The mate i was never meant to Have

What was I doing here? That was the hundredth time I found myself asking the same question as I stood in front of Reid’s apartment while the moon glowed dimly in the night sky. Tomorrow was supposed to be my mother’s remarriage to the Alpha of Silverstone Pack but I didn’t feel the least bit happy about it. I hadn’t even approved of it, yet it was happening tomorrow, right under my watch. Dragging my feet, I walked slowly toward Reid’s house. My boyfriend. The only person I wanted to see at that moment, the only one who could possibly offer me the comfort I desperately needed. He had been my support and pillar for a year and half now. From the moment I learned that my mother was dating Alpha Darius of Silverstone Pack when she knew too well that I had loved his son, Alexander, for as long as I could remember. Reid had been there. Dating him had been my escape, my attempt to let go of the foolish crush I had on Alexander, especially since my mother’s relationship with his father would soon make us family. When Reid asked me out, I had said yes hoping that loving him would help me forget Alexander. And over time, I truly did. Reid loved me too. In less than two years, our love had grown strong. Two days from now, we were supposed to celebrate our one and half year anniversary together. But as I reached his door, my steps halted. It was open. I frowned. I hadn’t told him I was coming. The door was slightly ajar as though he had gone inside and forgotten to lock it behind him. Confusion tugged at me. But before I could process the thought, a sharp sound sliced through the stillness of the night. A breathless moan. No matter how hard I tried to tell myself it wasn’t what I thought, I knew that sound too well. My heart lurched. I tried to steady my breathing, tried to convince myself that I was wrong and that it was just my imagination. But then, it came again. Louder this time and undeniable. Without realizing it, my legs began to move on their own, dragging me toward the source of the sound. Each step felt heavier than the last until I found myself standing in front of Reid’s bedroom door. I hovered there for a long moment, frozen in disbelief. No. Reid couldn’t… We’d been together for over a year. We’d sacrificed so much for each other. I had done everything for him, things he’d always praised me for. He used to tell me how he couldn’t live without me. Just this morning, he’d looked into my eyes and reassured me of his love before heading to work. There was no way this could be happening. Holding my breath, I pushed the door open. And my world stopped. Reid was on top of another woman, her soft moans filling the room as he moved inside her. For a moment, I couldn’t move, couldn’t speak. Couldn’t even breathe!. I just stood there, staring blankly, unable to make sense of what I was seeing. Neither of them noticed me. They were too lost in each other. Reid and the blonde cheerleader from our academy last year. The same one he’d always told me he hated. The same one he’d called shallow and vain. “Reid?” I finally managed to whisper, my voice trembling in disbelief. He froze. And in that single second, the illusion of everything I thought we had shattered into pieces. It was only when I called his name that he finally seemed to move, his eyes widening as he pulled out of her, his p***s glistening with their mixed fluids. He wasn’t even wearing protection. I didn’t know what hurt more. The fact that he was cheating, the fact that he didn’t wear one, or the realization that it must have been going on long enough for him to reach that level of comfort, to be pounding into her bare. “Sophia, it’s not what you think…” he muttered, standing up from the bed and lazily wrapping a bedsheet around his waist. My mouth dropped open in disbelief. “Not what I think?” I rasped, my voice trembling with anger and heartbreak as I stared at his sweaty body. “Come on, Sophia,” he said casually, as if this were just another conversation. “I was just trying to have fun. It’s not like I’m the first person to do it. I only wanted to keep myself entertained so I wouldn’t grow bored of you. I love you too much to dump you.” He reached for my hand. The moment his skin touched mine, I yanked away as if he were carrying a plague. “Don’t touch me!” I screamed, still in shock, my heart pounding painfully in my chest. I couldn’t believe this. I caught him cheating and this was the excuse he came up with? “Come on, Sophia,” he rasped again, stepping closer. “We’ve been together for more than a year now. Fine, I admit it was a mistake if that’s what you want me to say. But don’t throw away the good times we had because of this.” “Just listen to yourself, Reid! Listen to yourself!” I screamed, the words breaking from me like shards of glass. I couldn’t believe how easily he was trying to downplay what had just happened, as if I hadn’t seen it with my own eyes. “Come on, Reid, I’m tired of waiting,” the blonde girl purred from the bed. Reid turned to look at her, hesitation flickering in his eyes but when he looked back at me, I saw it clearly. I saw it in the way his gaze shifted, in how his jaw tightened. To him, I was nothing but a disturbance, an intruder standing in the way of what he really wanted. The blonde girl still lay sprawled across the sheets, her n*****s hard and her legs parted, her juices glistening under the dim light. I didn’t wait another second. I turned and ran as fast as my legs could carry me. My vision blurred, my breath coming in sharp, broken gasps. Outside the room, I paused for a second, half-hoping he’d follow me. Half-hoping he’d realize what he’d done and come after me, apologize and say something. Reid and I had dated for months, for so long that I believed that I mattered. That he would be willing to apologize for what he had just done and beg my forgiveness. I didn't know how many times he might have been cheating on me, but in the current state I was in, I only wanted him to follow me. As a reassurance that I mattered, that I wasn't just a fling all those while he had been with me back at the academy. But he didn’t. I even stood back for a few minutes hoping that he was being indecisive. That he was at a crossroad and unsure of how best to go after me to apologize. That he wasn't sure just how to. But that wasn't the case as none of it happened despite how many times I stood, waiting for him outside his door.. Instead, what I heard next shattered me completely. The sound of his grunts. The rhythmic slap of skin against skin. Of him pounding back into her without even caring whether I was still at the door or whether I had left. Her moans filled my ears next, followed by the sounds of their wet kisses. Reid had always told me how much he hated kissing and being kissed. I had believed him, I always did. Everything he told me, I never doubted even for once, I was shocked, I was flabbergasted. As the sounds of their kissing continued with her moaning even inside his mouth as they went on. Minutes passed and she began to whimper as they broke off from the kisses as the wet noises stopped coming. His rhythmic thrusts into her was faster now. And I could hear her shouting for him to go deeper.. And he had done exactly so. As if I had never existed. As if I was nothing and worth nothing compared to his pleasure.