Love is a present tense

Facing the Reality

I went to the canteen to see the twins patiently waiting for me. I wiped my tears and tried to act normal. I don’t want them to know, at least not now. I went to the table they were sitting at.

“What did you guys order today?” I asked trying to sound cheerful.

 Taking the seat beside Julie I realized there was already a tray ready for me. “We already ordered for you. By the way, where did you go? And why did it took so long?” questioned Julie suspiciously.

 “I just went to the faculty house to request Mr. Woods for the notes of the last chapter which I missed because of the activities of our club. You know how Mr. Woods can be… so it took me some time to convince him.” I answered while taking a bite of the food in front of me and avoiding any eye contact with them.

 Milie eyed me suspiciously “Wait, your eyes…why are they so red? It seems like you cried. Krisy, tell us honestly. Did Mr. Woods scold you or rather should I say did you really go to Mr. Woods?”

“Miss Detective Milie… will you stop interrogating me like I’m a criminal? I really went to the faculty.” I tried convincing them.

I wanted to shout, I wanted to cry openly without holding back my tears, I wanted to ask him for an explanation, I wanted to know why he acted like he likes me, why he stopped every guy from approaching me, why he acted like he was jealous when Brian proposed to me, why was he so possessive of me, why he said that I was his but decided against it. I’m going crazy. I wanted my questions to be answered yet I am in no position to question him. He never once clearly said that he likes me. Maybe all of that was just my wishful thinking. I can only bear the pain for my misunderstandings silently.

After the last class ended, I was waiting by the school gate for Julie since she was busy talking to her boyfriend, Danny. As I turned to my right, I saw Ray coming towards me. I know he wants to talk and try to reason out things with me but I’m really in no mood for that. So I just went up to Julie and bid her goodbye not giving him any chance. “Julie, I will go home first. My father just called me saying he has something urgent to talk about.”

“OK. You can go first. Bye~” Julie replied.

I once again looked at him realizing he was already watching me. I directly went home without even giving him a second glance.

*Present Day* 

I sighed as my memory lane went back to that embarrassing moment.

Julie: “Really? So much happened and you are telling us now? Do you really consider us friends? Is that the reason you were absent for a whole week? “

Milie: “I can’t believe he is such a scumbag. What does he think of himself? So that’s the reason you just ignored him, right?”

 Seeing them swearing at him, I chuckled.

“Of course, after that embarrassing confession how can I talk to him so casually. It’s better that I ignore him.  And I have decided to move on. Now that I have a clear idea what he thinks of me, I don’t want to dwell on the past anymore.” I tried reasoning.

“Okay stop talking about me now. I want to know about your progress.” I turned towards Milie raising an eyebrow and giving a mischievous glare while smirking.

“Wh-What progress? I don’t know what you are talking about?” she stuttered avoiding eye contact and playing with her fingers. She was literally blushing. How cute!!!  

“Ahaaaa…. You don’t know, right? No wonder Ash was flirting with some other girl this morning.” I teased her.

“What??? That bastard…. How dare he look at other girls while I’m here? I will kill him.” Roared Milie with anger. Seeing her reaction Julie and I burst out laughing really hard.

“Finally spilling the beans huh? Milie West…you are caught red handed.” I winked at her. “So now tell me how much progress did you guys make?”

“Okay okay I’ll tell you, stop teasing me, alright? He confessed his love to me. And I…. well… I agreed.” She shyly declared looking down at her feet.

“Woahhhh!!!... Finally that blockhead got some sense knocked in his head. I thought he would never be able to go beyond his flirting stage.” Julie chuckled.

While we were chatting happily, I felt a burning gaze on my back but I ignored it. I don’t want to ruin my mood now in any way. We exited the canteen and I went to my major class.

I was sitting at the left corner seat near the window gazing outside absent mindedly and listening to one of my favorite songs when I realized someone sat beside me. I didn’t bother to look who it was as I don’t care. But the person beside me suddenly pulled out my earphones forcing me to look who was this annoying person. As soon as I turned, my eyes came in contact with those familiar oceanic blue eyes looking down at me with sympathy.

“You… what are you doing here? And why are sitting beside me?”