Love From A Distance

Chapter 22 Stranger Danger

With my knees pulled up, so my head can be tucked into them, using them like they were my mask to shield me from the outside world. I sulk in silence over every unbelievable thought of my life, that was effortlessly piled up in such a short period of time. Showing me how much of a sh*t show my life really is.

So I'm now realizing after just one day, which was full of surprises, that all my problems can be piled up. One after the other into the biggest obstacle since they all seem to be linked together somehow.

This trash, I would like to refer to as my life.. Or I guess if I'm trying to be positive I can say my old life, is starting to feel like it's a game, and this domino effect is really coming into play. But like they say, when it rains it pours.

It's kind of pathetic to think about how I once thought this sad excuse of a life was perfect, but realizing lately how wrong I really was over time. Both of us just need to stop this endless cycle we got ourselves into. Especially since the relationship we once had, have been completely destroyed at this point. So for my sanity, I'm willingly letting it fall apart because I'm tired of being the only one trying to fix this mess when there is nothing left to fix.

It's a very hard, but humbling situation for sure.. But maybe I can just learn from my mistakes and recycle this life to get me a whole new one. I just hope the drama is done with so I can start healing from all of this trauma.. I don't want, let alone imagine anything else bad happening because I would probably have another breakdown and the more I have, the harder it is to come back from.

I'm currently still in so much shock from the unexpected day, that those thoughts seem to instantly take away my breath straight from my lungs. So in my mission to be able to heal myself, I take in more air, just trying to replace what was lost with every breeze I feel pass by.

But with every breeze, I shiver and tuck myself into my body more, just trying to hold onto the little bit of body heat I supposedly have left.. I can't tell if I'm warm or just numb and not feeling anything at this point. But either way, I do like sitting like this here.. I'm completely alone, but that's honestly what I need right now since there is so much negativity in this harsh world that I would prefer to be away from.

I do find myself wishing my knees could protect me by blocking out the negativity, even though I know that's not possible. But sitting like this does seem to be helping soothe my nerves for the moment, with the help of the singing crickets and the ruffling of leaves on the ground from the cool wind that won't seem to stop.

The moisture in the air makes it smell like it's going to rain soon, so all of this mixed together is the perfect combo for bringing my anxiety back down so I don't have another breakdown.

I know this isn't safe for me on multiple levels, physically and mentally.. especially to be out in the dark park by myself without much for warmth.. but by being away from the stresses out there, I somehow feel better, at least for a moment.

I know I can't and won't hide forever but I needed to get away from this before, to mostly help clear my head and figure out what my next steps should be. But I have been out here for hours and maybe it's now time to get going back home.. or somewhere else but here.

In that same thought, the feeling of vibrations in my hand gets my attention. I groan out rolling my eyes again because I'm sure it's just my husband trying to call me again when he is the last person I want to talk to.. But because of how many times he has called me, I'm going to assume that Aiden told him how I know about his cheating ass.

I roll my eyes just to glare down at my phone to confirm if it is him.. but for once tonight it's not. It's my best friend Hannah. I let out a sigh of relief as I quickly pick up the call. She is the one person that I could use right now.

"Hannah." I squeak into the phone as I feel my eyes watering up once again.. I keep thinking the tears have finally stopped and then something happens and they get triggered again.

"Mill... girly... Aiden and Wyatt have been calling me nonstop hoping you were with me because they can't seem to get hold of you.. they just want to make sure you're safe because they know that you're on foot.. so where are you?" She asks me but this is sounding as if I owe it to them to talk to them, but right now that's the last thing I want.

That is not what I was expecting either.. I was expecting her to go haywire on both of them just on my behalf and tell me all about it.. She has always been my dependable crazy friend, and when things get tough, she will always have my back. But I guess I will ignore that comment, just to be able to see my friend that always eases my mind.

"I'm at the park by my house... sitting under the tree on the left corner of the property." I state not wanting to be alone anymore and maybe when we get together she can help make me feel better. "Ok, I'm headed that way to get you." She says hanging up the call quickly.

I let out a deep breath not knowing exactly what she is talking about.. Aiden hasn't been calling me or trying to get hold of me, like she said. I just thought he was respecting my wishes of leaving me alone like the respectful man he is.

I look down at my phone to confirm this and the missed calls I do have are all from my husband or I guess soon to be Ex husband. I look through my messages just in case and nothing from him in there either. So maybe he is respecting me but making sure I'm safe.

