Hidden In These Walls

19- Facing the Fears Together

//Hunter//

I woke up the next morning by the feeling of something soft moving on the line of my jaw; back and forth. It was soothing and relaxing, yet at the same time it sent a sharp pang of heat through my whole body.

I opened my eyes to be met by those precious green eyes of my angel. He was kissing my jaw while caressing my cheek lightly. Once he saw that I’m up, he kissed his way to the corner of my mouth and mumbled a soft “Morning”.

I pecked him fully on the mouth and ran my hand through his brown curls. “Good morning angel.”

He grinned widely, showing his perfect white teeth. This made my heart flutter and swell with happiness. I just want to see Jason always smiling because that’s what suits his face and heart. Joy and happiness should always be around him and if I have to face a complicated time in the future to assure he’s safe and alright, then I’m willing to do so.

I know I’m only eighteen and that I’m still inexperienced with the whole adult stuff and life, but for him I’ll learn.

“I hope I can get out of here today. I hate it here.” He said.

I hugged him tighter so that his head rested on my chest and kissed his head. 

“I’m sure you will baby. You feel better right? So you’ll get out.” I muttered.

“I don’t want to go home Hunter. Please, let me go with you.” He whispered in a very tiny voice sounding so weak and vulnerable. 

Instinctively, my arms tightened around him. He’s still scared and I don’t blame him at all. Especially now, after he committed suicide, his dad won’t leave him alone. He will increase the beatings and increase the torture. 

“Off course you’re coming with me. You shouldn’t have even asked.” I answered.

“Thank you H.” He breathed out.

“Any day baby.” 

We then lied there in a comfortable silence, just enjoying each other’s presence; my chest rising and falling as I breathed making his head go up and down with me in turn.  A few minutes later, I broke the silence.                               

“So, we’ll go to the hotel first and dump my bag there and then we can go get your stuff yeah?” 

He then moved his head away from my chest and looked up at me, his face hovering over mine.

 “Y-Yeah. You’re coming with me there?” He asked, fear evident in his eyes.

“I’m never leaving you again Jason.” I said.

His eyebrows furrowed in confusion. “What do you mean?” 

“I meant that you’re going to come with me to Bradford, away from here.” I said.

His eyes widened in shock before he started shaking his head repeatedly. 

“No, No I can’t go there, Hunter. What about your family? I’m not going to let you ruin your life for me. This is a huge step and I know it’s hard for you and-

I silenced him with a kiss. I cupped his cheek and deepened the kiss, wrapping my other arm around his waist so that his chest touched mine leaving no space between us. He was startled at first but then blended into the kiss and let me invade his sweet mouth. 

“Shh… I love you Jason. I’m in love with you, you hear me? And I would do anything for you. I told you before that I’d die for you and trust me I wasn’t joking. So you’re going to leave with me and I’m telling mom as soon as we get back to the hotel.” I explained while caressing his rosy cheek.

He blushed and hid his face in the crook of my neck, breathing into my scent making me chuckle.

“I love you even more, Hunter. Thank you for everything baby.” He murmured against my neck.

“Impossible.” I said. 

Nobody can love Jason more than I do.

A little over an hour later, Edward came into the room. I know this man is Jason’s cousin but still, I didn’t like him being so close to him and touching him and kissing him. Jason can be touched only by me.

Ugh, I’m turning into… Liam.

Jason and I were still lying in the same position before we got interrupted by him. He could have at least knocked on the door as a warning.

“Oh… I’m sorry to interrupt but I was just talking to the doctor and he said that you can leave.” Edward informed us.

“Yes!” Jason cheered while hugging me more and clinging to my neck.

I grinned and kissed his lips once. “Then, come on let’s go.” I said.

They already disconnected Jason from whatever machines he was connected to during that passing hour so there is nothing stopping us. We got up and I took my bag which was lying in the corner of the room. I then took Jason’s hand in mine and we started walking towards the door.

“Whoa, wait a sec. Where are you two going?” Edward’s annoying self stopped us.

“I’m leaving with Hunter.” Jason stated.

“What?! What do you mean?” Edward’s nosey self asked.

