I woke up about 10a.m. after a dreamless sleep. The news from the detective hits me again. This is my life now. I might as well try and accept it. I reach for my phone checking my notifications when I see I have a message from Ian.
Ian - Hey Sam, just checking in. You good?
Me - Hey yeah I'm good. Want to hang out tonight?
Ian - I'm working tonight, but come by and have a few beers. On the house.
Me - Sure. See you then.
I close out of that message and hover my finger just above Isaac's name. Detective Summers said that if I trust him I can tell him. And I trust him like I trust Sadie. But can he handle the news? I need someone I can talk to about this stuff though. I'll tell Ian tonight when I see him. Opening up the text chain with Issac I start typing.
Me - Hey, can we talk?
Issac - Yeah, you ok?
Me - Yeah, I just need to talk to you. Can you come over?
Issac - Be there in 10.
I put my phone on the table and go to get presentable. I decided to wear a pair of light jean shorts that reach a little above mid thigh and a tank top with a loose off the shoulder pull over shirt. Putting my hair into a messy bun. I decided to wear sandals today instead of my normal DC's. Shortly after I finish getting ready there is a knock on my door. I take a deep breath and walk to the door. This is it. Here goes nothing. Opening the door I am met with a handsome as ever Issac with his tussled hair. He looks tired.
"Hey."
"Hey, um, come in." I step aside letting him in.
"Would you like a drink?"
"No, I'm good."
"OK." We walk to the couch and sit down. We sit there in silence for a moment. I'm trying to get the nerve to start the conversation but it's not easy.
"Sam what's going on?" He says breaking the silence first.
"Um.... Sorry this is hard."
"I'm listening." I face him and take another deep breath.
"You keep asking me to tell you what has happened. To tell you about my past."
"And?"
"Please don't look at me or treat me any differently after I tell you."
"Sam what is it?" After taking another deep breath I tell him everything. Everything about Sadie, Alex, and Scott. My accident. Along with Zack and Jason. Everything about Vegas and what happened in the hotel room, and the fake funeral and the mofia. EVERYTHING!! We have been sitting here for about 2 hours. He doesn't say much. Just asking questions here and there. He goes back to staying quiet. It's a bit innerving.
"Say something please."
"It's a lot to take in Sam. I'm just trying to wrap my head around all of it."
"You wanted the truth."
"I know. I just didn't know it was going to be all this." He says getting up and walking around a little bit. I want to tell him that my given name is Ally, but I'm not sure he can handle it. Not only that I think it'd be wise that I keep letting him know my name as Sam since this is going to be my name for the rest of my life. Ugh. Welcome to my f*cked up life.
We sit in silence for a bit longer before he comes to sit down next to me. He faces me and I'm a little nervous. What is he going to say? He gently grabs my hand making me face him a little more. We sit face to face just looking at eachother.
"Thank you for telling me." He says drawing small circles over the top of my hands. A concerned look crosses his face as he feels my hands shaking.
"Talk to me."
"It's a lot for me to handle. I just told you basically my whole life story. You know everything now. And I..." I'm cut off with Isaac grabbing the back of my neck and gently bringing me closer to him. Kissing me ever so gently. The feel of his lips on mine makes me melt a little. His lips are so soft. I can't help it. I kiss him back. Before things get too heated, Isaac pulls away a little bit.
"I don't take for granted what you told me. I'm happy you trusted me enough to tell me. I'm not going anywhere, Sam." He says bringing me back in for another kiss. We pull away from each other and he brings me into his chest just holding me. I didn't know how much I needed him to hold me until now. H*ll I didn't know I needed him till now. We've always danced around each other but it never went anywhere. I guess now that the secret is out of the bag we can move forward.
"Hey, I'm meeting up with your brother in a few hours. Want to join for some drinks?'
"Sure, what time?
"Around 7."
"That works. I have a few errands I have to do but then I'll come pick you up."
"You don't have to."
"I want to." He says pulling me back into another small kiss. About 10 min later I am walking Isaac to the door. He gives me another small kiss before he goes. Now what do I do with the rest of my day?
I go to the pharmacy and pick up my prescription. Then to the store to pick up a few things. My fridge is looking a little empty. As I'm walking up and down the isles I can't help but to think about Issac. Isaac is the strong silent type. We goof around every now and then but I really don't know much about him. I know he works out daily, I know he has a soft spot for his niece Cami, and I know that he is a strong protector of people he cares about. But all this information came from Ian. That's the only reason why I know some of the things I do. Hopefully, since I opened up he will too.
