meth mimics mania

circles

I remember my first suicidal thought and I wish I was still in that place

problems that I had before are so much easier to face

Back then I wasnt on drugs and now they are all laced

try to find myself respect but everything's been misplaced

Nobody wants to be seen with me and everybody is ashamed

they seem coming in public and they turn the other way

but what I don't know is what I've done to be such a sad disgrace

I try to be a good person but apparently that's not the case

I look back at my childhood and everything's getting erased

the things that made me who I am no longer have a face

I feel like I've been walking in circles I've been walking in circles for days

somebody take me with you I'm alone because nobody stays

everyone just telling me that I'm the reason it's this way

I'm the one that causes it and I push everyone away but I know that I didn't wake up and do any of that today

so what will they do when they see that my lights are starting to fade

will anyone regret it would you wish that they would have stayed

It wouldn't make any difference because I'm killing myself today