My Triplet Lovers

Why Now? (Troy's POV)

- Saturday -

The whole day, I had a huge smile on my face caused by what had happened yesterday. I couldn't erase her from my thoughts and when I thought things couldn't get any better, it just did.

Since it was morning where they were, my mom decided to call that night and told us that me and my brothers can finally live there with her. Which meant WE WERE LEAVING! we were leaving!

we were... leaving...

My smile slowly turned into a frown once I realized that we were leaving this place for good...

Which meant I was leaving Maya too...

I wanted to choose to stay but me and my parents have been waiting for this for almost 7 years already...

I wish I could've continued this type of relationship with Maya.

The one they called "Long-distance relationship".

But I can't, I just can't... and besides, we're too young and we've only just met...

I went straight to my room. I didn't know how I'd feel about this...

It was very overwhelming...

A few years ago, nothing ever changed my mind about leaving but when she came into my life...

It changed everything...

I opened my phone and saw that she was online.

What if I just tell her now?

End it before it hurts her more?

But if I tell her the truth about why I'm doing this then she'd decide that we could still have a long-distance relationship and make things work...

But I know it won't last 'cause you have to be strong and patient and have a lot of trust in each other in order for this to work...

I have no doubt about her handling this, it's me that I'm worried about...

She's strong and patient while I'm weak at most stuff...

It won't work...

I wanted to tell her through chat but I couldn't...

I couldn't 'cause I know my heart would break first and I'd choose to stay and leave everything my parents and I have been planning for for so long just because of one girl...

The whole weekend I had both a troubled mind and heart.

I keep thinking of how to tell her but I'm just a huge coward...

Monday morning came which meant we were going to school that day, which also meant...

I have to talk to her and tell her I'm leaving...

- 6 am -

I couldn't sleep at all last night 'cause I was both guilty and heart broken.

She wasn't here yet so I thought of thinking more about how to tell her.

At around 7 am, she finally came. I couldn't look straight at her, or even try to turn my head a little to see her. It was clear to me that if I couldn't even do those simple things to her then how do I even expect that I could talk to her?

I decided to ignore her, maybe if it worked she'd get mad at me and ignore me too.

I mean, if I continue to get closer to her, it'll both break or even crush our hearts by the time I leave.

She gave me space and didn't open her mouth around me, I guess it worked somehow.

- Recess -

I hang out with the guys I met at the party to let me forget or even just to stop thinking of her.

Unfortunately, it didn't work. I saw her at the canteen a few tables from us with other girls, probably her new friends she just met.

She looked happy, that was enough for me to know that she could stay happy even without me 'cause that's how it should be.

- End of Recess -

We all headed back to our rooms. As we sat down, I saw her looking at me smiling and saw that she's trying to reach for my shoulder. It probably meant that she wants to talk to me so I moved away from her as soon as possible hinting to her that I still don't want to talk.

Oh God let this nightmare be over! I see her smile slowly change into a worried and anxious frown and as she did that, I could feel what her heart was feeling. It was being crumbled and shattered...

I felt it too because I never wanted to do any of this to her! I decided that to not feel this way, I would just try to not look at her from time to time but I can't help it, she's just too irresistible...

But I also knew I had to control myself because if I became weak and went back into her arms, it will both hurt us 'cause what seemed so perfect couldn't last.

The two hours left seemed longer like an eternity with this growing guilt in me...

A few agonizing hours later, it was finally lunchtime.

- Lunchtime-

I was finally outside and to keep my worries away I thought of eating a lot this time. Yeah, stress eating isn't good but it's the only option I could think about to finally feel better.

When I thought I could finally escape the pain and guilt, I hear her crying out to me from the back.

"Troy! Troy! Hey, wait up!" She cried out to me while trying to catch up with me.

I tried my best not to turn my head and look behind me.

Although that didn't stop her from trying to talk to me. She tried walking faster so she could catch up.

When she finally did catch up to me, she blocked my way expecting that I'd stop just to talk to her.

I went with a blank expression on my face even though my heart is bursting with emotions to see her again. Mostly emotions I couldn't explain. I still managed to pull off that blank expression though.

"Hey! Wanna go get lunch?" She asked sounding really exhausted.

I felt really bad that I had to do this but I have no other choice that I could think about doing.

I ignored her once again.

"What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?" She added as she sounded more anxious and hurt this time.

She just stared at me for a while expecting at least a single reply from me but instead, I just went and walked past her at one open side. I continued walking even though I feel like she's about to break down and cry, I can't go back.

She never saw it but I cried because I didn't want to do this but I still had to.

I know there's definitely a better option in where I won't need to hurt her like this but like I said, my mind just stayed blank when it came to this. I just hope one day she could forgive me but I'd understand if she chooses not to, 'cause even I wouldn't forgive myself for doing this to anyone.

I continued walking 'til I get to the place where I eat my lunch, she wasn't near me anymore, I couldn't feel her presence but somehow, my tears didn't stop from falling. I promised I'd never hurt her yet here I am tearing her heart apart.

I wiped my tears away every minute 'cause they don't seem to stop.

I keep thinking what if I go back to her and just hug her? Will she forgive me? I really don't know what to do or to say. I couldn't think on an empty stomach so I got to the place and ordered.

After I was finished, I thought I could think better this time but food didn't help.

I just went back earlier than expected.

As I got to our room, I put my bag down immediately and sat down.

"What have I done?" I ask myself the same question over and over again.

"Right from the start, I knew time was never on our side,

It will never work even if we both tried"