“He is willing to take me away from here. I’m going to go with him to Bradford.” 

“Seriously Jason? After what he did to you, you’re just going to run away with him?” Edward sneered while glaring at me.

“What he did is long forgotten and we already talked about it.” Jason said.

He then slipped his hand out of mine and approached Ed. 

“Listen Ed. I know you care about me and I know Mase told you to look after me. So far, you did a great job and you were- are like a brother to me… Like Mase. I will forever be grateful and I will talk to you every single day Ed. Thank you, thank you for everything, but I think being in Bradford is safer for me.” He said and then hugged Edward.

Edward hugged him back tightly and I tried my best not to burst. 

It’s just his cousin Hunter. Freaking calm your moronic temper!

“I love you Jason and I’m proud of you. I’m sure Mase is too, don’t ever forget that.” Edward whispered.

Jason hugged him even tighter and I could make up some tears in his eyes. Just then I realized how stupid I’ve been. Edward- in Jason’s heart and mind- was in Mason’s place. He considers him as the brother he lost and this thought made me relax and let go of my ridiculous anger.

“Thank you Ed. I love you too.” Jason replied before letting go of Ed.

“Uh, thanks for looking out for Jason.” I said.

“It’s my job. Now, it’s your job though and I swear if you hurt him again-

“Hey! Freaking stop this. I’m standing right here.” Jason interrupted us, looking annoyed.

I chuckled and took his hand in mine again, kissing his forehead. “Sorry baby.” 

“S’fine.” He murmured, his cheeks redder than I’ve ever seen them. Probably because I did that in front of Ed.

“Don’t worry about him, he’s going to be safe there.” I told Ed.

Then, Jason and I stepped out of the room and made our way towards the elevator and down to the exit. We walked in the freezing cold weather until we reached the edge of the street. Stopping a cab, we got in and I gave the driver the hotel address.

I told the driver to wait for us once we got to the hotel. I quickly booked a room and dumped my bag there before heading back outside to go to Jason’s house.

I have a feeling it’s going to be hard for Jason.

On the ride to his home, we sat in the back of the cab with our hands laced together. Jason leaned his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes.

“It’s going to be alright Jay.” I assured him.

“I… I know. I just don’t want you to get hurt because of me.” He muttered.

“I’ve told you a million times that I don’t care and as long as I’m with you, nothing will happen to you okay?” I said while squeezing his hand.

I felt him nod against my shoulder and the remaining of the ride went in silence, the only sound left was the faint music coming from the radio.

We finally arrived at the house after five minutes.  It isn’t really a long ride but since Jason just got out of the hospital, I didn’t want him to walk because he is still tired.

We got out of the car after I paid the driver and walked towards the front door; and that’s when Jason stopped. I looked at him to find fear in his eyes. That’s the look he had that time when I left him here and went back to Bradford. However, this time it’s different. This time I’m not leaving.

“Baby, trust me. Nothing will happen to you. You’ll be safe with me.” I said while cupping his cheek and touching my forehead with his own.

He stood there for a while in silence, searching my eyes for assurance. “O-Okay.”

We then continued our way to the front door and knocked twice. A few minutes later, Emma opened the door.

“Jason!” Emma screeched before taking him in a hug.

Jason slowly pushed her away and said, “I want to take my stuff.” 

He was being cold with her and I don’t blame him. I understand him because she has no right to act like she loves him when she did nothing but watch him be miserable for the past four years.

She nodded, looking hurt and sad, before she moved out of the way. Jason quickly passed what I assumed is the living room and hurried upstairs. I’m guessing he wanted to avoid his dad, so I ran after him and into his room.

He was grabbing anything in front of him and dumping them in his bag. I could see that his hands were shaking in the process, so I approached him and hugged him from behind, placing my chin on his shoulder. I gripped his hands so that they are intertwined with mine against his abdomen to stop them from shaking. 

“Angel, I know this is a huge step for you and if you don’t want to do it, I won’t make you. You’re free to do whatever you want. You can stay here if you’re uncomfortable with coming with me.” I murmured in in his ear.

