My Triplet Lovers

The End Of August

This is the day!

I mean- This might be the day!

I've got a few more letters off the alphabet to be my plan but hopefully even before I get to Z, things will finally be back to normal.

- 6:00 am -

I walk on my way to school as I continue to stay positive as I know change is inevitable and if things changed once, for sure things can change again.

I take a peek before I head into my classroom.

Phew, no one's here yet. I then go straight to my seat and put my bag down.

At this time I know no one will be around yet but I could be wrong since it's been a while since I got to school this early.

Before I do what I wanted to, I check by the nearby rooms if anyone was there. Luckily I'm the only one here.

Now is the time!

I start to hum the melody of my song but in a way only I could hear it hoping that no one will hear it 'cause you can never be too sure because someone might just be right behind me listening to me sing.

I started to hum 'til I get to the lyrics I wrote... "....hmmm... hmmm... I walk past you every day... but you never tried and look my way... hmmm... " I continue to hum feeling free because I never really sang around people even though they say my voice sounds great, It still feels different when there's no people around you listening to you sing.

I continued.

"... I try my best for you to notice me... hmmm... but the girl you want is what I could never be.... hmmm... HMMmm... hmmmMM... ". As I continue getting more into the song I made and continue to get in deeper with probably more words about rejection, it's all starting to come together. Some lyrics might be heartbreaking for me, but the melody sounds quite fine though.

" Hmmm... hmm.. hmm... I could never be yours... but can we try even just for a while and open your heart's closed doors... Oh woah oh ohhh... hmmm... " I continued enjoying my bitter words like there's no one listening to me. But apparently, I was wrong. Someone was listening to me!

In fear of who it is, I slowly turned my head while my eyes were closed because of embarrassment.

I slowly opened my eyes hoping no one was there...

And...

No one was there!

phew... I sighed in relief.

I decided to stop singing 'cause that's probably a sign that I should stop before anyone really did hear me.

I sat down then after 15 minutes someone finally arrives, and it's Troy.

I already have a plan but I haven't finished the other things yet so I must resist the urge to talk to him because it would ruin the whole plan. So I continued avoiding eye contact with him but it's weird that I needed to because he started staring at me the same way as before... but I shouldn't assume just yet before I've confirmed anything yet... Ironic that I'm the one avoiding him this time.

For another 15 minutes, the atmosphere in here was quiet. I mean, I shouldn't be even surprised because it's been like this between the two of us for a whole month. But somehow, some part of me just can't accept that this is how things are gonna end. I can't accept the fact that it ended that quickly... this isn't the happy ending I was expecting. But like they say...

"If it's not happy, it's not the end"

I keep on saying those words so I wouldn't give up so easily on anything and so far, it worked up until now.

To avoid looking his way I continued writing my song. Hopefully, that'll be enough to distract me from his irresistible stare.

- 7:30 am -

Finally, our classmates were already arriving and in the nick of time which meant, I don't need to avoid the growing tension between me and Troy.

Although since he is my seatmate... I still couldn't avoid getting tempted to look at him, I mean... I'm only human.

I decided to focus on our lessons thinking that it'll drive me to distraction, away from Troy's chocolate-colored eyes. I just need a little bit more time and I'll do it, I want this to be perfect.

- recess -

I'm all set and no one seemed to notice that I was gone so I proceeded with my plan.

I went back to my classroom while everyone was downstairs in the cafeteria.

I was about to put it down on his desk but before I could, someone knocked on the door then I heard the door open from behind me. I immediately looked behind while hiding the thing behind my back.

It was a teacher!

"Why aren't you downstairs yet? it's recess time, and everyone's there already"

The teacher informed me.

In shock and embarrassment, I just went along with it and made an excuse "Umm... ma'am... ah yes I was just about to head downstairs"

"Then I'll come with you, let's both go down" She let her one hand out so I could hold it as we went down to make me feel safe 'cause I was pretty sure she could see right through me that I was scared and nervous. But that's not how I exactly want things to go but I followed her blindly and forgot what I did next then before you know it, I was already downstairs in the cafeteria.

Oh God! it's lost!

I panicked and tried looking everywhere, I tried retracing my steps hoping I'd find it before anyone else does. But apparently, one of the rules was that we can't go to our classroom in the middle of recess.

So there I sat anxiously waiting for the bell to ring because I'd be completely embarrassed if someone else found it!

Time passed by slower while this nervous feeling was rising quickly.

I kept looking at my watch and it's as if time wasn't moving but it already feels like an eternity here.

Then I checked it again, time really wasn't moving! my watch was broken!

But good thing the bell rang in the nick of time. I ran as quick as possible to be in front of the line thinking I might've left it in the classroom. But I wasn't quick enough... I got stuck in the middle of the line.

The line started to move but the boys went in first which raised my fear of one of the boys finding it first THEN THEM READING IT TO THE ENTIRE CLASS!

"I knew I shouldn't have done this!" I say to myself in frustration.

Then the girl's line was next. Phew, I couldn't wait any longer to head back to our room.

As we got inside I tried looking around where I could've possibly left it but also trying not to look suspicious because if I did leave it here, someone should've found it by now.

But I see no trace of it. Now I thought, What if the teacher got it!

No! no one else should see it other than him!

Oh no... I'm in huge trouble and if I could remember it correctly...

I signed it! THIS IS A DISASTER! I'M A DISASTER!

This is gonna haunt me for awhile thinking... who could've seen it? or even got it and why would they keep it anyways??

I looked at anyone who could possibly be reading by now, but I saw no one. Then I looked at Troy...

HE'S BEEN STARING AT ME ALL THIS TIME??

He's smiling again. I looked behind me but he doesn't seem to be looking that way.

Wait-

Did he-

Was he the one who got it?? I mean- that was the whole point of it but why does it look like he's about to laugh? Maybe he thought it was ridiculous and funny... the thing I poured my heart and soul to...

Before my feelings got even worse, our next teacher came in.

"Good morning class! before we start off with our lesson, I'd just like to tell you what I found"

Our teacher happily announced but I couldn't care less 'cause it feels like I've gotten rejected again even with him not saying a word... I could already take the hint with Troy's look on his face...

"I found something earlier and it looks like it's a love letter!... "

Our teacher gladly shared.

W-wait... letter?

But it couldn't be...

" ... wait it's more like a poem!"

Oh no... please don't read it out loud...

"I respect that she or he wants it to be only between the two of them so I'm not sharing the poem but all I could say is she or he must really love this person and whoever she or he wrote it to, they don't know how lucky they are that they found a person like this... whoever wrote this is probably in this room, so you know who you are and I'll meet you later before you go to eat lunch."

I was kinda happy that she was the one who found it because if anyone else found it, they would probably share it with the whole class and make fun of me.

But wait-

If she got the poem...

Then why is Troy looking at me that way?

"It troubles this heart of mine,

maybe this is destiny's sign"