meth mimics mania

loved an addict

Loved an addict

Sunday, June 4, 2023

12:38 AM

To anyone who's never loved an addict

I hate to say this but I hope it happensAnd that you can still claim that it’s all a choiceAs you go your first day just waiting to hear their voice And you hold your breath as you pick up the phoneAnd then have to respond that no he still isn’t homeAnd right then you break a little insideBecause all you care about is that he’s aliveIt doesn’t matter that he stole your car or your daughters Christmas You’d forgive anything just to l that if he’s going let Him go in his sleep tonightBecause your not sure either of you has any more will to fight You’re only way of waking him is the promise of the mornings lightBut then the problem comes when the sunlight isn’t home And you wish more than anything that he doesn’t die aloneYou want to be there but you don’t want to see itWhen they tell you that he’s goneYou still slap his lifeless body because you just don’t believe itHe is just sleeping but looks stuffed inside his clothesHis lips are tinted blue and the colors reached his noseLaying there just like you left him before he died of an intentional overdose It wasn’t an accident or a crime He hated his lifeWhen he died it was suicide

because you weren't reason enough to stay alive and you left himNow you have the things that have haunted you in your dreamsThey harvest his organs and you can't drown out your own screamsThat escaped from your lungs the moment that he let goHe isn't gonna pick up the phoneHe's never coming homeYour son just overdosed