Should I Tell Him?
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I went home with a huge smile on my face that night. I can't believe that really happened!
The way we bonded. It makes me think that somehow, he likes me too...
"ARGHHHH!!!" I scream and cover my face with a pillow so no one will hear me.
I think about it even more "He probably doesn't think of me that way... Maybe he doesn't even think of me that often or maybe he doesn't even think of me at all..." But some part of me tells me..
"What if he does?" Still confused, I think about it even more...
"The way he looks at me... The way he talks to me... The way he smiles at me... The way he shows how much he cares for me that he'd never hurt or want me to get hurt...
The way he makes me feel.. It's as if he liked me too..."
But I doubt that he did feel the same too so I try and connect the dots all together.
"The way that he looks at me, his pupils dilate"
"The way he talks to me, it's sweet and I notice he doesn't use these flowery words to others except me"
"The way he smiles at me, he shows it so genuinely"
"The way he cares for me, It's like I was important to him.."
I hate it when I overthink things... I just give myself false hope...
Maybe he just thinks of me as a friend, Yeah maybe that's it.
I mean, that is what he said that he'd only see me as a friend anyway.
I try to convince myself even more by repeating these words..
"We're just friends and nothing more.
We're just friends and nothing more.
We're just friends and nothing more."
I continued repeating those words until I fell asleep.
- Sunday -
7:10 am
I woke up and hear my phone ringing. It was just a message but when I checked it,
IT WAS A MESSAGE FROM TROY!
"Hey! Have you eaten breakfast yet?" He messaged me casually.
"No, not yet. I've only just woken up. By the way, why are you up so early?" I replied to him.
"Wanna go get some coffee with me?" He asked.
Hmmm... this early? I doubt that there are any open cafes this early in the morning. Or I might be wrong because I barely go out in the morning, specially this early unless it was school.
Why did he ask anyways?
"Does he miss me already?" I laugh at myself for thinking of such a thing.
"So? are you in? I need more practice too specially for tomorrow so both of us can be ready.. " He messaged me again and I thought that was the end of what he was saying but then...
"And because I miss you.. " He added.
H-He missed me?
"ARGHHHH STOP MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY!" Once again I scream inside my head because of him and so no one would hear me.
but... this is just for the project anyways... Yeah, just for the project.
"Sure, I'll take a shower and get ready" I answered.
"I'll pick you up at 7:30, ok? See you :)" He replied.
I took a shower then fixed myself up. I wore a T-shirt and some pants to keep it casual.
Before 7:30 came, I was already done and I just needed to wait for Troy.
7:25 am and still no message from him. I started to get worried, what if something happened to him? what if he changed his mind?
Luckily, before my worries got even worse he finally arrived. Thank God, I thought he wouldn't come.
"Are you ready?" He asked.
Before I answered him, I looked at the things I was holding to make sure I didn't forget anything important.
"Yup, I'm all set. shall we go now?" I answered.
"Well then let's go! sit here in the back with me!" He excitedly replied.
Hmmm... should I? Maybe I should, so I won't get all awkward with him again later.
I sat at the backseat with him but I stayed near the window because I'm more comfortable that way when I'm in a car. As I was getting comfy in my seat, Troy scoots over and got really close to where I sat. Then out of nowhere, He rests his head on my shoulder then he looks at me and says..
"Can I lay here for a while? I'm still tired for waking up so early" He asked.
"Why? didn't you sleep early?" I replied.
"It's all your fault..."
Before he could finish his sentence, I already tried figuring out why it's somehow "my fault" that he couldn't sleep. Instead of being hysterical I tried to sound as calm as possible when I asked.
"Why? did I do something wrong? how come it's my fault?" I asked.
"... You kept me up all night thinking about you..."
Woah... I didn't expect that type of answer at all.
What does he mean though? I looked at him confused as to what he meant.
"What do you mean by that?" I asked.
He sighed and again looked straight into my eyes while he still laid his head on my shoulder.
"I don't know either, there's just something about you that made me think of you a lot that night. Until now you're still stuck on my mind." Then he smiled at me afterwards.
All this time I thought he never thinks of me, not even once but here I find out that I kept him up all night just by thinking of me. He doesn't know I felt the same way after what happened last Saturday..
I put one of my hand over my chest "My heart's beating fast again". It made me worry a little, I'm only supposed to see him as a friend! But I let it pass because probably in just a few more days, I'll get over him, I'll get over this feeling. If we stayed friends longer, I might not see him all perfect anymore and I'd probably be disgusted by the thought of us being together.
Yeah this will work! When I'm over him I'll just see him as just another guy I go with at school.
"I'll get over him".
- Writer
