" as i finished speaking, Elias was looking at me with a shocked and confused look.

"may i ask why are you looking at me this way?" i asked and he still gave me the same confused look.

"your plan, it's new and smart. very outstanding moves" he said and a part of me was happy.

"i don't want to help you. i am only helping you because i want them all to die. and i am giving you a good plan because i want to make sure that they die" i said and he stood up. both angry and happy.

"you owe me one" i said as i stood up and i took a couple of step in his direction until i was in front of him.

"don't you, Captain?" i said. and i made sure to say the word Captain in a rough way.

"yes, i do owe you one" he said, he his eye we're locked with mine.

"when i tell you to go to your room, go to your and lock the door and don't make any sound. don't come out and don't open the door unless it's me or Edward or Oscar. do you understand me?" he said and i almost melted. his rough tone was everything that i need. No Cecile, you hate him.

"what if i wanted to check up on you?" i said, as i pressed my body on his. and from his glowing eyes, i know that he is enjoying this.

"don't test me Clay" he said. what if i did test your nerves, Elias?.

"i am not testing you, i am being serious" i said. and i can see his desires form up inside his eyes. i gave him a dirty smile before i turned around and i walked outside the room. leaving him there like a lost puppy. a part of me was happy that they will be dead, but the other part of me was sad because i just betrayed my own people.