The Wolf Inside

The childish outsider's feelings

I wonder why I rarely see the both of them being together, as if they were glued to each other rather than being separated as it is. Seeing them now being this distant to each other at one table makes me Uneasy dude. "hey!" I called out. They both jumped in surprise as I called out mentioning no one. they are very suspicious, hmmm

"what's wrong?" I asked them

"w-what's wrong?" Gun stuttered. I knew it! They still did not makeup in their fight that was ages ago. This is frustrating me.

" you two, the both of you! Tell me what did you two fight? " I interrogated them as they shrugged and suspiciously not making eye contact to me means they are really hiding nor lying to me.

" dudes, am I not your friend anymore? " I asked them gleamingly, pretending to sulk though I really felt very outsider for their acts, I don't know, they were supposed to tell me everything every time they fight because I am the one who'll make them make up. but now? did they unleash the gaps between the three of us?

"What? of course yes, you are our friend Max! " Gun said assuring me but the worriedness that is present in his face is making me feel so out. I really feel that They are hiding something from me especially a gun. I don't want him to hide anything from me, I want to know everything about him, I care for him, and ... I love him.

"then why are you two acting that way? As if you are now rivals nor in war and just been forced to eat with the same table with me" I disappointingly answered. I sound like a child but who cares?

"don't worry max everything is fine, Nix and I are... uhm something in a-hmm we have misunderstanding yeah" he suspiciously answered while giving an eye to Nix who is very attitude art the moment

" yeah dude, we just have a disgustingly and slightest misunderstanding" nix answered sarcastically while emphasizing the word 'Disgustingly'

what??? why? disgusting?

Gun was looking so pissed that he was all red. how come did that asshole nix come back? Nix was the type of guy who's kind and sweet to Gun but now he's acting like how he's acting in front of his enemies. the bully nix that me and Gun had encountered in high school is what I felt who sitting with us right now. What did really happen between these two?! Gun suddenly stood up which surprises me

" I'm gonna buy us a water, please excuse me," he said and immediately leave in a hurry but what made me want to run to him was because of his clumsiness, I chuckled at how cute Gun was when he almost tripped, he was really very clumsy indeed. I just shook my head so I could hide my blushing face when I realized Nix was staring at me sharply. eh? I turned my head facing him, and pretended that I am still sulking at them.

"Max, did you already find your mate?" nix asked out of nowhere. The way he stares at me like he was kinda furious and was about to beat me up.

"what's up with you? look like you're very pissed? pfft," I said and was stopping my laugh.

instead of answering he was just staring at me, again, waiting for my answer for his question. I sighed and answered him seriously

"I don't know bro, but just like you I am not in a hurry, but I have wished for someone to be my mate" I said and smilingly looked directly to where Gun, is buying the drinks. He said he'll buy. Seeing him smiling like that, his kindness to others and his bright face is making me selfish of the thought of wanting those things to be seen by me only. But if I pursue him I always felt that I have a secret rival from the very beginning, and it made me wonder can I surpass it? or Am I better than Him? or is he better than me?

I snapped out of the thought Nix as staring at me suspiciously,

'tssk don't look at me like that man, I know you have secrets That even you did not know I knew.' I said in my mind.

" and who's he?" he asked

shall I confess to him? If I tell him, he'll tease me like hell and will be very annoying. But Nix and I have been friends, so it's okay as long as he'll not confess it to Gun, right? and I am sure he will never

" Well, as you can see-- "

" Why are they so slow? I've just ordered water for heaven's sake!"

Gun muttered and surprisingly and came without any notice. Woo, that was close, he didn't even notice he interrupted our conversation.

soon I'll have the courage to say my feelings. I will never let anyone hinder, even your mate, Gun...

" I'll go first Max, see you later" Nix suddenly said his goodbye's without even glimpsing Gun

" Okay, see ya" I answered, and as I faced Gun he looked so sad and red.

" Hey Nix, wait up"

I said " come here for a second " I continued.

"What now?" he annoyingly asked

" Let's meet up later. Let's go to the same bar we usually hang out at. I'll call Sheila to come too. I swear the both of you should fuckin' make up dude, it's so awkward to see you both being so distant," I said.

" Well Uhm, I still have a lot of homework so I should pass" Gun said.

"uh-huh? lame excuse Gun" I said smirking at him he just shook his head.

" I'll pass--

" for your information, my beloved fella's This is not an invitation, this is a demand! OK? See you later" I said and left them. This is all I can do for Gun... My story about how I built these feelings for Gun? It's very complicated.

'hurt him more, and I will promise to the moon that I'll let you suffer for rejecting such a precious gem, buddy.'