David n Derricks love Story once upon a time!

Another day comes to a end for David a 36 year old man who finally decides to give love another try after being a victim of Domestic violence while in a 13 year relationship. My friend will comes to my house on day and ends up forgetting to return my debit card. I called him bring it back to me. will says he is on the way to drop it off with his friend Derrick who's giving him a ride, As will arrives to my house he asks if him and his friend could come inside and hang out, Of Course I said. I opened the door and was introduced to Derrick a 6,0 135lb African American man I look at my friend will and introduced us to each other. we sat down and starting talking like we knew each other we enjoyed the time we had and finally it was time to wrap up our time we said good bye and me and Derrick exchanged numbers. From that moment me and Derrick were learning more and more about each other spending more time together we were getting closer and closer. we texted each other through our the day and we clicked we grew stronger and stronger and we both had life story's we shared and we had many of the same thoughts, feelings, we shared things that made us cry as well as things that made us smile. Derrick and I both continued to learn good and bad things about each other as it made us want to keep on learn more about each other. Days weeks and months pass by me and Derrick were in a relationship and we were strong we had each other's back and we were happy. we never argued or never fought we were a good team. as time went on just as any couple faces challenges we had some ups and downs mis understandings.we took trips to the beach and always spent time together. as time went on eventually I had derrick move in with me and we started to start a life as we both had wanted we both agreed this was what we wanted a few months go by and me and derrick decide we wanted to get married. I couldn't believe it was this happening I never thought I would get married I never thought someone so sweet caring kind hearted a man so gentle could ever love me the way he did. the way he would look at me made me feel special the touch of his hand made me feel safe. the little things he would do for me like when we're driving and the suns in my face he would automatically put down the visor for me or blast his AC so I wasn't uncomfortable. I was so touched we were falling in love with each other and I never felt a love so strong like we had. derrick had a friend that he claimed as his brother who was always with him .they were always together eventually I told derrick that it was bothering me on how much they were together and it was awkward at times. I wasn't really mad that they hung out with each other it was more like derrick was a different person around his brother he wasn't able to be his self. when it was just me and derrick there was a whole different side the real derrick came out. I am not sure we're me and derricks brother got off on the wrong foot but we seemed to clash a lot I know he's looking out for derrick and all I respect that but I am in love with Derrick and just wanted a life with him as he did too but there was just always something I wasn't trying to disrespect no one but I wish I had Derrick to stand by my stand regardless if we are mad at each other or if we're not getting along, that's when I needed him the most I only wanted to have him by my side and to feel and to know that that would never change. i sometimes tried to think about life if I wasn't around I felt like I needed to to cause pain to myself by cutting here n there, i asked myself if i am dreaming to wake up.Derrick loved making music he is a great singer and when he would sing it did something to me of course he made me cry he was the first one to sing to me he always had me teary eyed. his voice filled my heart with joy every time. derrick is the love of my life the one person I never thought I would find in life then here he comes. he's been though a lot of tough obstacles in his life and I threw some things in his face at times out of anger which I know is not right. I know I really hurt him with my words and he now hates me and wants nothing to do with me ever. I wish I could make it up to him and things were okay but I know that's never gonna happen. I hold on to all our memories we have made throughout our time and it kills me I will never love anyone as much as I love him. my heart is torn.. Derrick had a nephew named cayden who was adorable and was like derricks Child he was so involved in cayden s life it was amazing to see how much much he had for him he told cayden to school and picked him up every day helped him with school work took him places he disciplined him when needed and basically was like his dad. cayden had so much love for his uncle derrick and eventually I was Uncle Dave . I love that kid so much the laughs and trips to McDonald's and just being included was by far the most rewarding feeling I could ever feel. cayden you are such a great kid and I it was a pleasure to get to know you lil man your Uncle Dave miss you so much. the love that I felt was a love so strong you guys showed me the meaning of being loved. my heart will always have this empty space in it and nothing or no one will ever fill it. then things started testing us. we got into arguments here and there we said things to each other that we shouldn't have we spent time away because we were mad at each other but eventually we worked things out. When I first met derrick he shared to me how he became the great man he is today, Derrick struggles with the loss of his amazing father a strong, independent , hardworking, father who taught derrick right from wrong, he showed derrick the importantance of values he taught derrick how to survive , what was expected of him as a man he made derrick perfect. I know it's hard for derrick to not have his dad around but he's always with you. your dad would be so proud of the man you are today. Derrick didn't really have or want a relationship with his mom he had his reasons and I respected his reason. I told derrick my goal was over time get him to talk to his mom and hopefully they could have a stronger relationship day by day. Derrick didn't believe I could make it happen but I did which was a big important time to me I am honored to have met his mom she's a wonderful lady and I she me made derrick so perfect. Derrick and I were compatible like 100 percent we felt the same sadness, we read each other's mind, we know what each other's thought were, we were in sync with each other. His smile lit up the sky like no other. I would watch him sleep sometimes and wondered why derrick would want me?, why would you love me? could someone like derrick love someone like me or was it in my head. I am sure he could find someone who was cuter, skinny more inshape, someone who was more attractive and better for him. I wasn't any of that. I didn't understand if I was dreaming or wishing on a life I could never have derrick was out of my leauge. Derrick showed me love like no other we were a work in progress of course we made mistakes. we got married in June of 2024 on derricks birthday like we planned now this is were my heart dies after we got married me and derrick haven't spoken since through everything that's happened between us i guess he was done its been 4 months since i heard from him and i am so lost and heart broken. I know I have said things and I can't take it back but I am missing this man so much it's crazy the love is gone he doesn't love me anymore he just forgot me. I think about him everyday every second of life. life will never be the same without him. His Irish spring body wash breaks me down when I smell it and his body scrubers. his shaving kits just make me think how I could mess up something so great. life has become meaningless for me and is always gray. I find myself depressed more then ever. I cry myself to sleep every night just in so much pain .I pray that one day I get the chance but I know I won't. I pray he's okay I pray he's healthy and he's taking care of his self. Derrick is a strong smart minded man and I lost this one for sure. I will miss him deeply and hate being without him.I am losing my mind my heart is so broken i wish we could fix this I thought our love would make us get through anything but I see I was completely wrong. Derrick we're ever you may be I am really sorry for being stupid and not thinking about my actions and I miss you so much words can't express how much I know you hate me and I want you to know that you will always be my night n shinning armor and my true love.