meth mimics mania

kill myself

If I were to kill myself right now,

it wouldn’t be for me.

It would be so Kimber wouldn’t have to know

me or the burdens of our family.

I don’t want her to know us,

and question her mental health.

I don’t want her to wonder what she did wrong

and I don’t want her to question herself

.i don’t want her to be like me

and wish she were somebody else

If I wasn’t going to wake up,

I think I’d stay asleep for my dad.

He’s worked his entire life for us

and we were all he had

. He has gotten close to us finally

, but only in the last moments of his life

. If you asked him , his dead son, or myself,

we would say it was because of his wife

If I ceased to live today

and my body refused to breathe

, please know that I’ve given it so much thought

and I really do want to leave

I’m tired of navigating this world alone

and I’m going on an adventure with Bubs

he finally said he would come with me

but I always knew he was.

I thought I’d have a few days longer

and never knew what he meant.

When he said he would die at home,

he didn’t mean from fent.

I just watched my dog go

maybe there’s still time to catch up with him.

I’m sure that he’s moving slower for me

because that’s the way he lived.

I feel so much that I failed him,

I should have been around to give him a home ,

I couldn’t get here but he still saved me

and didn’t let me die alone

. I tried to shine a light to guide the way

but he was blind when he chose to go.

I’ve failed all the ones that I love

and I can’t find a purpose,

everyone that I think is worth it

just wastes our time and hurts us.

I just want to do right

and be a person that’s worth their faith.

When I saw you coming towards mejgmnv

I should have turned And walked a way.

Since I didn’t I’ve hurt myself

and Let you put hate in my veins.

I’d give anything to die right now

but I’m scared they won’t look at me the same.

If they find me here in bed,

with my dogs and my lips have long turned blue

just know that I’d do it all again

if it did any good for you

Because I finally found my purpose,

to give my life to save just one

If I die it would be worth it

because then you would finally be done

I’m going to live my life like theirs

And die so you can live

So you can feel the weight of my death

And when I die you live