“N-No I… I want to go with you H. I can’t stay away from you anymore. It’s just that I don’t know what I’ll be facing and it’s going to be a whole new life you know?” He said.

“I know and we’ll go through it together. I’m going to be with you at every step you make from now on baby. You just need to have faith and believe in yourself. You’re the strongest guy I know Jason and I know you can do it.” I said.

He then turned around in my arms and faced me, hugging me tightly and snuggling his face in the crook of my neck. 

“I love you so much Hunter.” He whispered.

“I love you more.”

After that, we finished packing Jason’s bag with everything he needed. We didn’t take so much clothes because I’m off course willing to give him my own. We then hurried downstairs and just as we thought we got through the threshold of this hell hole, a high pitched booming voice interrupted us.

“Where the hell do you think you’re going you pathetic little slut?!” His dad shouted.

I turned around to come face to face with a fat middle aged man. He looked really pathetic, like he isn’t even convinced by his own words if possible. I hated him right then more than I ever did before having a look at him.

“What did you just say?” I sneered at him, my teeth clenched together like I’m going to burst at any minute.

“N-No, Hunter please just let it go.” Jason pleaded.

“No! He needs to freaking understand that you are his f*****g son! He believed everyone over you when you are his son! He should believe you and not torture you!” I screamed in the face of that useless man.

“Who the hell do you think you are?!” His dad yelled while swinging a punch at me.

I dogged it and with one swift move managed to connect my fist with his nose, causing him to slightly lose his balance.

“This will let you taste a bit of your medicine.” I spit in his face.

I then turned to Jason and muttered a “let’s go” to his surprised and shocked face.

“Um, mom… I’m leaving f-for now.” Jason muttered while glancing at his mom.

“W-Where?” She whispered, looking hurt and broken.

“With Hunter.” He said.

They looked at each other for a while, Jason pleading with his eyes for her to stop him and tell him to stay, but she did the opposite. She let him go and broke his heart once again.

“O-Okay.” She said.

Jason then turned and ran out the door. I quickly ran after him, his bag in my hand. He was running so fast that I couldn’t keep up with him.

“Jason, wait!” I yelled.

He didn’t listen though.

“Baby! Stop. Wait for me.” 

He did. I directly approached him and gave him another one of those hugs. The hugs you give when you want to make someone feel loved, safe, happy.

“Don’t start crying. I don’t want to see a single tear, you hear?” I said.

He just nodded.

“Can you walk or you want to take another cab?” I asked.

“It’s fine.” He said.

So, we walked back to the hotel. That hotel where we got to know each other the first time I came here, where Jason agreed to be my boyfriend and I made him mine.

As soon as we entered the room, Jason collapsed on the bed curling into a ball and closing his eyes.

“Tired?” I asked.

“Yeah, come lie with me.” He said.

“I-I need to make a call first.” I said.

I then fished out my phone and found a million missed calls from mom and a couple from Toby and Nick.

I called mom and waited for her to pick up. It’s now or never. I got to do this for Jason.

“Hello? Hunter! Sunshine. Where have you been? I’ve been worried sick!” Mom’s rushing voice burst through the speaker.

I sat at the edge of the bed, my back facing Jason and answered. “I know mom, I’m sorry. It’s just that I came here to do something and it’s now that I finally managed to talk to you.” 

“Are you okay sunshine? You sound tired.” She said.

“M-Mom… I- I need to tell you something.” I started. My heart was beating so fast, I’m sure she could hear it all the way to Bradford.

“What is it? You can tell me anything.” 

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, preparing myself to face my biggest fear which was coming out to my family.

“Mom… I… I’m g-gay.” I whispered.

I was met by silence. The only sound that could be heard was mom’s erratic breathing on the other end.

“M-Mom?” I said shakily.

Then I felt Jason wrap me in a soothing hug from behind, kissing my shoulder lightly.

“I.. Hunter, I kind of had this feeling that you are.” She said, surprising me to no extent.

“W-What?! What do you mean?” I asked.

Do I have hope?

“Well, the other day, your father and I were discussing that you never brought a girl here with you and we never see you date anybody. So, we concluded that you might be gay and now you confirmed it.” She explained.

