If Only

Its My Choice

18 - It's my Choice

"What's up?" I asked Tracey once we were alone in her bedroom.

"There was something going on between you and her. I knew it ever since that day when you took her somewhere,"

I gulped. "Why didn't you say anything?"

"Josh, some people think I'm a blonde bimbo slut, but even I care. I've only had s*x with one person before, and that was my boyfriend! I knew there was nothing serious between you and Hannah, but I haven't stayed with you for three months just to get played,"

Tracey, the girl who barely showed any weakness was on the verge of tears. I enjoyed her company, I liked kissing her and hanging out with her but I never had any feelings.

"I actually care about you Josh, and I haven't cared this much about anyone before. And don't get me wrong, I don't love you but I care about you a lot more than I ever did!"

I didn't know what to do. I stood frozen.

"But it doesn't matter If you don't have any feelings for me. Just... urgh...you can't do this to the girl If you do care about her! She likes you Josh, and I think you do too,"

I grew confused. Did she want me or not.

"What do you want me to do?"

She sighed.

"If you do like her, then dump me now. 'Cause this is unfair to all of us,"

And suddenly there was no more hiding. Just me and my decision.