My Triplet Lovers

August : Untold Moments Spent with You

These feelings are harmless. I mean, what could go wrong?

I continued to follow him throughout the month, But not in a creeping type of way... more like a... curious type of way? Yeah, that.

The more I did it, the more he noticed. I started to realize that he was waiting for me to follow him. It's like he wants me to be there... it's like he wants me to be by his side.

It's been quite a long time since I felt this way about someone. It always made me happy but of course, there's a downside to it too.

For example, the most obvious is that he won't like me back and even if I got rejected by many guys in the past, I still never got used to it. It always hurts whenever I got rejected. I mean it's like you've longed for something for so long and stayed loyal to it but in the end...

you found out that you can never have it...

It's just like what they say...

"It doesn't mean that you like it, you'll have it"

or

"It doesn't mean you like them, they like you"

That's just a harsh truth of how reality works. It's either you're lucky that they'd feel the same or be pretty enough that almost everyone will like you, unlike me, I'm neither lucky enough nor pretty enough which ended up with no one ever liking me or choosing me. Sometimes I could be the last choice or not even in someone's choices.

When I thought of it, I had my doubts if I ever have a chance with Troy.

But I also think that he's not the type to break someone's heart although even if that is true, it's still unlikely that he'd ever fall for someone like me or even just like me as a person.

I'm getting way ahead of myself, He might not be that bad. It's just this overthinking that makes me confused about everything.

Even if the thoughts of a hundred ways he'll reject me wanders into my mind I still thought of giving it a shot and confess to him. Of course, I would still need to get close to him. Being his friend's a start, right?

I've already got that done. The longer I spent time with him, the more I could accept that even if he does reject me, it'll be fine if we could just stay friends and it'll hurt a little less than waiting for him for years to change his mind like what I did with my past crushes.

Even after remembering how I used to think of him, I was still bored so...

While bored, I took a trip down memory lane once again...

- The day at the coffee shop -

This is the day! I'll confess to him my true feelings towards him! It's just gonna be Troy and me!

It'll be perfect!

I got up earlier than expected so I just waited for him while still managing to look fresh and not tired at all.

It wasn't long 'til he finally came.

The car arrived and the thought going through my head was "behind this door is possibly the love of my life!" I thought to myself.

As I reach for the car's door handle I felt closer and closer to him as we almost breathed the same air, Might sound disgusting to you but I guess this is what love does to you.

Hmmmm, maybe not to everyone but I hardly doubt that love hasn't made someone think and feel this way too.

The way that every single thing that's going on around me whenever he's around is important and will always make me feel this way.

As I was saying, The closer I got to him the more I could feel my heartbeat going faster and stronger by the second.

*click* I slowly opened the door...

I expected him to have a smile on his face once he saw me but it was completely different.

He was asleep!

Not the romantic way I thought things were gonna turn out...

I could hear him snoring but I still found it cute to see that's how he sleeps.

I got in the car with them and sat next to him while he's still asleep.

I didn't bother to wake him up because it looks like he's exhausted.

Along the trip, I decided to gaze upon him because I couldn't spend my time talking to him anyway.

As I stare at him, I slowly scoot closer to him to see more of his beautiful features up close!

I could see how beautiful his long eyelashes were and his cute little button nose and his shiny black hair.

I'm just completely amazed how he gets even cuter the more I look at him.

I smile and lean more towards him until I heard him whisper... "... I want to be the first... and the last to make you feel this way..." He whispered gently while the sound of his voice sounded passionate with his words.

I look at him confused... Is he talking to me? I got closer to have a better look, He was still asleep!

As I think of it more, it sounds like he's talking to someone in his dream and it could be a girl!

At one point I thought he was thinking of... me. I shook my head and decided to doubt my thoughts, he wouldn't like me that way... It's obvious he sees me only as a friend and nothing more than that... but then I second think it again and thought that one of those two might be right and it's more likely that it's the one that he's only gonna see me as a friend and nothing more, well maybe as a best friend but nothing above that.

I started to feel jealous of that possible girl in his dream. Yeah, she might just be another one of his imaginations, but... what if she's real? Then I wouldn't really have a chance with him if that was the case.

As if, she's just probably another one of his imaginations. I tried to reassure myself by thinking that "this girl"

is just a picture of his imagination and there's nothing for me to worry about.

I shake the thought out of my head and continued gazing upon him.

Wow, I'd really be lucky if he ever does even have the slightest crush on me.

"I just wish that could be our reality, but no, it's just my made-up fantasy

where it could have been just you and me..."