“A-And you’re okay with it?” I asked.

“As long as you’re happy, we are happy. I’ve been thinking about it for a while and the thought of you having a boyfriend kind of made me happy. Is this stupid?” She said, making me smile. My tensed up shoulders relaxed and I could feel all my nerves disappear.

I chuckled. “No mom. It’s definitely not stupid. Actually, I… I do have a boyfriend mom.” 

“What?! You do? Who is he? Is he cute? Is he the reason you are in Cheshire?” She bombarded me with questions.

“Haha, yes mom he is the cutest thing on earth.” I said while looking into Jason’s eyes causing him to blush a crimson red.

“And yeah he is the reason I’m here. Mom… I was wondering, can Jason come back with me? He needs to come back with me. Please accept and I promise I’ll explain everything later.” I continued. 

“Off course he can love. I can’t wait to meet him.”

“Thank you so much mom. I love you.” I said.

“I love you too sunshine. Oh Hunter, I almost forgot. A guy about your age came by to see you today. I didn’t get his name though.” She said.

Who would want to see me other than Toby and Nick? This is interesting yet confusing.

“A guy? What did he look like?” I asked.

“Um… Brown hair, brown eyes. A bit tall, and he was quite built.” She said.

Oddly, this description reminded me of my Liam.

“Oh, I don’t know.” I said.

After that, we said our good byes and I informed her that Jason and I will take the train to Bradford tomorrow so that she can let Toby and Nick know.

“I’m so happy and proud of you baby.” Jason said from behind me.

I grinned at him before attacking his lips. I lowered us on the bed so that his head hit the pillows behind us and deepened the kiss. He circled his hands around my neck, tugging me closer so that now I was nestled between his legs. He then surprised me by wrapping his legs around my waist to keep me close.

I could feel the front of my jeans tightening as my lips moved from his mouth down to kiss his jaw and to his neck. I showered his neck with soft kisses, loving the feel of his skin against my lips. I then reached his throat and that’s when he moaned. It was such a beautiful sound that I felt my member harden even more in anticipation.

This was one of his soft spots right there.  I didn’t waste any time and instantly dug my teeth in his skin, sucking on that spot lightly.

“H-Hunter…” Jason moaned sounding out of breath.

Something poked my growing hard on then. It was Jason’s own, making me shake in ultimate pleasure.

I tugged on his shirt in order to take it off of him. He directly complied and took it off, so I continued my way down his body. I kissed his chest and made my way to his right n****e, nibbling on it and suckling it into my mouth while pinching his left n****e between my fingers. 

He groaned, “Hunter… Please-

“Shh, I’m going to make you feel good.” I whispered huskily.

I looked up at his eyes to see them a deeper shade of green, clouded by lust.

I then kissed his forming abs and guided my hands up and down his hips. I continued to kiss him even lower until I reached his pants. I placed my hand on the front of his pants, palming him through his clothes.

“s**t! Hunter… P-Please..” He cursed.

I unzipped his jeans, sliding it down his legs with his boxers. His member sprung free and my eyes widened at the sight.

Jason was… Um, well huge.

“H-Hunter, what are you doing? S-Stop!” He breathed out.

“You obviously don’t want me to baby.” I answered.

I then did it and took him in my mouth causing a deep moan to erupt from him.  I kept on bobbing my head up and down, loving every moment of right now. I love that it’s me and only me causing him this amount of pleasure.  His hand moved to run through my hair while his hips bucked to increase the pace. We stayed like that for a few minutes later, him moaning my name over and over until he finally came.

I cleaned him off and climbed back up to him kissing his mouth softly. 

“Gosh Hunter. I… It felt so good. Thank you.” He whispered with a husky voice, breathing heavily and still trying to recover from his previous high.

“All for you baby. Everything I’m doing is for you. Want to always see you happy.” I said before kissing his forehead.

I then slumped down next to him, pulling him into my arms. I didn’t care that I was still sporting a major hard on. All I cared about was to finally have a nice sleep with a happy and satisfied angel in my arms.

“Good night angel.”

Let’s see what tomorrow will bring.