My Triplet Lovers

Does She Ever Think Of Me?

- Evening -

There at night I look up to the ceiling and start to wonder, Does she ever think of me? the way I think of her?

All I could think of her thinking of me now is that I'm a huge coward and jerk.

If that's the case, I hope when the truth is finally set free, she'll change her mind even just a little bit.

That Sunday night, I thought that what if I do it tomorrow? I mean, there is classes tomorrow and I get to see her in person.

It's better in person than in chat 'cause who knows? she might actually still be mad but I'm not that sure yet about that one 'cause she just looked angry and that doesn't mean that she's angry at me.

Although if she was, that'll put me in a harder spot which would probably make her not wanna accept my apology so soon.

Now that I think of it, I need to think even more ahead of the possibilities and outcomes of our “talk” soon.

After thinking of it, I immediately grabbed my notebook and wrote down the possible scenarios of that future talk with her.

I write down the ways I could calm her down just in case she was mad at me.

Now I think of multiple scenarios that could possibly happen like this first one.

Starts writing down the words*

Scenario no. 1 : The bold move

In the classroom*

As soon as Maya arrives before class starts, which usually is pretty early...

I'll stand up from where I sat and go walk up to her (wait? aren't we just seatmates? I'll just erase that part later) I then just hand her the present I made for her, say sorry and say nothing more to her and simply just walk away.

When I get back to my seat, (again, I'm such an i***t to think that our seats are so far away) I just wait and assume that she's forgiven me already.

No, no, no... that last line doesn't sound right...

I'll just scratch off that last part from this one.

Ok so now where were we? Oh yeah, the waiting.

Second part of what could happen.

I just wait until she finally decides to talk to me and tells me either “thank you for this" or asks me what it's for.

If she goes with a “Thank you”, we could either continue our conversation from there but if she goes for the “What it's for” as to where I answer her with...

“It's an apology gift” where she might answer me with “Oh, Thank you!” if things go well but if things go the other way around, what could happen is that she gets even more furious because of my gesture and reply to me with...

“You think by giving me a gift I'll forgive you??” probably slap me as well-

Well, this isn't the best one yet and Luke did mention that if I give it before saying sorry, she'd get mad at me more but that's why I thought of a scenario no. 2.

Scenario no. 2 : a sweeter approach

While in the classroom*

As I wait for Maya to arrive, I get my gift for her ready in my pocket.

Now as she enters the room, I stand up and walk towards her before she could even sit down.

There we stand in front of each other looking into each other's eyes, then slowly... I grab her hand and open it and place my gift on her palm.

Look at her seriously in the eyes while going in closer near her ear and whisper to her...

“I'm sorry, I really am... Can we talk?”

And I stare at her once more just waiting for an answer.

Note to self : when you're saying sorry to Maya, whichever scenario might happen, never forget to be sincere with your apology to her.

Now, the next bit that could happen is either one of these two...

She thinks for a while what her decision would be while looking at the ground and her cheeks slowly turning red.

She nods slowly while still avoiding eye contact and whispers

“Y-yes...".

BUT

It could go the other way around...

She looks up and stares aggressively in my eyes then shout...

“NO! YOU THINK I STILL WANT TO TALK TO YOU??".

Then angrily, she throws the bracelet on my face and shoves me to the wall behind me.

And we never speak to one another again...

Oh jeez... this is only getting worse...

Maybe third time's the charm?

I mean none of it has happened yet but it's still quite concerning.

Scenario no. 3 : Be mysterious

I arrive at school much earlier than anybody*

While the room's empty, I put the gift on her seat and stick a note on top of it saying...

“To : Maya

I need to tell you something, it's important... meet me at the cafeteria by lunch, hoping to see you there..."

And don't put a name, or else it won't be secret anymore of who it's from.

To not get caught, after placing the note, leave the room as quick as possible and just stay in the bathroom. She can't possibly see you there.

'Cause if I go to the cafeteria, there's a tiny chance that she'd go there and see me.

10 minutes before the bell rings, head back up to the classroom and don't look at her at all if she's there or else she might suspect I was involved with it.

Then...

She keeps checking for a name in the box where the present is in but she found nothing even on the note so she looks around... Checking if anyone is looking at her thinking they might be the one who sent it to her.

But she found no one so instead, she just agrees and then wait 'til it's lunch time.

- Lunchtime -

Make her go to the cafeteria first then when she's already there, Approach her but from where she can't see you.

Once I'm right behind her, tap her on the shoulder and say her name.

“Maya...”

She looks to see who's behind her and see's me.

“What are you doing here...” she asks.

Then, I tell her who the message was really from...

“Maya, I'm the one who gave you this gift and that note... I just really need to tell you something. At least just give me a little time to explain”

She nods, and says...

“Go ahead, your clock is ticking."

*explains why I ignored her without telling her the WHOLE reason why I did the things I did*

Now her response could go many different ways but it's more likely to be...

“O-ok... I'll admit, it hurt me to keep on waiting when you'd finally notice me again or at least tell me why you did it.

But I don't want to think of it any longer, Can we at least be friends again?"

And then I agree and hopefully we both end the hurting we felt which obviously is both my fault why it happened.

And from there we continue to be friends until that day comes.

I hope I could end it there but the other thing that could happen is still possible so I guess I still need to say it.

she says...

“So? You think that can be a reason for acting like a jerk? You kept ignoring me even if you could see that all those times, A tear could've fell just because of your nonsense reasons yet you looked at me all those times looking like you couldn't care less about the way you're acting.”

Before I could even say a word, she would probably already walk out on me...

I still don't know if I should do this...

Jeez Troy! snap out of it, at least be brave enough to tell her that you're really sorry for everything and that you were wrong!

She might not forgive me but at least I tried.

Not knowing which way I should do it, I went to bed and just go with whatever happens tomorrow.

There might be more chances that I regret this apology or mainly how I choose to apologize to her, I'm still filled with hope and determination that this isn't the end!

- Monday Morning : “the day” -

I went at 6 am hoping for an early start to plan out whatever I could do for her to forgive me or at least how to even make the right words come out of my mouth and get my nerves all relaxed before I do any of this.

But because of the pressure of the thought that I might lose Maya, I eventually thought of nothing for almost two hours and I never noticed that she already arrived.

In my seat, I was sweating like crazy thinking whether or not I do this today...

But if I take any longer, I might lose the chance to tell her and she'll no longer forgive me.

I felt my eye twitching and I was starting to fidget with my hands out of the pressure and nervousness this plan is causing me, so I rushed to think and decide already what my next move is or else all that planning will be put to waste.

“No matter which way I look into it,

For me we were always a perfect fit”