SWEET CONFUSIONS

CHAPTER 9

Waking up 10 minutes before my alarm buzz. I snuggled on my pillows. Thoughts of myself, doubting if I could really have a relationship with Sebastian? He is perfect in every way. I can’t find any flaw aside that he’s a man.

You can never trust a man having a serious relationship. They only think of their brain between their legs. But knowing Sebastian for a couple of days, changes how I perceive men in general. Not all men are conniving and cheaters. But it’s too early to conclude everything. I’m giving him 6 months. Let’s see if I still feel the same with him. Can I see myself grow old with him?

My alarm buzzed. Turning it off, I stretched in bed reaching and extending my arms and legs as far as I can, then relaxing a few seconds before rolling out of bed. I wore my purple fluffy plushed slippers, fixed my bed in 3 minutes. While checking on my phone messages, I went to the kitchen to hydrate and eat my yogurt parfait with blueberries and my home-made granola for breakfast. I set up my coffee machine to brew. I head on to my bathroom to get ready for work. Nothing out of the ordinary. Just emails about updates and reports. So far so good.

It’s been a habit of mine to shower with cold water. I’m sadistic to myself. It jolts me awake, plus it makes my skin tight and soft. The whole bathroom smells like vanilla.

“Thursday, the day after Friday.” I was talking to myself on the mirror, “Very good. You know the days of the week. Congratulations!” being sarcastic at myself, “I know! I’m a genius.” Sighing and brushing my teeth. “Why can’t I just let myself go and trust men?” mumbling to myself while I have my electric brush in my mouth, “You know, you can never have a boyfriend if you keep yourself restricted. Stop worrying.” Scolding myself with the toothbrush, “Sebastian is a gentleman. He doesn’t even pressures you to have s*x with him. Just remember your standards and self worth. Don’t let your vaginia tell you what to do.” I gargled and spit.

        I had my outfit ready the night before, less hassle and saves me time to do important stuff. I put on my black suit and beige silk top. Champagne gold accessories, and chose my Steve Madden beige block heels from my walk-in-closet. Grabbed my black leather bag. I was pouring coffee to my mug when I got a call from Sebastian.

“Good morning, beautiful.”

“Hellooooo. Good morning, fox. Ahoo-hoo-hoo.(awkward laugh)” I can’t help giggle like a giddy school girl.

“I was just having breakfast and I needed to call you before you go to work.”

“You needed to call me? For what?” I was worried something might have happened.

“I just needed to hear your voice, it energizes me.”

“Are you energized enough?” I can’t stop giggling. Locking my door behind me. Waiting for the elevator doors to open. “I’m about to get on the elevator. I’ll call you call you back when I get a signal again. Yes?”

“Make the elevator move faster. I need my energy booster.” He was whimpering like a little kid.

“You are so adorable. I’ll call you back.” Stepping in the elevator and clicking the L for the lobby.

I was smiling from ear to ear. It has been awhile since I’ve felt butterflies just by talking on the phone. It has been days since I’ve met him, but I feel like I’ve known him before. Maybe from another life? It’s as though I want to be with him all the time. I can’t explain it entirely but it’s nice. I got off the elevator and redialled Sebastian’s number. He answered the phone as my driver pulled up in front of the drive way. I hopped in my car.

We were on the phone for 10 minutes or so. Sebastian was talking about anything and everything out of the blue. Who knew Michelangelo wrote a poem on how much he hated painting the Sistine Chapel; and that strawberries are not berries. Knowing these kinds of things makes you think that there are many more out there that are waiting to be discovered. The world is amazing.

What amazes me is that my hard shell is slowly melting. I’m letting this perfect specimen called, Sebastian come into my life with ease. I guess I’m also starting to open up my heart whole-heartedly.

 Throughout the whole 30 minute ride, I was checking on messages and emails regarding future events. On instinct, I walked through the lobby doors, up to the elevator. I had the elevator to myself. People know who I am, I greeted them ‘Good Morning’ with a smile. Because I’m nice to them, I didn’t have to tell them which floor I was going to. In a couple of seconds I was already at my floor, my face still glued to my phone. Jessica following me to my office with my beige and gold sequin gown for tomorrow’s event.

“Good morning, Boss.”

“Good morning, Jessica.” Sitting on my chair with a huff, “Has my gown arrived?” Jessica waving the gown high smiling.