I'm only waiting for a moment when I hear a vehicle engine getting louder the closer it gets to the park area.. I just figure the car is going to drive by like all the others before it. Once it gets to the park, it turns to face me before coming to a stop, but staying at a standstill rumble as it sits in place with the lights shining directly on me. I stand up knowing exactly who it is because no one else knows I'm here and no one else is here to pick me up.

I leave my safe spot without hesitation to go to my savior. As I get closer I start wiping the dead leaves and dirt off of my body, to not make a mess in her car.. Even though I know she won't care, but me and my OCD do for sure. I keep cleaning myself up and as I get closer I notice that the car looks different than I last remembered.

The details of the car I know as my best friends is not the same as this one.. Not the same color, shape or size as I remember vividly. This is not a car that I have ever seen before. So I get weary.. Not knowing if this is her.. but like I said before, no one else knows I'm here, so maybe she got a new car and forgot to tell me. My stride towards her slows down at this realization, but doesn't stop.

That is until I wipe my eyes again to get rid of the gloss on them from all the tears. Just to see that the person that is driving has really short hair with the head almost hitting the ceiling of the car.. So either my best friend got a haircut and is way taller, without me knowing.. or this is someone else.

My heart is pounding so quickly that I'm afraid they might be heart palpitations from the shock. I don't know if they're here for me or not.. But there is no one else here and they knew exactly where I was, when the only person I told was my friend. I feel the anxiousness fill every last inch of my body so it's instantly taking my breath straight from my lungs in shock.

I stop instantaneously in my tracks at that thought, not going any closer and I think the stranger notices this. I don't know what to do besides call for help if this person tries anything since I'm out here alone, with nothing to protect me.

So I grab my phone out of my pocket and holding it tight in my hand. I swipe to get into the emergency call page just in case I have to start this call. They haven't done anything to threaten me yet.. But that doesn't mean they won't.. I would rather be safe than sorry.

I stare over at the black silhouette in the car, trying to figure out what this person plans to do and if it has anything to do with me. This person doesn't move at all, just staring at me. I'm assuming this, but I can't see the face or details whatsoever, only what the little bit of light from the car headlights can provide me.. which isn't much. Just an outline of this person, whoever they are, hence why I can tell the hair is short and this person is tall.

Then without a moment to lose, the person turns the car away and quickly speeds off from the park. Acting as if they are in some sort of car chase and they have to get out of here now.. Not where they actually are which is in the middle of a suburban area where there are all houses and no businesses.

This seems crazy but what is even stranger about all this is that if they were looking for someone else, you would think they would at least ask me if I have seen someone.. But not a single word was spoken to me.. Nor was anyone even picked up.

So now that I really think about it, this is looking more suspicious than I ever imagined. It makes me want to go right back to my hiding spot from before, but that's not even safe anymore since they saw me there whether they initially knew I was there or not.

I was hoping I was wrong and they weren't here for me but someone else.. But obviously I was wrong about that too, since they were not here for anyone, I would assume that mostly because they didn't do anything to prove otherwise. But as my suspicious brain starts to really get going at what this suspicious person wanted. I think about what could have been.

It could have been my husband but that wasn't his car since it's still at the mechanic and nor was it mine because I know what my car looks like. So maybe it was him but he was with his little slut in her car. but I only saw one silhouette not two.. So maybe he just took her car and then changed his mind... But if so then you would think that he definitely would have said something to me.

With this process of elimination, I also know it wasn't Aiden because he never drives unless he has to.. and I know his vehicle from anywhere, he has had the same one for years.

I start to think about the worst possibility.. maybe they are bad people and had just hoped I would get into the car without looking at the person picking me up. As if I was so distraught that I wouldn't even notice or something. How daft would I have to be to do something like that? But that's all I can imagine this person wanted from me.. because why else act like that?

Maybe Hannah told someone else my whereabouts when she initially was told by me before she left.. Who knows.. but believe me I'm asking when she gets here.

I'm shaking at this point while letting out a wavering breath. I look all around to see there is no one still around but now I feel as if I have eyes on me.. I no longer feel safe here. I anxiously await for my friend's car to show up as I pace back and forth over the small walking path. I rub over the sides of my arms to try to warm myself up while trying to calm down.. But it's hard to do that when I'm out here alone.