The Wolf Inside

Are you okay with things like this?

5 o'clock in the morning... The hard-core heat was fading but the desires that my heart never fades, I wanted this all the time, wanting nix to be with me when ever I wake up and see him sleeping soundly is what my heart desires. I don't know how many rounds we did it bit something is with Nix that I don't understand, the more we continue the blast last night the more aggressive he'll be.

The feelings still linger through me, the lust that was full of pleasure, the deep kisses that was full of passion and the love and the thrusts that assures me we are not just that typical kind of friends all this time. I know it might be wrong to others but we are destined to be together and here we are laying in the bed naked. I slowly Face him and caressed his smooth pale face. ' Oh god! How I badly want to to wake up every morning with him by my side sleeping like an angel' I stand up weakly due to the weak body that felt so heavy and knees shaking. Damn I don't think I can walk. But I'll try to, I need to make some breakfast for him after I took shower. However my damn body is not good enough to walk alone after what we did last night! after what HE did to me.

It's a blast.

Sexy, and memorable.

Limbs are gone crazy. And back hurts till death. I felt Nix was moving so I look at him with eyes smiling, letting him see how happy I am. The moment he open his eyes the ocean blue eyes that was full of mesmerizing sight faded and it sudden faint as it widen in shock to what and where he was at the moment. " Gun?!... Me?.. naked- you?! T-to-tog-gether?? "he stutter The way he reacts right this moment made my heart felt deep pain sliced as if his reaction was a sharp knife.is this too hard for him that he can freely show those unknown reactions that makes me suffocate and even hate myself for why I was destined to him?

Was he not aware last night that He and I was making Love? Does he really hated me for being his mate? Can't he just accept me as what the deity above destined to be? The sweet curve line draws in my mouth straighten and let out a cold expression equally to him. "Did we do it?" He asked quietly looking down in frustration.

'This is not a mistake Nix!'

That line I wanted to scream unto his face but here I am restraining myself from shouting at him for I don't want to argue anymore. Maybe he has reason- no he indeed has reasons to act like this, right? Right nix?? I refuse to think about negative and lent a bright smile to him, "Uh, Y-yes" I shyly answered looking at hum waiting for his next questions cause looking at this confuse alpha wolf his frowning brows is too cute to resist a smile. He still shines despite the frowning and little mumbles. Guess my Alpha is angry again huh. He abruptly brush his hair with his fingers in frustrate then faced me with those those eyes that I can't interpret what emotion he wants to convey.

"I'll go now" he just said and rushing to dress up, wanting to leave this place in an instant, but before he finishes I grabbed him and face him with questioning. I know we are both men and something had happen to us because of the heat that my body can't refuse to feel either way the wolf wants it's mate too soon.

"wait up! We just slept together! what do you mean, You'll go? We need to talk-"

"Talk?! I don't Give a damn Gun, forget what happened last Night it was nothing-"

"If it was nothing we shouldn't had made that far making love until Morning!" I cut him This is unfair we did it because we want to not because we were forced to?!

" Shut Up Gun!" he shouted, but the sudden expression I was very indeed surprise, he never shouts at me like this " why would I? You're mine and I am yours Nix!" I again sprout Things that I knew he'll be annoyed but I don't care he also looked as if questioning what I was saying. His reaction was just like a window I considered widely opened and visible. Questions shook his eyes and confusion ... and ... and disgust was all I could see

after I said he seemed heard such a filthy sentence, statement and words that made him badly glares at me and even he can't hide the fact that he was slightly disgusted by the thought of it. his expressions and reactions are somewhat can't explain what he feels, a moment after I was not prepared by the time his hands were at the front of my face punching me. I saw Myself bleeding and he acted that he can't even utter a word after what he've done.

he hurt me... physically?

he was shock but as if there was one controlling him why he did it, the confusions in him made him do this he was as if drowning in confusion, he stared at his own palm maybe having a thought that It felt like it has it's own mind to act fearlessly and animalistic towards me. yet I can't hide the clear pain that drawn in my face, clearly want to send a message that I was hurt By the way he acted not by the punch, he was about to leave his room when I suddenly Grabbed his hands and grip it.

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" did you even dare to think if I am okay with things like this? Cause I too did not dare because all I know is that I need you."

" but why acted like I just accused you a crime Nix?"