“Yes, Boss. This is gorgeous by the way.” Hanging the gown on the sample clothes rack. I stood beside her also admiring how the fabric cascades down like liquid.

“It’s one of the designs that I requested from Monique. And she did a very nice job choosing the right fabric.” Touching the gown, “Anyway, what’s on my agenda for today?” going back to my desk.

“I’ve rounded up the caterers for the Genesis event. You have Tuesday and Thursday vacant for the taste test.” Scrolling on the list on her tablet.

“Would you like to come with me? I hate going on my own especially if it involves eating.” I pleaded.

“I would gladly join you, Boss. Unless Mr. Monroe wouldn’t mind?” sitting amongst the chair.

“No. He wouldn’t mind. I don’t think so... Just don’t mention it to him.” I was having doubtful thoughts on inviting him to one of the food tasting. Maybe 1 of the catering but not all. Or none? Oh I’ll figure it out later.

“You don’t like him anymore?”

“I do.” I looked up from scribbling on my notepad, “He’s a little clingy. And you know I don’t like clingy people.”

“A little clingy is good. Besides these past few days you’ve been smiling more and you have this glow.”

“He does make me feel happy... I feel like choked. Since we’ve met, we’ve been seeing each other every day.”

“You’ve been inseparable too. But at least you’ve done more work since you’ve met him.”

“That’s because I’m I get nervous around him. I feel like a dork when I’m with him. My voice is in high pitch when I start talking to him. Uggh just thinking about it makes me want to lay in a fetal position on the ground. I don’t know. Maybe I haven’t adjusted on having a boyfriend.” My eye widen when I heard myself say ‘boyfriend’.

“He’s your boyfriend now?”

“I haven’t agreed or asked. But I would want him to be his girlfriend.” I continued writing on my notepad. Jessica took my phone, thought she placed a reminder or something on my phone, she handed my phone back to me.

“Here, Boss.”

“What’s that?”

“This is your chance to ask him if he wants you to be his girlfriend.” Pushing my phone towards me. Jessica was smirking menacingly.

“Whaaaat???” I’m having butter flies. I was shaking my head vigorously. I didn’t want to take the phone but I could hear Sebastian answering the phone, “Hellooooooo!”

“Thank me later...” she said in a hushed tone and closing the door behind her.

“Your voice is like a breath of fresh air. How can I make you happy?”

"Sebastian, I want to ask you something..."Genesis event. You have Tuesday and Thursday vacant for the taste test.” Scrolling on the list on her tablet.

“Would you like to come with me? I hate going on my own especially if it involves eating.” I pleaded.

“I would gladly join you, Boss. Unless Mr. Monroe wouldn’t mind?” sitting amongst the chair.

“No. He wouldn’t mind. I don’t think so... Just don’t mention it to him.” I was having doubtful thoughts on inviting him to one of the food tasting. Maybe 1 of the catering but not all. Or none? Oh I’ll figure it out later.

“You don’t like him anymore?”

“I do.” I looked up from scribbling on my notepad, “He’s a little clingy. And you know I don’t like clingy people.”

“A little clingy is good. Besides these past few days you’ve been smiling more and you have this glow.”

“He does make me feel happy... I feel like choked. Since we’ve met, we’ve been seeing each other every day.”

“You’ve been inseparable too. But at least you’ve done more work since you’ve met him.”

“That’s because I’m I get nervous around him. I feel like a dork when I’m with him. My voice is in high pitch when I start talking to him. Uggh just thinking about it makes me want to lay in a fetal position on the ground. I don’t know. Maybe I haven’t adjusted on having a boyfriend.” My eye widen when I heard myself say ‘boyfriend’.

“He’s your boyfriend now?”

“I haven’t agreed or asked. But I would want him to be his girlfriend.” I continued writing on my notepad. Jessica took my phone, thought she placed a reminder or something on my phone, she handed my phone back to me.

“Here, Boss.”

“What’s that?”

“This is your chance to ask him if he wants you to be his girlfriend.” Pushing my phone towards me. Jessica was smirking menacingly.

“Whaaaat???” I’m having butter flies. I was shaking my head vigorously. I didn’t want to take the phone but I could hear Sebastian answering the phone, “Hellooooooo!”

“Thank me later...” she said in a hushed tone and closing the door behind her.

“Your voice is like a breath of fresh air. How can I make you happy?”

"Sebastian, I want to ask you something..."