The Wolf Inside

Cheer Yourself

I hate the way Nix acted in front of Max, if he has problems with me he should deal with me only. The Nix now is very immature as it is, I did not told max about the mate thing because I know Nix will be furious about it. I'll respect him if he would not want anyone to know that his mate is me, his a.k.a best friend, it's obvious that he has no plan in telling others about this. Such a jerk, Why did I love this man this whole time? did the Deities made a joke? Nix is making me hate him but love him still. Err, I'm mad at him, yeah, he is still at fault in making me feel like a criminal for being like this, for being his mate, and...

 for Liking him. Has he forgotten that before he knew I was his mate, we were Best friend? Nix and I have been friends for ages and we get along so well not until this happened but I wont stop liking him just because he's rejecting the fact that I am his mate. 

Now that Max have planned to make us two make up this may be the chance for me to slowly make a move for him to accept me. if we become friends again he and I will be close to each other again and he may realize his true feelings. Wait, I am expecting too much?

 " he may be kind to you before yet it doesn't mean he has the same feeling same thing you feel for him. don't be stupid Gun." I said to myself and held my Temple by my right hand to massage the dumb head I have while walking to the entrance of the Bar Where we usually Hangs out.

 " no, you should cheer up Gun, You are handsome, charming and sexy there's no way you can't charm a guy like him, just so you wait nix I will let your guard down bowing." I cheered on myself with my chin held up facing the bright side and let a evil laugh. 

 Meanwhile, while I was feeling the victorious feeling a hard slap on the head was made a wake up call on how crazy I might seem laughing alone with arms held high as if thunders are joining with me as my special effects but now It seems like birds and stars are on my head spinning.

 " Too high on yourself huh?! "Nix said smirking and stared at me head to foot. did he heard me? 

I mean- Grr Unbelievable! Is he looking down on me again? Just watch Nix I'll make you fall for me.  Bow-wow-wow should I seduce him? like I'll play as a Dog with my ears and tails wiggling like as what the dogs do when ever their owner go home, but I'll be seducing him--oh wait I'm a wolf! When did I became this stupid?! I snapped out and I let out a heavy sigh and continued walking forcing my mind to stop thinking any kind of pathetic thoughts.

I followed nix entering the bar, and as soon as we entered the bar, as usual the sticky eyes of hot girls chicks were on us, the moment we entered the lobby, Girls were approaching us, I just ignored how the girls are trying hard to seduce me, I more likely to be seduced by simple yet amazing girl than be seduced by girls who's revealing and might see their souls inside their clothes, I am a gentleman and only a gay for Nix. Beforehand let me clear things out, I am maybe homosexual and that's the turning point but I am still attracted, infatuated rather to women but not as how I'd be attracted to Nix ,so far only Nix yeah. I'm like a Monogamous person. I have never liked nor loved anyone except Nix for how many years passed and there he is just rejecting my Love and what the destiny decided. it felt unrequited love. 

Bottom line for me It's hard to deal with one sided feelings, it is  like to love but loving in vain.

 oh well I'll just mind my own business-

"hi there Handsome" 

"well, hello there gorgeous" I turned my head to where those Filthy voices that I can put to grave in any moment with a displeased look in my face wickedly sighting them with my demonic stares. I am certain of this voice, I am familiar with that voice

 and I am annoyed with that voice answering the girl with blue laces spaghetti tube with ripped Chic Blue distressed  booty  shorts who called out nix and  cling unto nix's arms pressing his watermelon huge boobs in his arms and look at that flirty face full of make up girl flirting him and in fact If  my guesses is right he is damn enjoying it.

I abruptly shook my head giving no attention to those flirts in front of me rubbing each others body as if this is not a public place, get a room dude.  I grabbed a booze heading to our table and left my f*cking mate alone with that clown chick! How Ironic hanging out with my best friend elatedly. How obnoxious 

let me pour some sarcasm there Huh~

I sat on our table like a child throwing a tantrum While max was there looking at me weirdly.

"don't ask me what's wrong I'm not in a mood dude" I said annoyed and Chugged. Max immediately grabbed my glass and scolded me as he too sat near me

"relax, Gun it's too early to be drank, what's wrong with you?" He asked and awkwardly chuckle, the deafening music in the bar makes me dizzy. how low is my alcohol tolerance? tss.

 " How can you drink it in one shot, this one is a very strong cocktail gun, Corpse revival NO.2 is no joke gun hahaha" Max explained while stopping himself from laughing on m y dumbness. yeah right. He helped me to sit right because Now that  I am feeling drowsy and I felt the alcohol is eating my whole body, is making me not aware of my positions, but I am still not drunk I need more, I need to remove those lustful eyes that Nix conveyed to that girl in my mind, That eyes has no disgust on it tho it's full of lustfulness, I don't mind just don't be disgust with me, I want those eyes to look at me too. 

I feel so hot inside me, I felt so dizzy and desirable.

I want  to pee.

" Gun, I think you're drunk " Max said offering me  water, staring at him this close makes me realize max too is a good looking guy, his firm shoulders and straight nose that can stab my face anytime, and his well-shaped jawline is his assets can make a girl go crazy, but no one can beat Nix's straight-edged nose, fair skin, perfect face shaped, Nix is way more good looking than max. It's just that,  max is more gentler to me at the moment. If I was  girl he could have his Plus point. I just laugh at how ridiculous my mind was  thinking at this moment.

"I am not *hic* drunk max, I am just dizzy *hic*" I said convincing Max as he was stopping me from drinking more. hence, the more he aim to grab the glass the closer we get but from the moment our faces was an inch afar with max cornering me with his muscular body, I felt more dizzy and so hot, did their air conditioner  broke? I saw a chance in drinking the booze as he, max was still flustered as how close our faces to each other. I crammed in  drinking the other booze on the table tho I think this is not stronger as the corpse drink cocktail I drank a while ago. 

Nix, I don't really know why I expect too much. It's hard for me seeing you flirting with someone

*hic*