It's about 7:30 now. I decided to take a cat nap and get some food in my stomach before tonight. I know if I didn't eat first the guys wouldn't let me drink till I did. I'm not going to change. I'm comfortable in what I have on. I go freshen up my make-up a bit and put my favorite body spray on. It smells like vanilla coffee. 2 of my favorite scents rolled into one. 7:50 rolls around and I hear a knock on my door. He's early. I open the door and see him standing there. He's hot. As usual. I smile to myself.
"You ready to go?"
"Ya just let me grab my purse." I turn around and walk to the kitchen table grabbing my phone, keys, and purse.
"OK, let's go."
A few minutes later we are pulling up to the Redman. Walking inside we see that it is dead right now. Perfect opportunity to fill Ian in. I told him the just of it and to say he was shocked was the understatement of the year.
"I've known you for 5 years. You've been really secretive all that time. This is what you have been hiding?"
"Ya, I'm sorry I couldn't tell you guys before. But it has to stay between us. My life depends on it."
After swearing to keep my secret, we can finally let go and enjoy the night. Since Ian was working Isaac and I decided to play some pool. He kicked my butt 2 times and I beat him 3 times. Finally deciding to go sit at the bar we ordered another round, still laughing and enjoying each others company. He's really easy to talk to when he's not acting all moody and bodyguardish.
"Thanks for coming out with me tonight. It's been fun."
"Of course. I haven't seen you this happy in a while."
"It's hard to be happy when your future is so uncertain."
"I wish I could help in some way."
"You are."
"How?"
"By being here with me." He doesn't say anything in response. He simply brings me closer to him placing the sweetest kiss on my lips.
"It's about time." Ian laughs as Isaac and I pull apart smiling and laughing a bit.
"What do you mean? I ask.
"Shut up bro." Isaac chuckles. Ian looks between us still smirking.
"You 2 have been dancing around each other for 5 years. It's about time you finally figured it out." Ian chuckles. Then going back to attend his customers.
"Do you want to get out of here?" My voice is just above a whisper, coming out a little more timid than I wanted it to.
"Sure. Your place or mine?"
"Do you have your fridge stocked with my beer?"
"No but we can stop by and get some."
"OK. Your place it is. Besides I've always liked your surround sound." I giggle as we get up. Saying goodbye to Ian we start walking away when he yells.
"Don't do anything I wouldn't do!!" He laughs. I just shake my head and Isaac and myself walk out the door. I check the time on my phone. It's 10:45. Still early. We hit the store then head to his house. It takes us 10 min to get to his house. H*ll it takes 10 min to get anywhere in this town. We get up to his front porch and he unlocks his door guiding me inside. Before putting our drinks in the fridge he hands me one and I take a seat on the couch. He joins me a second later. We spend some time still talking. About our childhoods, about our teenage years, who did the crazier stuff as a teen, that he won hands down. And we talk about our past relationships.
"I was with my ex for 3 years. She was cheating on me for 2 of those years. When I found out I took everything she had at my old apartment and burned it in front of her house. But when it comes to exes, I would have to say that you having to pretend to bury yours and never being able to see him again makes you the winner of sh*tty endings to a relationship."
"Yeah it was pretty sh*tty. But a few good things came from it."
"Like what? Winters that last 8 months out of the year?" He laughs a deep-throated laugh that I hardly ever get to hear.
"No, hahaha. Like meeting you." He pauses looking at me. Looking into his dark green eyes I can't help like they are pulling me in. Looking into my soul. I reach up putting my hand on his cheek. Feeling his stubble under my finger tips, as he put's his hand on my thigh, rubbing small circles there. I pull him towards me making the first move, connecting our lips. I love the way he tastes. The way he smells. I'm getting a little heated so I decide to take it a step more and push him back while I get on top of him straddling him. Our make out session is getting more heated as he squeezes my hips moving them back and forth. The friction is driving me crazy.
Issac pulls away from me.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'm sure." My voice comes out in a breathy whisper. It's been so long since I have been with anyone. And I trust Issac. So yes I want this. Issac pushes me up to a standing position, taking a stand right in front of me connecting our lips again. As we make our way to his bedroom stripping each other along the way we make it in to his room and on to the bed as he holds his body slightly above mine kissing me everywhere. Making my body light up like the 4th of July.
"You're so beautiful Ally."
"WHAT?!"